dont be too nice please :]

bismillahirahmanirahim and asslamualaikum :)

it has been awhile since my last update < typical word to start blogging ;P
ehem ehem, there's nothing much to mory here,
I'm happy for the time being,
dear you, please make me smile everyday,
seeing you everyday has turned me on, ohh, my gosh!berterabur ayat~
I dont know how to explain, it's like everytime I think of that moment,
I'll smile like an insane. crazy. yes, please punch me at my face whenever you see me smiling alone.
there must be him inside my mind, astagfirullah. ma fi qalbi ghoirullah~ hurmm,
please dont be too nice to me, or I'll fall in love with you, owh gosh!It wont happen right~
tak tak cik ct, kau kena jaga hati!
please dont be too nice please please please!hurmm~
and if you want to be nice to me, do it everyday!
dont just simply leave a memory for 1 day that I'll keep it for years for sure but in the next day, the ignorance happen, hurmm~please update the sweet memory meyh!hahahah,,
*I just dont know what else to mory,,

till then~

we dont know when

bismilahirahmanirhaim and assalamualaikum :)

tear drops after read this post
we dont know when will be our time,
even a simple incident cause you to death
hurmm, to think of this,
I just want to die, what's the purpose of living till thousand years if you're not being the mukmin right?
better die than commiting sins everyday..
tapii,,cukupkah segala amalanku?
ya Allah,
I starts questioning myself, what I've done to contribute in Islam,
I never do dakwah, never promoting amar ma'ruf nahi mungkar,
too little zikr,
reciting quran?only during Ramadhan,
shame on me :( am I a mukmin muslim?
islam atas nama,
way of life? conventional,
I wonder if I can die with my forehead on the ground,
die in the condition which you are closer to Allah :')
ya Allah, I've commited too many sins,,


if one day I've stopped posting in this blog, please do pray for me there, forgive all my wrongdoings, cause I'm not perfect tough :'(

nogori vs pahang vs kelantan

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum everyone :)

np#I wont give up :')

eh, erm okay, last night we're gossiping about guy, basically future husband
owh gosh!this killer question keeps worrying us when we enter 20th age!
owh, fyi, I'm the 7th older sister among all the cousins on my dad's side, meaning that, I will be the fifth to get marry!arghh~ ottokei??

hurm, to my future husband, please find me ASAP! ahah -___-"
erm, eyan said, I should look for any pahang guy due to certain circumtances that I wouldnt probably share here lah kann,,
so, is there any pahang guy out there?heheh :D
owh wait!am I living in pahang right now?so, it should be no problem!hurmm..who's that pahang guy then? erm erm, no idea :s
owh!no wayyyyyy!not to be racist, tapi, I dont really into pahang guy, they are ......... !urghh~
hurmm, stick to nogori guy la jawabnyaa ;) hurmm...
erm, speaking about future husband,
I would like to narrow the terms and condition
cukup lah sekadar dia boleh rendahkan ego ain
seriously I need that kind of guy sebab I sangatttt ego!I would be impressed to meet that kind of person :) tapi the problem is, none of my boy friend have the ability to lower my egotism..

dear ^.^" why are you kelantanese ? ehh~
*thanx for brighten my day here :D please behave yea, you are the reason for me to keep standing here, in Jengka :P ehh~

ahh uitm !

bimillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum..

perasaan untuk belajar di luar negara semakin membuak2 bila yang tersayang akan fly tidak lama lagi, ya Allah, boleh tak kau hentikan masa dia dan biarkan aku merentas masa sehinggalah dapat aku menyamakan taraf ku untuk melayakkan diri ini fly bersama dia ? ya Allah, bila dibuat pengiraan, aku baru sahaja grad diploma, dia dah ada di sana :( dan aku disini, masih perlu menamatkan degree di malaysia. tak tahu lah kenapa, setiap kali ain fikirkan hal ini, rasa sedih sangat. eh, you know what, I cry on everytime i think about you! susah untuk melupakan you, walaupun sebenarnya, bila dikenang balek, majoriti memori itu cuma sekadar akan membuatkan mata ini bergenang memikirkan nya kembali. kenapa? i pun tak tahu :( eventough our relation is just too tough, still, I dont know why the hell I'm still wanna be with you. dan sekarang, ain sangat berharap program penerapan tu akan tetap diteruskan untuk semester ini. only for those who had applied. please uitm :'(( eventough it will be just saved one semester, it does affect my life! living here is just making me sick :'( please uitm please :'( i just wanna be with him..and i will treasure any shortest path to be with him.

I'm strong!

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum..

aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!
feels like crying, screaming!!
let just be an idiot cik ct :'(
no need to learn and live your life as it meant to be..
there's no point of keep studying when you knoe the result will not make any different..
what a pathetic live I've gone through :'(
ya Allah,please give me strength to keep standing out there
sick of the environment surround with the typical kampong people here :'(
I just dont know if I can really hold on to this..
it ruins your heart when you know all your effort turns down simply like that dude!

an hour later~
heheh, looks like a diary with timeline la pulakk,
erm, just now I talked to my dearest eza or, mrs alan to-be..really envy her!
owh nope, that's not the point, feeling okay after sharing with her this mess..hurmm,
although in return she told me that she's getting married, haihh,
during new year ('13) I was like eager to get marry after knowing that I'm already 20 years YOUNG, but then, since the muet result was not so okay, so, Ive decided to focus more on studies, no matter what, I must get the best out of the best!hurmm~so, lets put aside those crappy things getting married bla bla bla and concentrate more on studies yea cik ct!just lower your ego and be more humble in seeking knowledge. just approach him whenever you need guidance about academic since he's not that bad. all you need to do is forget your selfishness and try to be matured. you both need each other to complete, #ehh :D hurmm, so, this is my heart advice, Allah's said, "belajar dari orang yang tahu" orang yang tahu doesnt mean he need to be a teacher or the lecture kann?
life is a process of learning tough :)

enjoy every second you have, it wont happen twice :)
good luck and all the best :)

ahh, feeling better now :) thanx to eza :)