A letter to me

Its okay to struggle in 1st year of working. Hard time shall pass.

Forget about buying a house. U cannot afford to have one at the moment.

Focus on growing yourself first. Learn mandarin. It will enhance you in the long term. Lose some weight. Healthy body leads to healthy mind. These 2 are worth investment. Trust me. You'll become a great person!

Settle all your debt within 1year of working. Dont make new debt. Consider buying a house when you are confirm going to live in malaysia forever.

Save money to go umrah with yr mother. Cherish every moment. Have a debt free life.


Sincerely me
a confused fresh grad
29/1/2018 2345

Weh! I can retrive my blog! Oyehh! X menyempat everything express here, in the headline :3

Till then :)

Cry

I just wonder, being a very strong person is somehow tiring. When i have to decide whether i must cry or get angry. I would choose to get mad. That is how heartless i am. I develop that feelings and attitude until i realize,
Am i that heartless?
Why is it not okay to cry. I am human too. In fact a woman. Whom Allah give that specialty to cry to ease the burden.

Has i forgot how crying's like?

I wonder, if one day i burst in public. Would there be anyone would come to me, and tap on my shoulder, saying
"it is okay to cry. Let it all go"
Because i appear to be so strong that nobody ever seen me cry. Would they believe that i was actually crying. Not faking it?

What if

Oh, there is so many uncertainty in this world. Yeah. What if, one day you received a text msg saying,

Hi babe, you cant be clingy like this anymore. I am going to be someone's husband. You gotta try to be independent. Find your soalmate. I cant always be by your side like we used to be...

And it is too late for you to express your true feeling towards him 😌

Trust

It feels like so depressing to have nobody to share your problem. I have trust issue. I cannot simply tell anyone i have a problem. It shows that i am weak. I dont like people to see me when i am weak. But I am not perfect. I have flaws. I need a companion. I need a friend who I can share all my thoughts and problem. Have someone who I can lean on. 

I have this principle of not to tell or share my problem to anyone outside my family member. So when it comes to family problems. I have no one to talk to. This is depressing. Well, not every parent are perfect tho. As the oldest in the siblings. I have a lot of responsibility. I have many hearts to take care of. But who's gonna take care of mine? Getting back to this blog is really something. Atleast i have a medium i can express on other than twitter. As perfectionist. Looking weak is never gonna be in my dictionary. But i am human tho :'( 

I know i seem not to have any financial problem since birth. Alhamdulilah. I can treat my family whenever i want. As far as i can recall. I was a sponsored student since form 1. Up till now, ACCA. Not to brag, but i can say that i can get whatever I want, anytime. Using my own money, be it scholar money or from my part time working. So my parent always assume I never face a financial difficulties in my entire life. I rarely ask them money. In fact, i give them a portion whenever I received any. But at times, me too have problem. I still remember when i got no money left to pay my tuition fees sampai the lecturer said, if you tak bayar by this week. You cannot go to the class. And i cried at the staircase of the faculty. I swear to god. I must pass the paper so that i dont have to deal with this lecturer in the future. But I didnt tell my parent about that. Because, hey! I dont want to make them worry. I am responsible to give them. Not asking for more. Plus, i am known for my 'kedekut' traits. So people always assume that i kept my money some where else. It is really depressing. I am not born in a rich family. So this 2 month I was waiting for 'some' money to be credited to my account. The application has been approved. But it has been 2 month since the approval. I keep calling the otganization every week. And they said the money will be credited next week. And it goes on, week by week, until now. 2 months already. And every week my parent will call me asking for whether the money have been credited to my account or not. Because it is my deed to always give 10% of whatever money i received. So they were expecting it. It is kinda depresing! But who am I to menidakan the gift. They are my parent! Cuma bila didesak tu, rasa tertekan kot. It is not my fault when the org delay the payment. I was not being scolded. But the way they ask and that 'hmmm', 'kenapa tak kol hari2 tanya', 'kenapa kol bila dah ptg?'. I stress. 

I stress :'(

Welcoming message

Hi everybody ! Welcome back, to me :')

I'm kinda miss this blog so much. But now only i got to sign in. It has been 2 years since my last update. So much things happen. And i grew even stronger and higher every phase that i've passed. For al whoever wonder, i am currently taking ACCA. Almost half a year rightnow.

So dear blog. Brace yourself as you will have a lot alot of entry after this. I miss writing here :')

Till then,
ainZainal 💋

what would I be?

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)

hi everyone :) it has been a looonnnggggg time no see huh?

final sem is giving me a very tough and complicated and anddd pressure timee -.-

I have to get myself already all the time. tking every chances, building the route to my future.

no more wrong steps.

everything must be perfect.

seeking all opportunity to build up a desireable life in the future.

10 year from now,

what would I be?

you heart! watch out!

Allah please do...

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)

ehem, there was so many idea what to write in here, but it all goes else where now.
the truth is, I really really dont like you!ahh, out of a sudden you're throwing these word ?
okay, crap. actually I want to practice writing in english. fully english. Allah! I've lost a lot of vocab, while my grammar was never be good -.-"

ehem ehem, story about love. again.
I was about to apply my degree programme.
I told my mum the 'he' is applying too.
and mak, out of a sudden said, "insyaAllah you both gonna fly together, atleast you got friend there"
Allah! "abang is already there right?"

hurmm, whatever it is, US will still be my dream country to further my studies! second choice will be Aussie :)

Allah, please do grant my wish :'( for the sake of islam and my parent :'(

sadden

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)

hey guys! my handphone are gone :(
looking for a new phone I guess ?
ehem ehem! no daydream cik ct please ! *sedar diri kau kedekut

okay, next sadden news is,
my heaven time, free from study's burden is on 12th apr 2014,
tapii! abah just got a message stating that he got to go to vietnam on 10th apr! 4 days. works.
the question is, who's gonna fetch me at Jengkaa :(

let the time decide then :3

LOST

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)

life is getting, urmm, entah ?
I just couldn't explain it. empty. lost. negativity overwhelm.

I just want the old me
the old cik ct :'(

O Allah! guide me, protect me, save me, love me. show me the way.
dear friends, do pray for me. finding the soul of cik ct :')

istiadat konvokesyen uitm pahang

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :')

allahu!today is a bigg day for uitm pahang!
istiadat konvokesyen ke-79
jawatankuasa fotografi!cewahh :P
it was totally a hectic day though..
the first sidang was for faculty of accountancy and I, without wasting any opportunity to meet the long lost seniorita! taking couple of shot with kak zatul, kak nina, kak ayu and kak ohara ANC!Allahu!I cant hold the tears. sebak. I wish my parent can see me wearing that selempang :')

having chat with kak ohara about ACCA, she gave me some advice, the do's and dont's, tips. Allah! , how I wish I can be that strong! she said, despite from all the family problem with health, she herself pun, but still, she knows what she wants and strive for it.

"dont compete with someone who is better than you, but compete with yourself. you'll feel less presure"

okayy sis!noted!do pray for my success too :')
hurmm, I couldnt transfer the pictures taken using my phone since I dont have the usb cable.
promise to upload it soon :')

haa!lagi satu!
the way the convocation held was sebijik like my majlis graduasi when I was in MRSM Langkawi :')
air mata bergenang masa perarakan masuk graduan, all the dean and pro chancelor. no kidding! sebab the flow was seriously similar with our majlis graduasi back in maktab :'S andd, lagi sekali tear drops masa they play the "anak kecil main api" punya lagu tu. I just dont know why, every time I hear that song, mesti hati rasa sebak, the lyrics is so deep. you got to understand every line of the lyric. then you'll know how I feel. plus, maybe that song was a must during our rollcall back in mrsm langkawi. we'll sing that song every morning dengan tajwid yang betul tahu! pak said yang ajar :')
arghhh!I miss all those thing in maktab. even masa menaip ni pun mata dah bergenang dah ni :'( if I could turn back time :'( Allahu!

better to stop now, sebelum lappy ni terkena electric shot sebab terkena titisan air mata -.-"

till then :)

hi-fever

bismillahirahmanirahim, assalamualaikum :)

Allah! Allah pinjamkan sedikit kudrat ni, demam dah berapa hari tah :'(
demam rindu, puihhh~
entah angin ber-virus entah dari mana yang masuk merebak dalam badan ini sampai 2 cool-fever pun tak lut -.-" tertelan jugak 2 biji paracetamol. ehh, saya bukan takut makan ubat yea, cuma tak mahu biasakan diri dengan those drugs. abah ajak pergi clinic, tapi i tak mahu, ubat yang sama je doktor tu bg nanti, antibiotic+ubat batuk+selsema+demam. apa tak ada spesis ubat lain dah ke na bagi? saya ni demam rindu ! PUIHH lagi sekali~
baru je nak elok semalam, dapat pulak email yang mengerikan, terus demam balik -.-"
tapi ni, Allah macam bukak jalan ni, Allahu!

kerinduan teramat sangat :')

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikummm :)

tak sabar na balek KL! actually, I miss mak and abah :'(
eh, can it be atleast once apa yang  mak and abah cakap tu salah ?
they are like peramal masa depan for me :') all they said are true. I just, miss them sooo muchhh :'(
ya Allah, cepat kan masa please :'(

KK. sabah. backpack. alone.

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)

lamaaaaaaaa tak update :(
hi hello everyone :)
currently in Sabah for a vacation. a week. alone. waahhhh!excited huh?

actually, I cant wait to go home :'( yesterday I called my parent and abah said
"tulahh kalau na bercuti tak payah lama-lama, 3D2N pun dah okay, ni sampai seminggu!"
hurmm, abah is like being soooo understanding. he's like knowing my current feeling without me to mention :')

souviner are all ready. pasar filipina is awesome. I bought almost all souviner there. approximately 400 flies so far :( shirts, bags, shoe, keychain, pearl broche, fridge magnet, kerepek, udang kering? hahah! udang kering ni umi pesan. dah mcm xde udang kering lagi je kat KL -.-" ehem ehem, tinggal lagi 1 prob. I didnt book a luggage for my return flight. cuak jugak ni kalau beg tak lepas naik cabin :(
so far that I remember, dah pergi kota kinabalu of course, putatan, 1 Borneo, air terjun apatah, pasar filipina! hahah, excited much sebab duit banyak disedekah kan kat sana huh? I was thinking to go to sipadan island, tapi! jauh gilaa tahu! so nvm, kundasang pun macam ermm, nvm, maybe next time :( owh!lupa cakap, I was here to visit my friend who study in UMS too :) kawan langkawi, eza and era :) so, they who brought me to everywhere here :)

till then :)

I CANT WAIT TO GO HOMEE ! hehe,,

lappy xde jarang hapdate :(

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)

today is 28th august 2013 :) two days after my birthday :D
alhamdullilah, Allah gave me a chance to still alive and breath in this world :) what a bless :D
ehem ehem, actually, I didnt bring my baby lappy :( and that's why I dont really do some updates recently, huhu..

ahh, there's alot to update actually!tapi,,ni pinjam lappy kawan, tak kan na buat ghete pulak kann, hehe ;P

the one less travelled by

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)

and I took the one less travelled by.

ah, I just love this quote from 'the road not taken'
the poem really reflect me. what I'm currently going through.
above all, I hope that Allah always be by my side :')

yesterday, when visiting maklong, *though I dont really like them, sebab they who influence my parent to force me doing diploma. ah cerita lama usah dikenang. okay, lets continue, maklong dengan riaknya said, yana will further her degree in march since she will finish her dip this oct. and I was like -_________- speechless. selamat mak ada back up. mak said, my lect advice me to do professional after diploma, since my result is quite good. tapi paklong cakap, rugi la kalau professional terus, degree xde. nak je hati kecil ni cakap "dah memang banyak rugi pun sekarang" urghh, that's why Im telling you, maybe this is my path, my journey. I took the one less travelled by.
itu soal belajar. ini soal masa depan pulak.

I just dont know why, whenever I'm at home, I couldnt act as if I'm a teenager. I mean, I'm acting like a kid! tak matang langsung. I called my sister by nicknames, teasing them, take things not seriously, tak dapat makan, buat muka, tadi kereta abah tak dapat start, and I was the first who said, "kaklong na naik tritton cik nuar, diri kat belakang!" out of a sudden! everyone was like busy looking at our car, yet me? patutnya I pergi lah tengok2 bonet kereta tu, bajet2 makenik ke kann? ya Allah, you will have no idea if you ever seen me when I'm with my family. mesti akan terlintas dalam fikiran, "kesian budak ni terencat -.-" with my baby-face looking, my size, my height, the way I talk infront of my family. orang akan cakap I anak last -.-"

owh yes, during my first raya, balek kampung! yeay! okay takk, at rumah tok acu, there is one lady sedara mara mak juga lahh, have mistakenly thought syada is the kaklong, sara is kakngah and me?is the youngest one! darjah enam pulak dia guess tu! haa, to think of it, ini tidak bagus!dulu yes, bagus, because I can still collect duit raya from them. tapi makin tua ni, takut mak mertua tersilap meminang nanti acano?!cakap na meminang kaklong which they thought syada tu kaklong! kang dapat hadiah langkah bendul den kang! or, jalan2 raya, sedara mara spot syada dulu na di jodoh kan dengan anak memasing. owh cik ct pemikiran kau terlalu di luar kemampuan manusia normal berfikir -.-" haa! tapi betul kan cerita drama selalu macam nie?!

okay dah penat mengarut. till then :)

malam raya punya cerita

bismillahirahmanirahim and asslaamualaikum everyone!

hello hey hi!
haa, na ceritaa!
I just called abang tadi :')
kat sana still on fasting, but, probably dah berbuka lah now,
he just went back from grocery, buying some stuff to cook rendang.
"kau buat apa tu?"
"den baru balek kedai ni, beli barang2 na buat rendang"
"haa?pandai ke kau masak?"
"haa, boleh la sikit2"
"kau lepak malaysian hall lah esok?"
"takk ah, den keja esok, kat sini xdenya na cuti2 mcm kat malaysia tu"
"woah!tripple la kau dpt nie?"
"tak ahh, den buat voluntary work je nie huh,"
"owhh, btw, kuih kegemaran kau ada nie huh, umi siap masak nasi beriyani nasi tomato sbagai nie"
"eleh kau x den heran nye der, kat sini pun rasa jugak sambutan raya nya"

*okay to be truth, den yang jeles kat kau tahu! I wish I were in his shoe :'( tak pe cik ct. raya kali nie last kau ada kat malaysiaa, next year is my turnn!

then then, we went to ulu kelang, searching for lemang, and ketupat, and lontong.
since mak dont like the boiled nasi impit sebab, it is wrapped with plastics, so we prefered to buy lontong. yes, beli yea, xde masanya na mengayam bagai. #bajet keyy ell :P

and other mory is,
saya rindu abang !
eh tak, bukan bukan,
other mory is,
I'm happy!smile me smile me :)))
I got a text message from him :D haa, you make my heart melt!
thanx though :') thanx sangatt, cheering me in your own way. I know you're sweet! ahh :P
cant stop smiling lah pulakk! hahah~

okay, tukar cerita laen before me getting insane!

haa! my wish for this raya is, dear mr stomach, please enlarge now, I have to make preparation for tommorrow, all the good food are waiting for me, I just cant simply ignore them laying on the table tastefully. tadi after berbuka, makan sikit pun dah kenyang macam makan 10 ekor kerbau!cemana esok? or maybe I can skip herbalife for one day like pleaseeee :') but nayy!people are starring at mom mcm dah kurus sngt je gayanya! this is not aci! I starts consuming herbalife dulu hokeyh!hurmm,
or maybe I can get external stomach for tomoro? harharhar~

and, guess what, I'm currently mentoring abang cooking rendang!huhu :'( and so much other gossip.
abang told me that he's doing some charity work, nursing kids kat sana. age between 2-6 cmtu, and those kids sangat manja dengan dia! ahh, pentipu! he's not that mercy towards kids, WORLD HAS COME TO AN END lah jawabnya~hahahah,,
andd, much more other gossip kat facebook :(including his wish to mengumpat esok. sebab, it's our routine on every first syawal to lepak together, catch up cerita masing2 as well as mengumpat! tapi, no more this time punya raya :'(
den datang sheffield lah cmtu? harharhar #lawak hambar~

till then :')

to my dearest adik-adik KACA :)

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)

first sekali akak na mintak maaf sebab ambik masa korunk sekejap :)
erm, since kertas kata2 akak hari tu kecik, atas alasan na jimat kertas -_-" andd, tulisan akak teramatlah sukar lagi payah dibaca! tp xpe, kalau korunk na kutuk tulisan tu buruk pun xpe, sebab korunk bukan lah org pertama atau kesepuluh, dah beratus-ratus org cakap tulisan akak buruk -.-"

so, kali nie akak na cakap, well, pengalaman mengajar kita kehidupan sebenar. tak salah untuk jatuh, Nabi Muhammad SAW pernah cakap, kalau jatuh di tempat sama 2 kali tu yang teruk. kita ada pilihan! korunk sume baru part 2 and 3, masih ada banyak masa untuk berubah :) if ada dlm kalangan korunk yg pergi kaca for second time, tu bukan bermakna korunk jatuh 2 kali, tp, akak percaya, korunk da berusaha, ingat nie, Allah see yr effort, bukan final result. as long as korunk dah berusaha, nescaya Allah tu akan bagi jugak nanti :)

lagi, akak na bercerita (owh, tahu korunk mesty ckp akak nie suka bercerita kan? ) x peduli apa korunk ckp :P sebab, org cakap, lagi kita tua, lagi banyak pengalaman kita, yang mana baik korunk buat teladan, yang mana buruk, jadikan sempadan, dont be like those yang dah tahu benda tu buruk, tapi still buat benda yang sama! okay, akak na cakap, kalau korunk tengok semua orang2 yang berjaya mesty ada payah dulu, ah! itu common~ korunk pun boleh fikir kann? akak na cerita, macam mana akak boleh jadi diri akak sekarang, akak pun pernah gagal, selain gagal kimia, gagal akaun and ape tah lagi segala kegagalan yang akak cerita hari tu, akak na cerita, apa yang buat akak bangkit dari kegagalan tu semua.

akak ada matlamat.

semua pun akak pasti ada matlamat masing2 kann? okay, matlamat akak buat masa sekarang, akak teringin gilaa na fly, belajar kat luar negara, even kalau korunk baca post2 akak yg sebelum nie pun, banyak kali akak post betapa hati akak nie na fly abroad. satu je na ckp, kalau korunk rasa payah, ingat balek matlamat korunk tu. masa mula-mula sesi ta'aruf kita tu, akak tengok muka masing2 semua bukan macam muka seorang yang gagal, kalau akak jumpa tepi jalan ke apa, akak akan kata dlm hati nie semua muka budak2 pandai! no kidding :) cahaya muka korunk tu ada, cuma mugkin korunk je x sedar dengan potensi diri korunk lagi. apa yang korunk perlukan cuma semangat and matlamat yang jelas.

okay akak faham, majoriti semua tak tahu sistem pointer, sistem universiti semua tu kan? tak pe, akak na cerita, ada kakak senior akak, dia x dekan pun sem 1, sebab culture shock kan, tapi betapa hebatnya dia, sem 2 onwards dye dpt dekan! tak ANC, tp grad first class. korunk boleh buat! dengar tu muzamir! you can get dekan after this! (sbb dye yg tanya hari tu, akak lupa na cerita pasal nie hari tu) even semua pun akak doakan dapat dekan! korunk cuma perlu tahu apa yang korunk nak. masih tak terlambat sebenarnya. all you need to do is believe in yourself :) ada sorang kawan akak x pernah dekan since part1, tapi dye keep on berusaha, last2 dye dekan sem lepas! ada lagi kwn akak repeat paper, betapa susahnya dye na catch up balik dengan kami2 nie, tp last2, sekarang nie part5, dah boleh blajar secara normal balik. all you need is usaha yang istiqamah! and, always percaya dengan diri korunk. even akak percaya dengan korunk kenapa tidak korunk sendiri kann?

sebenarnya akak ada banyak lagi tips2 belajar na kongsi dengan korunk, tp masa amat lah mencemburui kita :( tapii! kalau korunk ada nak share, tanya, minx pendapat ke apa, share je dgn akak!insyaAllah, mana yang boleh tolong tu akak tolong. mana yg x boleh tu akak usahakan tanya org lain how to help you :) masalah org tak semuanya sama, jadi kalau korunk na tanya cne na belajar maths, hafal subjek yang tahap kena rebus buku tu minum air dia baru boleh dpt A, or, korunk lemah english, na tau how to atleast pass in exam. na minta ajar subjek or even na study sesama akak ke?huhh, much pleasure! mungkin dengan itu korunk lagi berdisiplin ke nanty?sbb akak kan da mmg berdisiplin, cewahh! jkjk :P tapi siesly akak na ckp, kalau korunk ada masalah na share, sila jangan segan text akak, kol ke apa. akak mmg willing na tolong!buat apa ada ilmu tapi sorokkan kann? lastly, na ckp,

I have faith in you, akak yakin, percaya korunk boleh punya!

syidi, jgn banyak main! focus! akak tengok hari tu pun you dah siap ada geng2 sendiri dah,tp berkawan ada batasannya, choose friend wisely :) akak na cerita, dulu pun akak ada geng2 sendiri, memang kerja cari pasal dgn org, mengumpat bagai. jumpa tepi jalan mana yang x sedap mata memandang tu memang kena lah dgn ktorg, tapii, akak choose to change. one of the way is, jauhkan diri dari geng2 akak tu, memang lah susah. tp akak ingat matlamat akak. tp kadang2 tu hang out jugak lah dgn dorg, cuma x selalu. I have my own vision :)

ki,,kalau ada masalah, share, jgn pendam sorang2,,akak tengok termenung je slalu, x elok tahu! kalau ada na mslh, share dgn org lain,,or, lukis2 macam hari tu. ambik A4 sehelai, huh, conteng je apa2 na conteng. akak tau, kadang2 xde sape yg faham kita ke apa, andd, macam blog akak nie, kalau akak stress sangat, akak luahkan kat blog nie, we have our own way to express feelings right?

muzamir, I think I know you, pernah daftar ahli peers dulu kann? akak ada list nama tu, andd, kalau you pernah dpt msg pasal peers, akak lah yang hantar tu! we, exco and ajk peers, ada sort of adik2 bawah tuk spread msg pasal peers, and you under me :) ermm! ANC x determine kejayaan seseorang tau, lagi bagus kalau you pernah gagal and you bangkit semula, that will differentiate you with others. think further, kalau interview kerja nnty, cerita kat majikan yg you pernah gagal and bangkit to this far, mesty majikan tu impress and hire you! kan lagi baik? gituu,,

basirah,, I know environment SR macam mana, mesty fun kann? macam mana fun nya outdoors, macam tu jugak lah akak na you fun dlm belajar! or mybe you can treat yrself? lepas belajar 1 chapter, pergi main petaque sejam dua, baru berbaloi2 kann? buat something you like after the hardship :) lukis2 ke? dah ada bakat dah hari tu tengok,,

alia, jgn memalas! rasa malas, mengantuk ke apa, ckp kat syitan tu, bisik kat dia balik, "aku tak kan ikut kata kau" pastu bangun, buat kerja yg rasa malas tu, then, gelak kat syiton tu, sebab you wont be decieved by him :P

siti,, huhh, susah na hafal yea? cani, pagi2 makan kismis 7 biji, kismis brand legoada jual kat kedai 2 ringgit, jangan kunyah, biar je dalam mulut lama2,,sambil tu niat dalam hati, masa ambil wudhuk pun sama, sampai kat kepala tu, sambil basuh kepala tu pun niat jugak na kuat daya ingatan :)

cik ty, erm, mula2, nampak pendiam, dah lama2 tu you're not that badd ;) all you need to do is, biasakan diri dengan suatu yang baru, life dekat U mesti kena cepat adapt dengan suasana baru. kalau ada benda na cakap, cakap dengan lantang, sebab bila you konfiden, orang lain tak boleh lemahkan kita lagi dah. macam akak, dalam kelas ke apa, lagi-lagi kalau kena speaking, I speak confidently, padahal, banyak kesalahan tatabahasa, cakap bukan berasaskan fakta pun, tapi sebab akak konfiden, semua org yang dengar macam terpana, so, konfiden yea!

ekin, dah bagus dah ada matlamat, na tolong family, you have the vision!so, ingat, setiap kali rasa malas na belajar, ingat that vision :) ingat, bukan senang untuk senang, belajar kena dari hati, baru senang ilmu na masuk :)

intan, seriously it is not too late to change! kos sains memang tough, akak pernah ada roomate yang kos sains, hari2 tengok dia menghadap buku, kitorg tido, dia buku lagi, bangun pagi pun buku lagi, so, I want you to be like her!buat nota. and dengar sini, buat nota bukan untuk lecture. buat untuk kefahaman diri sendiri :) macam bio, fizik, kaitkan dengan kehidupan seharian. baru senang na ingat :)

andd, last untuk korunk semua, ingat nie, kalau ada pape, mintak kat Allah, Dia tak kan pernah bagi something yang sia2 kat kita :) na cakap dengan Allah, solat, doa. na dengar apa kata Allah, baca Quran. baca tafsir :) akak doakan semua adik2 akak nie berjaya dunia dan akhirat :) kalau ada apa2, msg je akak. na tanya apa2, tak faham apa2, you can always count on me! ;) good luck yea untuk final nanti :)

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bismilahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)

hi mr bloggie :')
I feel like this is the only place for me to express my feelings,
this is where I can criticize, comment or giving opinion *insulting sometimes :P
the place where I feel relief after posting some unsound feeling :'(

tadi kann, I berangan berangan berangan~
I was dreaming about this one guy, entah macam mana, setiap kali pandang muka dia I rasa tenang -.-" yeah, shouldnt feel such way! holy crap! it's too early to fall into love again~we know each other through peers club I joined, semester lepas. and, banyak jugak volunteering work we did together. macam tadi, I helped UKK in handling MDAB programme, I tought I was the only one who came, rupanya dia pun ada jugak :D semangat buat kerja!heheh, jkjk :P ceritanya pasal berangan tu, tetiba angan2 itu di interupt oleh this someone that I deadly want to forget!! all the sweet moment together ws like being rewind. reminising some old good times together pulak! ya Allah, I seriously want to forget him, please ya Allah :'( terus I cuba ingat those bad moment when I was with him, saat menyakinkan hati, benci, gaduh, semua tu. but I ended up crying alone. yes, pitiful me :'(

* I was about to label the post, tapi entah kenapa 'LOVE' really doesnt suit this post :s trying so damn hard to forget!