bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)
ehem, there was so many idea what to write in here, but it all goes else where now.
the truth is, I really really dont like you!ahh, out of a sudden you're throwing these word ?
okay, crap. actually I want to practice writing in english. fully english. Allah! I've lost a lot of vocab, while my grammar was never be good -.-"
ehem ehem, story about love. again.
I was about to apply my degree programme.
I told my mum the 'he' is applying too.
and mak, out of a sudden said, "insyaAllah you both gonna fly together, atleast you got friend there"
Allah! "abang is already there right?"
hurmm, whatever it is, US will still be my dream country to further my studies! second choice will be Aussie :)
Allah, please do grant my wish :'( for the sake of islam and my parent :'(
read at your own risk ;)
Showing posts with label education. Show all posts
Showing posts with label education. Show all posts
Saturday, 4 January 2014
Monday, 18 November 2013
istiadat konvokesyen uitm pahang
bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :')
allahu!today is a bigg day for uitm pahang!
istiadat konvokesyen ke-79
jawatankuasa fotografi!cewahh :P
it was totally a hectic day though..
the first sidang was for faculty of accountancy and I, without wasting any opportunity to meet the long lost seniorita! taking couple of shot with kak zatul, kak nina, kak ayu and kak ohara ANC!Allahu!I cant hold the tears. sebak. I wish my parent can see me wearing that selempang :')
having chat with kak ohara about ACCA, she gave me some advice, the do's and dont's, tips. Allah! , how I wish I can be that strong! she said, despite from all the family problem with health, she herself pun, but still, she knows what she wants and strive for it.
"dont compete with someone who is better than you, but compete with yourself. you'll feel less presure"
okayy sis!noted!do pray for my success too :')
hurmm, I couldnt transfer the pictures taken using my phone since I dont have the usb cable.
promise to upload it soon :')
haa!lagi satu!
the way the convocation held was sebijik like my majlis graduasi when I was in MRSM Langkawi :')
air mata bergenang masa perarakan masuk graduan, all the dean and pro chancelor. no kidding! sebab the flow was seriously similar with our majlis graduasi back in maktab :'S andd, lagi sekali tear drops masa they play the "anak kecil main api" punya lagu tu. I just dont know why, every time I hear that song, mesti hati rasa sebak, the lyrics is so deep. you got to understand every line of the lyric. then you'll know how I feel. plus, maybe that song was a must during our rollcall back in mrsm langkawi. we'll sing that song every morning dengan tajwid yang betul tahu! pak said yang ajar :')
arghhh!I miss all those thing in maktab. even masa menaip ni pun mata dah bergenang dah ni :'( if I could turn back time :'( Allahu!
better to stop now, sebelum lappy ni terkena electric shot sebab terkena titisan air mata -.-"
till then :)
allahu!today is a bigg day for uitm pahang!
istiadat konvokesyen ke-79
jawatankuasa fotografi!cewahh :P
it was totally a hectic day though..
the first sidang was for faculty of accountancy and I, without wasting any opportunity to meet the long lost seniorita! taking couple of shot with kak zatul, kak nina, kak ayu and kak ohara ANC!Allahu!I cant hold the tears. sebak. I wish my parent can see me wearing that selempang :')
having chat with kak ohara about ACCA, she gave me some advice, the do's and dont's, tips. Allah! , how I wish I can be that strong! she said, despite from all the family problem with health, she herself pun, but still, she knows what she wants and strive for it.
"dont compete with someone who is better than you, but compete with yourself. you'll feel less presure"
okayy sis!noted!do pray for my success too :')
hurmm, I couldnt transfer the pictures taken using my phone since I dont have the usb cable.
promise to upload it soon :')
haa!lagi satu!
the way the convocation held was sebijik like my majlis graduasi when I was in MRSM Langkawi :')
air mata bergenang masa perarakan masuk graduan, all the dean and pro chancelor. no kidding! sebab the flow was seriously similar with our majlis graduasi back in maktab :'S andd, lagi sekali tear drops masa they play the "anak kecil main api" punya lagu tu. I just dont know why, every time I hear that song, mesti hati rasa sebak, the lyrics is so deep. you got to understand every line of the lyric. then you'll know how I feel. plus, maybe that song was a must during our rollcall back in mrsm langkawi. we'll sing that song every morning dengan tajwid yang betul tahu! pak said yang ajar :')
arghhh!I miss all those thing in maktab. even masa menaip ni pun mata dah bergenang dah ni :'( if I could turn back time :'( Allahu!
better to stop now, sebelum lappy ni terkena electric shot sebab terkena titisan air mata -.-"
till then :)
Monday, 13 May 2013
there is only 1 mission
bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)
ehem ehem,
if I have an opportunity to ask anything I want, and , for sure, I'll be granted for it,
I really, really want to go somewhere in US or aussie to do my bachelor,
and, IF I have to sacrifice anything of my belonging, I will definately let go of it.
seriously!
yes, I'm willing to sacrifice anything to get what I want,
and, it's proven. based on my experiance back when I was young.
I pernah lepaskan jawatan, pangkat, kedudukan,enjoyness ( such a typical dramatic budak ni~ )
but, it's serious.
dulu, I was eager to go to boarding school. infact, I've already got everything in my previous school which is SMART. I'm pengawas koperasi, dealing with money, holding a possition, liked by teachers, one of the best student(kononlahh kan), best friendss, active in kawad, that teacher susan want me to hold an important position jugak la dalam organizational chart of BSMM. secured life. kalau na difikirkan, what else do I look for, right? I have everything.
tapi, I left those, for the thing that I really want, which is to go to a boarding school. taking risk !
yes, I know, what if, I cant survive there, people said that hostel life is tough. dah la langkawee tu jaoh ! but,since I eager to further my studies there, I kuatkan semangat. for me, there is no point of return once I step into my mission. if I want something, I definately will go for it. nothing can stop me !
sampailah sekarang,
abah pernah offered me to take a driving class, but I resist. since I'm not intrested in driving.
entah, macam malas, I rather take a public transport to go anywhere around KL.
gadget gadget gadget.
I'm not interested in any of it.
let it be, samsung, nokia, BB, apple, macbook or whatsoever sophisticated gadget, it wont buy me :P
I just wanna further my studies abroad :') pleaseee~
*honestly, I'm writing this because I get sicked when people always ask me why am I still using the old+lame+not-so-wow stuff as if I ni sengkek sangat x berduit na beli. and, yes, I muak dengan orang yang asyik dengan material, sampai lupa dia tu menghabiskan harta mak ayah. I can see that most of my friend in Jengka are that type, looking someone elses wealth, kaya, porpular, adik retis, itu yang dipandang tinggi. iyanya memualkan! sampailah satu ketika, I pernah SENGAJA menyepahkan slip baki akaun lepas withdraw duit tu atas meja to show to my roomates that I'm not that papa kedana x mampu na beli those good phones. jadi selepas ini, sila jangan bertanya kenapa ain tidak menukar handphone or lappy, or camera, or apa-apa sahaja.
s.e.k.i.a.n.
ehem ehem,
if I have an opportunity to ask anything I want, and , for sure, I'll be granted for it,
I really, really want to go somewhere in US or aussie to do my bachelor,
and, IF I have to sacrifice anything of my belonging, I will definately let go of it.
seriously!
yes, I'm willing to sacrifice anything to get what I want,
and, it's proven. based on my experiance back when I was young.
I pernah lepaskan jawatan, pangkat, kedudukan,enjoyness ( such a typical dramatic budak ni~ )
but, it's serious.
dulu, I was eager to go to boarding school. infact, I've already got everything in my previous school which is SMART. I'm pengawas koperasi, dealing with money, holding a possition, liked by teachers, one of the best student(kononlahh kan), best friendss, active in kawad, that teacher susan want me to hold an important position jugak la dalam organizational chart of BSMM. secured life. kalau na difikirkan, what else do I look for, right? I have everything.
tapi, I left those, for the thing that I really want, which is to go to a boarding school. taking risk !
yes, I know, what if, I cant survive there, people said that hostel life is tough. dah la langkawee tu jaoh ! but,since I eager to further my studies there, I kuatkan semangat. for me, there is no point of return once I step into my mission. if I want something, I definately will go for it. nothing can stop me !
sampailah sekarang,
abah pernah offered me to take a driving class, but I resist. since I'm not intrested in driving.
entah, macam malas, I rather take a public transport to go anywhere around KL.
gadget gadget gadget.
I'm not interested in any of it.
let it be, samsung, nokia, BB, apple, macbook or whatsoever sophisticated gadget, it wont buy me :P
I just wanna further my studies abroad :') pleaseee~
*honestly, I'm writing this because I get sicked when people always ask me why am I still using the old+lame+not-so-wow stuff as if I ni sengkek sangat x berduit na beli. and, yes, I muak dengan orang yang asyik dengan material, sampai lupa dia tu menghabiskan harta mak ayah. I can see that most of my friend in Jengka are that type, looking someone elses wealth, kaya, porpular, adik retis, itu yang dipandang tinggi. iyanya memualkan! sampailah satu ketika, I pernah SENGAJA menyepahkan slip baki akaun lepas withdraw duit tu atas meja to show to my roomates that I'm not that papa kedana x mampu na beli those good phones. jadi selepas ini, sila jangan bertanya kenapa ain tidak menukar handphone or lappy, or camera, or apa-apa sahaja.
s.e.k.i.a.n.
Thursday, 11 April 2013
I TEACH MY FRIEND ACCOUNT ! sila percaya -.-"
bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)
okay, I still remember when I told pn Wani how dissapoint I'm knowing the abolishment of fast track programme, she said, "mungkin ada perjuangan yang belum selesai, ada yang ain x lepas memberi lagi kat uitm ni" okay, puan :)
yes, indeed, maybe I'm excellent in academic, but, I give less, I didnt help my friend much, I can be considered as, "na berjaya sorang2" I know I'm badd :(
so, this semester,
alhamdullilah, we study together, we help each other in academic, that's what suppose to be right?
and, as for me, the most weirdo things is, I TEACH MY FRIEND ACCOUNT !
*glup*
surely gonna be more to ajaran sesat when I start teaching, especially ACCOUNT -.-"
I usually been tought by others on account based on previous semester's experiance,
but this time around, I'm the teacher, no longer the student -_____-"
and, what you expect when a maths student teaching account?
*hihihihi*gelak jahat~
yes, I create formula to make the statementsss easier :D
my 'student' will know what is a-c2 in finding retained profit and Capital reserve redemption figure,
and, there's alot of other formula tahu :P
then, I dont open T-a/c to find the balancing figure, I create my own formula, which is SOCI+b/d-c/d
okay, those formula is understood by me and my 'student'
there's a situation when mat ask me about the transaction, debit, credit
mat: ain, additional info num 2, kita dr sales, cr debtor and dr cogs, cr inventory ?
and me, making the most blurry face in the world, trying to understand what the heck is dr cr about -.-"
faizul: kau jangan tanya dr cr mat! kan dye ckp dye x tahu dr or cr,
ain: huh!memahami punn,pffftttt~
mat: okay2, kita tambah kat sales, tolak debtor bla bla bla
ain: owhh, yes, betul2,
see? I can understand more when they convert the question to maths language,
yes, maths language yea, not account language -______-"
then, just now, I dont know how to find the net profit before tax when the question gives you the final figure, so I have to work backward, and, I ended up, generating formula, x - bla bla + bla bla = 7600
so find x,
faham takkk betapa wasting time nyaa -___-"
then ila said, ain, if the operation's minus, we add, vice versa..
ain: owh, thanxx ilaaa -.-" otherwise I would bring all the figure into a maths version -__-
huh, inilah akibatnya bila budak maths mengajar account -.-"
so tommorrow is the last day to spend with all the study group account, sebab, my mum cakap, I should spend time on my own to revise alone, because I told my mum that, semalam, I dont have time to study acocunt since they are like asking me non stop, lepas seorang seorang bertanya. so here it is, jumaat I'm gonna spend time to just really focus on me myself :)
ahh, konon hebat akaun sangat sampai jadi kaunter pertanyaan -.-" pffttt~
okay, I still remember when I told pn Wani how dissapoint I'm knowing the abolishment of fast track programme, she said, "mungkin ada perjuangan yang belum selesai, ada yang ain x lepas memberi lagi kat uitm ni" okay, puan :)
yes, indeed, maybe I'm excellent in academic, but, I give less, I didnt help my friend much, I can be considered as, "na berjaya sorang2" I know I'm badd :(
so, this semester,
alhamdullilah, we study together, we help each other in academic, that's what suppose to be right?
and, as for me, the most weirdo things is, I TEACH MY FRIEND ACCOUNT !
*glup*
surely gonna be more to ajaran sesat when I start teaching, especially ACCOUNT -.-"
I usually been tought by others on account based on previous semester's experiance,
but this time around, I'm the teacher, no longer the student -_____-"
and, what you expect when a maths student teaching account?
*hihihihi*gelak jahat~
yes, I create formula to make the statementsss easier :D
my 'student' will know what is a-c2 in finding retained profit and Capital reserve redemption figure,
and, there's alot of other formula tahu :P
then, I dont open T-a/c to find the balancing figure, I create my own formula, which is SOCI+b/d-c/d
okay, those formula is understood by me and my 'student'
there's a situation when mat ask me about the transaction, debit, credit
mat: ain, additional info num 2, kita dr sales, cr debtor and dr cogs, cr inventory ?
and me, making the most blurry face in the world, trying to understand what the heck is dr cr about -.-"
faizul: kau jangan tanya dr cr mat! kan dye ckp dye x tahu dr or cr,
ain: huh!memahami punn,pffftttt~
mat: okay2, kita tambah kat sales, tolak debtor bla bla bla
ain: owhh, yes, betul2,
see? I can understand more when they convert the question to maths language,
yes, maths language yea, not account language -______-"
then, just now, I dont know how to find the net profit before tax when the question gives you the final figure, so I have to work backward, and, I ended up, generating formula, x - bla bla + bla bla = 7600
so find x,
faham takkk betapa wasting time nyaa -___-"
then ila said, ain, if the operation's minus, we add, vice versa..
ain: owh, thanxx ilaaa -.-" otherwise I would bring all the figure into a maths version -__-
huh, inilah akibatnya bila budak maths mengajar account -.-"
so tommorrow is the last day to spend with all the study group account, sebab, my mum cakap, I should spend time on my own to revise alone, because I told my mum that, semalam, I dont have time to study acocunt since they are like asking me non stop, lepas seorang seorang bertanya. so here it is, jumaat I'm gonna spend time to just really focus on me myself :)
ahh, konon hebat akaun sangat sampai jadi kaunter pertanyaan -.-" pffttt~
Tuesday, 26 March 2013
final battle
bismilahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :')
i have nothing to update,
final is just around the corner,
and, I haven't start studying. yet.
ive made the timetable, so it will be more organised. tapi!
i just dont know why, the spirit to start open the booksss havent arived yet :(
*maybe the flight delayed due to storm in US*
erm erm,
tetibe this words cross my mind,
"afraid of losing someone when he's not even yours"
what a pathetic feeling :|
lahaii, I CAN STAND ON MY OWN LAHH!
pfffffttt~
*take a deep breath*
okay, tadi kann, tadi, just now, this noon,
my key was left in the locker, and, I accidently, had locked the locker, without even realise that the keys is in the locker. and, I'm sooo brilliant to the max which i put the spare key IN THE LOCKER!
yess, I know I'm soooo intelligent~ please be jelly -___________-
dah laa I put all my stuff in the locker!I cannot do any of my routine today as everything that i need is in there :(
then, I search for any keys that might be suit to my key that it can open the lock, tapi, semua hampa..
I was just thinking of, if only I have a hammer :') everything would be easier,,
na pecah kan pintu locker pun i tak mampu :'(
kalau lahh abah was there :') mesti solved,,
then, I terpaksa laa, went down to UPK and make a report. so that, abg mantenance would come and be the savior :D hukhuk~
ahh!dasar perempuan lemahh~hurmm,,
i tak tahu lah kenapa kann,
this sem, I really relies on others, I dont as independent as before :(
the level of laziness is like overwhelming my body!
and the worst is, I can smell that my pointer could probably decline :|
that day, I called eza, I was just too stress..
speaking about hope,destiny and faith
I simply lost each of them.
terukk kann?
dah laa,
I dont want to even think of it again :')
Allah made it this way cik ct! you have to be patient! remember, pintu rezeki Allah tu luas!
hurmm,
hoping for the best this sem :')
as I went to the library, I can see that there's alot of students who has start revising :\
and, the question is, when I can be one?
the situation is totally different this sem, kalau sem lepas tu, I was too excited to really work hard so that I can pass with flying colours. and, I will entitle to get the fast track,, my self motivation is too high that I can cope with all the shitty surroundings. because I know, I wont be facing it in the future. I wont be in Jengka dahh, you may do everything. It wont bring me down. I dont even care of any miserable things that happen around me. sebab my focus is just one. I want to get an excelent result, and leave jengka for fast track! tapii, as you know, from my previous post. I was crying like an insane that UITM had abolished the right to pursue fast track. and, as the result, I HAVE to face all the bullshitness for the rest of 3 semesters!
I dont know how to stand in this hell anymore when the only reason for me of staying here had lost..
I lose the HOPE..
it is sad to know that, all your hardship are worthless. so, here I'm..
sitting here, on my bed, typing this entry, wasting her time, and havent start studying for finals!
ya Allah,,I'm really afraid this attitude will bring me down :|
ahh!I'm just being too paranoid !
erm, susah jugak kalau ada mindset yg sangat firm nie kann?
I need someone to wake me up!
ahh, see?"I need someone" again, she's not independent as before..
owh tidak2!
I DONT NEED ANYONE AS LONG AS I HAVE ALLAH!
I CAN STAND ON MY OWN!
I CAN FLY WITOUT YOU LAHH!
all i need is to live my life (eza,2013)
yeahh!attention attention!
please make a way!
this cik ct has waken up!
she's all ready to burn the laziness and start move her ass to fight in the war!
lets the battle begin!
to the victory here we goo!
I study for my religion, my race and my pride!
accountant muslimah here we go!
may Allah bless me, insyaAllah :')
eh, ingat tauu, Allah sngt sweet to me :*
*this might be the last entry for me (as soon as the finals end, I will start posting again insyaAllah)
pray for me yeahh! May Allah help me in this journey towards victory.
nahh, last word,
smart people dont push themselves to study,
they have strategies !
i have nothing to update,
final is just around the corner,
and, I haven't start studying. yet.
ive made the timetable, so it will be more organised. tapi!
i just dont know why, the spirit to start open the booksss havent arived yet :(
*maybe the flight delayed due to storm in US*
erm erm,
tetibe this words cross my mind,
"afraid of losing someone when he's not even yours"
what a pathetic feeling :|
lahaii, I CAN STAND ON MY OWN LAHH!
pfffffttt~
*take a deep breath*
okay, tadi kann, tadi, just now, this noon,
my key was left in the locker, and, I accidently, had locked the locker, without even realise that the keys is in the locker. and, I'm sooo brilliant to the max which i put the spare key IN THE LOCKER!
yess, I know I'm soooo intelligent~ please be jelly -___________-
dah laa I put all my stuff in the locker!I cannot do any of my routine today as everything that i need is in there :(
then, I search for any keys that might be suit to my key that it can open the lock, tapi, semua hampa..
I was just thinking of, if only I have a hammer :') everything would be easier,,
na pecah kan pintu locker pun i tak mampu :'(
kalau lahh abah was there :') mesti solved,,
then, I terpaksa laa, went down to UPK and make a report. so that, abg mantenance would come and be the savior :D hukhuk~
ahh!dasar perempuan lemahh~hurmm,,
i tak tahu lah kenapa kann,
this sem, I really relies on others, I dont as independent as before :(
the level of laziness is like overwhelming my body!
and the worst is, I can smell that my pointer could probably decline :|
that day, I called eza, I was just too stress..
speaking about hope,destiny and faith
I simply lost each of them.
terukk kann?
dah laa,
I dont want to even think of it again :')
Allah made it this way cik ct! you have to be patient! remember, pintu rezeki Allah tu luas!
hurmm,
hoping for the best this sem :')
as I went to the library, I can see that there's alot of students who has start revising :\
and, the question is, when I can be one?
the situation is totally different this sem, kalau sem lepas tu, I was too excited to really work hard so that I can pass with flying colours. and, I will entitle to get the fast track,, my self motivation is too high that I can cope with all the shitty surroundings. because I know, I wont be facing it in the future. I wont be in Jengka dahh, you may do everything. It wont bring me down. I dont even care of any miserable things that happen around me. sebab my focus is just one. I want to get an excelent result, and leave jengka for fast track! tapii, as you know, from my previous post. I was crying like an insane that UITM had abolished the right to pursue fast track. and, as the result, I HAVE to face all the bullshitness for the rest of 3 semesters!
I dont know how to stand in this hell anymore when the only reason for me of staying here had lost..
I lose the HOPE..
it is sad to know that, all your hardship are worthless. so, here I'm..
sitting here, on my bed, typing this entry, wasting her time, and havent start studying for finals!
ya Allah,,I'm really afraid this attitude will bring me down :|
ahh!I'm just being too paranoid !
erm, susah jugak kalau ada mindset yg sangat firm nie kann?
I need someone to wake me up!
ahh, see?"I need someone" again, she's not independent as before..
owh tidak2!
I DONT NEED ANYONE AS LONG AS I HAVE ALLAH!
I CAN STAND ON MY OWN!
I CAN FLY WITOUT YOU LAHH!
all i need is to live my life (eza,2013)
yeahh!attention attention!
please make a way!
this cik ct has waken up!
she's all ready to burn the laziness and start move her ass to fight in the war!
lets the battle begin!
to the victory here we goo!
I study for my religion, my race and my pride!
accountant muslimah here we go!
may Allah bless me, insyaAllah :')
eh, ingat tauu, Allah sngt sweet to me :*
*this might be the last entry for me (as soon as the finals end, I will start posting again insyaAllah)
pray for me yeahh! May Allah help me in this journey towards victory.
nahh, last word,
smart people dont push themselves to study,
they have strategies !
Thursday, 14 March 2013
tear drops
bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)
life's getting stress day by day
is it just me, or the surrounding who made it that way ?
hurmm, im kinda torturing myself. phyco.
i miss someone :'(
abang.
everything seems so easy for him
he get anything he wants.
well,kau ingat senang ke na galas nama mrsm langkawi on your shoulder ?
i envy abang so much~
he's now in UK~
while me?
in uitm jengka doing diploma,
yes,im from mrsm langkawi yet, im here, in malaysia, uitm jengka, taking diploma in accountancy.
and, abang, is from SDAR, have flawn to UK, under MARA scholar, future-chem-engineer :'(
everything comes so easy for him.
he's debater, top-scorer, superb!
while me?
im just nothing~
nothing as compare to him :(
huh, I HATE COMPARISON~
and,now, I starts to question myself,
if only i realize how much mrsm valued, provides the platform for their students to fly,
i surely gonna utilize that chance :'(
im not gonna play or fooling around,
i stress~
yes, Im stuck in here,
dilemma, conflict, depress~
maybe it's just me who think too much,
yeah, well,
what will you feel if, you comes from the most well-known school who produce a verryy excellent student, but, you ended up, taking diploma when in university,,
while, all other friends, are taking preparatory course, going to fly to overseas,,
yet, you, living in malaysia, holding the name of ex-mrsm langkawi, doing diploma, which are rarely be heard, but, pathetically, you never got 4.00 !
aii, kata budak mrsm langkawi, tapi x dpt pulak 4.00? diploma je kowt ! laen la kalau kau amek IB! diploma pun kau x mampu na dpt 4.00?
faham takk ayat tu macam terngiang2 kat telinga??!
i stress !
i never cry without a reason, but, just now, the tear drops on its own.
too much pain that she bare through all this while
and, she cant hold it anymore.
I need a hug to reconcile the spirit back,
O Allah, I believe i can bare this pain. by refering to your words in surah al-baqarah 286 :')
life's getting stress day by day
is it just me, or the surrounding who made it that way ?
hurmm, im kinda torturing myself. phyco.
i miss someone :'(
abang.
everything seems so easy for him
he get anything he wants.
well,kau ingat senang ke na galas nama mrsm langkawi on your shoulder ?
i envy abang so much~
he's now in UK~
while me?
in uitm jengka doing diploma,
yes,im from mrsm langkawi yet, im here, in malaysia, uitm jengka, taking diploma in accountancy.
and, abang, is from SDAR, have flawn to UK, under MARA scholar, future-chem-engineer :'(
everything comes so easy for him.
he's debater, top-scorer, superb!
while me?
im just nothing~
nothing as compare to him :(
huh, I HATE COMPARISON~
and,now, I starts to question myself,
if only i realize how much mrsm valued, provides the platform for their students to fly,
i surely gonna utilize that chance :'(
im not gonna play or fooling around,
i stress~
yes, Im stuck in here,
dilemma, conflict, depress~
yeah, well,
what will you feel if, you comes from the most well-known school who produce a verryy excellent student, but, you ended up, taking diploma when in university,,
while, all other friends, are taking preparatory course, going to fly to overseas,,
yet, you, living in malaysia, holding the name of ex-mrsm langkawi, doing diploma, which are rarely be heard, but, pathetically, you never got 4.00 !
aii, kata budak mrsm langkawi, tapi x dpt pulak 4.00? diploma je kowt ! laen la kalau kau amek IB! diploma pun kau x mampu na dpt 4.00?
faham takk ayat tu macam terngiang2 kat telinga??!
i stress !
i never cry without a reason, but, just now, the tear drops on its own.
too much pain that she bare through all this while
and, she cant hold it anymore.
I need a hug to reconcile the spirit back,
O Allah, I believe i can bare this pain. by refering to your words in surah al-baqarah 286 :')
Saturday, 9 March 2013
MUET sucks!
bissmilahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)
done with MUET :'(
why sad smiley?cuz, I didnt do well for the paper :'(
reading seriously high level punya passage,haihh, can you imagine, the easiest paper compare to ielts n toefl pun i didnt manage to score, ada hati na amek ielts la konon!kononononnn!haihh, stressss!
as for the writing part, as usual, masaaa!the idea is like, tadika punya budak,and, tulisan,,not to mention la kann~ urghhhhhh!
my friend said, silap la kau na repeat muet amek march session :(
kbai~
done with MUET :'(
why sad smiley?cuz, I didnt do well for the paper :'(
reading seriously high level punya passage,haihh, can you imagine, the easiest paper compare to ielts n toefl pun i didnt manage to score, ada hati na amek ielts la konon!kononononnn!haihh, stressss!
as for the writing part, as usual, masaaa!the idea is like, tadika punya budak,and, tulisan,,not to mention la kann~ urghhhhhh!
my friend said, silap la kau na repeat muet amek march session :(
kbai~
Wednesday, 6 March 2013
shameless me
bismilahirahmanirahim and assamalualaikum :)
I cant wait to post this,
i rarely switch on my lappy just to write in this blog..
actually, I want to share some of my experiance,
have you ever ask god, why you dont get what you want?
yeah, me too, I always dream for something bigg..
well. it's my principle to always aim for the sky..
and, sometime, I feel like giving up when the victory is still far from me no matter how hard I tried..
and, that's the moment when I starts questioning why is it Allah do that to me :(
yes, shameless me :'(
I'm ungreatful servant of Him~
I always blame others for my lose
hurmm~
tadi kann, my adopted sister, text me,
she said, something like this,
laziness is the most killer disease in our heart, beat that or it will bite you,never ever give up yeah!
then, I replied, I never feel lazy to improve my performance, it;s just that, sometimes, I get tired of chasing something that is uncertain.
then, she replied, bnyak jugak, tapi, the most touched words is,
"ALLAH SAYANGKAN ADIK TU, that's why He tested you, meaning He didnt forget you"
my godd :')
Allah never forget me?
yaAllah, I dont have idea how much I've been neglecting You, yet, You never forget me :')
how sweet You are :')
to think of it, there're actually millions of gift from You.
it's just that, I dont really approciate those gifts. I keep doubting myself as if You dont want me to success :'( yes, poor me for having that kind of thought :'( maybe Allah havent give me the most thing I;ve ever dream which is to fly abroad for studying, because he wanted me to learn something in Malaysia first, as to be the quidance when Ive flew.
or maybe bak kata pn salwani, "masih ada perjuangan yang belum selesai untuk ain kat uitm nie" ohh godd!ayat tu sangat menyentuh kalbu kowt :') yes,perhaps.
maybe Allah didnt give those bigg dream of mine, tapi, He did give me somehting. everyday. every second. it's just me who dont realize it, owh, ungreatful me!hurmm~
I just remember about the doa I keep praying for 1 of this guy to dont have a mess with me, because, it cause me to death!I'm getting sick of his badd attitude, especially towards me. but, praise to Allah, I never give up in praying to Allah so that he will change. Alhamdullilah :) he changed. we're no longer like anjing and kucing(which is, I'm the cat la kalau dulu kan)
and, tadi, another problem of mine, is that, I cant focus in AIS' class, under certain reason which I wont tell you here, tapi, tadi, I keep praying to Allah, I want to concentrate 100% in todays class. I hope Allah will help me. yes, indeed, He helps me :') another sweet thing You did to me O Allah :') I'm touched~
there's always a way for him to help me. so guys, keep asking from Allah. I bet He wont dissapoint you!trust me.
cumanya, sometimes, I feel like sooo useless, I've asked too much things from You, but never obey your instruction, perfectfully :'( saya tak tahu malu :'(
O Allah, please forgive me for all my wrongdoings. eventhough sometime, I feel those sins are so unforgivable. yet,I believe, Al Ghafar,will surely forgive me no matter how much sins that I've commited from the day I were born :'(
I cant wait to post this,
i rarely switch on my lappy just to write in this blog..
actually, I want to share some of my experiance,
have you ever ask god, why you dont get what you want?
yeah, me too, I always dream for something bigg..
well. it's my principle to always aim for the sky..
and, sometime, I feel like giving up when the victory is still far from me no matter how hard I tried..
and, that's the moment when I starts questioning why is it Allah do that to me :(
yes, shameless me :'(
I'm ungreatful servant of Him~
I always blame others for my lose
hurmm~
tadi kann, my adopted sister, text me,
she said, something like this,
laziness is the most killer disease in our heart, beat that or it will bite you,never ever give up yeah!
then, I replied, I never feel lazy to improve my performance, it;s just that, sometimes, I get tired of chasing something that is uncertain.
then, she replied, bnyak jugak, tapi, the most touched words is,
"ALLAH SAYANGKAN ADIK TU, that's why He tested you, meaning He didnt forget you"
my godd :')
Allah never forget me?
yaAllah, I dont have idea how much I've been neglecting You, yet, You never forget me :')
how sweet You are :')
to think of it, there're actually millions of gift from You.
it's just that, I dont really approciate those gifts. I keep doubting myself as if You dont want me to success :'( yes, poor me for having that kind of thought :'( maybe Allah havent give me the most thing I;ve ever dream which is to fly abroad for studying, because he wanted me to learn something in Malaysia first, as to be the quidance when Ive flew.
or maybe bak kata pn salwani, "masih ada perjuangan yang belum selesai untuk ain kat uitm nie" ohh godd!ayat tu sangat menyentuh kalbu kowt :') yes,perhaps.
maybe Allah didnt give those bigg dream of mine, tapi, He did give me somehting. everyday. every second. it's just me who dont realize it, owh, ungreatful me!hurmm~
I just remember about the doa I keep praying for 1 of this guy to dont have a mess with me, because, it cause me to death!I'm getting sick of his badd attitude, especially towards me. but, praise to Allah, I never give up in praying to Allah so that he will change. Alhamdullilah :) he changed. we're no longer like anjing and kucing(which is, I'm the cat la kalau dulu kan)
and, tadi, another problem of mine, is that, I cant focus in AIS' class, under certain reason which I wont tell you here, tapi, tadi, I keep praying to Allah, I want to concentrate 100% in todays class. I hope Allah will help me. yes, indeed, He helps me :') another sweet thing You did to me O Allah :') I'm touched~
there's always a way for him to help me. so guys, keep asking from Allah. I bet He wont dissapoint you!trust me.
cumanya, sometimes, I feel like sooo useless, I've asked too much things from You, but never obey your instruction, perfectfully :'( saya tak tahu malu :'(
O Allah, please forgive me for all my wrongdoings. eventhough sometime, I feel those sins are so unforgivable. yet,I believe, Al Ghafar,will surely forgive me no matter how much sins that I've commited from the day I were born :'(
Tuesday, 8 January 2013
ahh uitm !
bimillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum..
perasaan untuk belajar di luar negara semakin membuak2 bila yang tersayang akan fly tidak lama lagi, ya Allah, boleh tak kau hentikan masa dia dan biarkan aku merentas masa sehinggalah dapat aku menyamakan taraf ku untuk melayakkan diri ini fly bersama dia ? ya Allah, bila dibuat pengiraan, aku baru sahaja grad diploma, dia dah ada di sana :( dan aku disini, masih perlu menamatkan degree di malaysia. tak tahu lah kenapa, setiap kali ain fikirkan hal ini, rasa sedih sangat. eh, you know what, I cry on everytime i think about you! susah untuk melupakan you, walaupun sebenarnya, bila dikenang balek, majoriti memori itu cuma sekadar akan membuatkan mata ini bergenang memikirkan nya kembali. kenapa? i pun tak tahu :( eventough our relation is just too tough, still, I dont know why the hell I'm still wanna be with you. dan sekarang, ain sangat berharap program penerapan tu akan tetap diteruskan untuk semester ini. only for those who had applied. please uitm :'(( eventough it will be just saved one semester, it does affect my life! living here is just making me sick :'( please uitm please :'( i just wanna be with him..and i will treasure any shortest path to be with him.
perasaan untuk belajar di luar negara semakin membuak2 bila yang tersayang akan fly tidak lama lagi, ya Allah, boleh tak kau hentikan masa dia dan biarkan aku merentas masa sehinggalah dapat aku menyamakan taraf ku untuk melayakkan diri ini fly bersama dia ? ya Allah, bila dibuat pengiraan, aku baru sahaja grad diploma, dia dah ada di sana :( dan aku disini, masih perlu menamatkan degree di malaysia. tak tahu lah kenapa, setiap kali ain fikirkan hal ini, rasa sedih sangat. eh, you know what, I cry on everytime i think about you! susah untuk melupakan you, walaupun sebenarnya, bila dikenang balek, majoriti memori itu cuma sekadar akan membuatkan mata ini bergenang memikirkan nya kembali. kenapa? i pun tak tahu :( eventough our relation is just too tough, still, I dont know why the hell I'm still wanna be with you. dan sekarang, ain sangat berharap program penerapan tu akan tetap diteruskan untuk semester ini. only for those who had applied. please uitm :'(( eventough it will be just saved one semester, it does affect my life! living here is just making me sick :'( please uitm please :'( i just wanna be with him..and i will treasure any shortest path to be with him.
Thursday, 3 January 2013
I'm strong!
bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum..
aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!
feels like crying, screaming!!
let just be an idiot cik ct :'(
no need to learn and live your life as it meant to be..
there's no point of keep studying when you knoe the result will not make any different..
what a pathetic live I've gone through :'(
ya Allah,please give me strength to keep standing out there
sick of the environment surround with the typical kampong people here :'(
I just dont know if I can really hold on to this..
it ruins your heart when you know all your effort turns down simply like that dude!
an hour later~
heheh, looks like a diary with timeline la pulakk,
erm, just now I talked to my dearest eza or, mrs alan to-be..really envy her!
owh nope, that's not the point, feeling okay after sharing with her this mess..hurmm,
although in return she told me that she's getting married, haihh,
during new year ('13) I was like eager to get marry after knowing that I'm already 20 years YOUNG, but then, since the muet result was not so okay, so, Ive decided to focus more on studies, no matter what, I must get the best out of the best!hurmm~so, lets put aside those crappy things getting married bla bla bla and concentrate more on studies yea cik ct!just lower your ego and be more humble in seeking knowledge. just approach him whenever you need guidance about academic since he's not that bad. all you need to do is forget your selfishness and try to be matured. you both need each other to complete, #ehh :D hurmm, so, this is my heart advice, Allah's said, "belajar dari orang yang tahu" orang yang tahu doesnt mean he need to be a teacher or the lecture kann?
life is a process of learning tough :)
enjoy every second you have, it wont happen twice :)
good luck and all the best :)
ahh, feeling better now :) thanx to eza :)
aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!
feels like crying, screaming!!
let just be an idiot cik ct :'(
no need to learn and live your life as it meant to be..
there's no point of keep studying when you knoe the result will not make any different..
what a pathetic live I've gone through :'(
ya Allah,please give me strength to keep standing out there
sick of the environment surround with the typical kampong people here :'(
I just dont know if I can really hold on to this..
it ruins your heart when you know all your effort turns down simply like that dude!
an hour later~
heheh, looks like a diary with timeline la pulakk,
erm, just now I talked to my dearest eza or, mrs alan to-be..really envy her!
owh nope, that's not the point, feeling okay after sharing with her this mess..hurmm,
although in return she told me that she's getting married, haihh,
during new year ('13) I was like eager to get marry after knowing that I'm already 20 years YOUNG, but then, since the muet result was not so okay, so, Ive decided to focus more on studies, no matter what, I must get the best out of the best!hurmm~so, lets put aside those crappy things getting married bla bla bla and concentrate more on studies yea cik ct!just lower your ego and be more humble in seeking knowledge. just approach him whenever you need guidance about academic since he's not that bad. all you need to do is forget your selfishness and try to be matured. you both need each other to complete, #ehh :D hurmm, so, this is my heart advice, Allah's said, "belajar dari orang yang tahu" orang yang tahu doesnt mean he need to be a teacher or the lecture kann?
life is a process of learning tough :)
enjoy every second you have, it wont happen twice :)
good luck and all the best :)
ahh, feeling better now :) thanx to eza :)
Sunday, 16 December 2012
life's getting busy
bissmilahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum everyone :)
it's already 3am in the morning, but still, it's weekend peeps!so let's burst some adrenaline tonight :D
omygosh omygosh omygosh!there're so much to mory.
things happened this week and I didnt bring along my baby lappy hence, I cant update much :(
hurmm, still thinking of bringing this little baby to jengka tommorrow. owh yea, obviously, I'm in KL despite the mid term is just next week :D sadly to announce this, my ticket to go back to kl on this mid term holiday is on saturday!owh, sedih sekali :( nvm though, boleh siap2 kan any assignment before holiday-ing :D heheh,,
okay okay, last wed we went to senamrobik event or so-called-mini-pub-organized by sport rec heheh, and it was just turn me on to dance like crazy! like hey, there're no guys in the hall,let's rock on the floor ladies!heheh, so, ap na cerita kat sini is, going to pub really made my day :D dude, we had 4 classes on wed and that made me just too exhausted like dying :S and, soon we reached our room, tetibe 'that' spirit to finish my assignment on far and maf just burst. adding some tireness doing account thiggy and went to sleep at 1, hurmm, good job cik ct :) having fun without neglecting your assignment :)
lagi, owh yes!rearding my economics class, omygosh omygosh omygosh!sir Abu dzarr was just sooooooooooo handsome, and charming, and lovely, and nice, and *ahh, I dont know what else to describe him :) there were a time when I cant get the answer of this one question and he personally teaches me one-to-one!and during that time, I was like, "okay, sir nie please dont stand too close to me, I can hardly breath okay!"berdebar2 gitu! ahaks~ and while he was explaining that question to me, my mind was just out of service to digest every single word he's trying to convey :D I ws like, okay, okay *angguk2 and okay faham. but, instead, my mind wasnt there, it has peacefully flawn to somewhere else !hahahah! and, as the consequences, I still, didnt manage to get the answer. I NEED A SECOND COACHING SIR :') and, yes, sir datang and re-explain them to me, mula2 I was still in unable to digest his word, tapi few second later, 'okay, takk boleh tak boleh tak boleh, jangan berangan lagi cik ct!kau kena score betul2 paper nie!' so, here it goes, sir gave me his simplest formula to memorize the longg one :) sampai sekarang x padam lagi apa yang sir conteng kau!hahah,,
okay, this eve I went to MVEC for education fair and, the information is just too meaningful that I have to share them here. so that people will know and I boleh baca balik if terlupa.
1. still confuse of taking ielts or toefl?well, toefl is only recognize in US. but, somehow, in this upcoming year, US is going to accept ielts. so it is better for you to sit for ielts which is recognized worldwide kan?
2. ACCA. I will have 4 exemption paper of ACCA if I grad my DIA. and the duration for ACCA is 2 years without failing. but still you can take the course up to 10 years. then, 3 years working for any accounting fields which related to your course. then you are entitle for ACCA member. strting salary is 4500, while CIMA is 4000!hurmm, quite interesting :D
then, I just want to share some new info that I gethered from RD, it's about OCD. owh well, I've known this kind of 'disease' years ago while in mrsm. but didnt realize much how that disease is close to us, especially me. people with OCD is somehow like perfectionist. she wants everything to be perfect as what she's expecting them to be. owh, okay, there're so many types of OCD which you can google from internet actually. what am I going to share is, I dont know that the tendancy to count anything around you is one of OCD. frankly, I am one of them. I tend to count things around me, like how many chairs in my class, the lamp, the tables. and that OCD made me set my watch to be 20 minutes earlier than the actual time. so that whenever people ask me "pukul berapa datuk harimau" I will still able to count, which is substracting the time shown to 20 min so that it's tally to the actual time. anmpak tak betapa obsesive nya otak nie nak mengira? and most of all, you might see me walking alone to some places. but instead, there're just too much numbers that scatter around in my mind, calculating my expenses, the time, or infact the steps Ive taken! my mind is full of numbers though! and, last class, my bel lect said, people with OCD is perfectionist. erk, am I? okay, to think of it, yes. I am perfectionist. I dont like people to touch my things and I always organize them nicely in my place. and, bare this, I dont do something like just doing it, I provide the details of them though!especially when it related to money. I'm very particular though! plus, I'm very particular in hanging my cloth and telekung to hanger or even arranging my toiletries. and, I really take care of my belongings especially if I bought them with my own money. I put all my shoes in their box after I've used them. owh, cakap pasal nie, my sister borrowed my sport shoes and didnt put them back into its box!panas gilaa hati kowt!and, abah mistaken that box as trash that he eventually throw it away!and, this is what I told syada,"den nak balek kotak adidas tu!kau buat la mcm mana pun den na kotak tu jugak,den x nak kau beli kasut adidas lain pastu kau bagi kotak tu kat den, den na kotak asal tu jugak!kotak yang da koyak sikit kat tepi tu jugak!" owh yes, she can hardly find the same box kan?well, this is me, I dont want a new one. instead, if my friend borrow my things and TER-hilang or rosak kan that thing, still, I want what's mine as in its state when I give it to them. I pernah repair my BESTA that cost as much as if you buy the new one tahu tak?but still, I insist to repair it altough I can get the new besta with the same cost!to be clear, the price doesnt interest me, but the value itself. sila lah boleh bezakan value and price di sini :) okay, dah melencong dari OCD~ so, basiclly, I have OCD :S
what's else?erm, tadi ingat na tulis ap, tapi after melepaskan kemarahan pasal kotak kasut, terus jadi lupa na tulis ap,,
so, till then :)
it's already 3am in the morning, but still, it's weekend peeps!so let's burst some adrenaline tonight :D
omygosh omygosh omygosh!there're so much to mory.
things happened this week and I didnt bring along my baby lappy hence, I cant update much :(
hurmm, still thinking of bringing this little baby to jengka tommorrow. owh yea, obviously, I'm in KL despite the mid term is just next week :D sadly to announce this, my ticket to go back to kl on this mid term holiday is on saturday!owh, sedih sekali :( nvm though, boleh siap2 kan any assignment before holiday-ing :D heheh,,
okay okay, last wed we went to senamrobik event or so-called-mini-pub-organized by sport rec heheh, and it was just turn me on to dance like crazy! like hey, there're no guys in the hall,let's rock on the floor ladies!heheh, so, ap na cerita kat sini is, going to pub really made my day :D dude, we had 4 classes on wed and that made me just too exhausted like dying :S and, soon we reached our room, tetibe 'that' spirit to finish my assignment on far and maf just burst. adding some tireness doing account thiggy and went to sleep at 1, hurmm, good job cik ct :) having fun without neglecting your assignment :)
lagi, owh yes!rearding my economics class, omygosh omygosh omygosh!sir Abu dzarr was just sooooooooooo handsome, and charming, and lovely, and nice, and *ahh, I dont know what else to describe him :) there were a time when I cant get the answer of this one question and he personally teaches me one-to-one!and during that time, I was like, "okay, sir nie please dont stand too close to me, I can hardly breath okay!"berdebar2 gitu! ahaks~ and while he was explaining that question to me, my mind was just out of service to digest every single word he's trying to convey :D I ws like, okay, okay *angguk2 and okay faham. but, instead, my mind wasnt there, it has peacefully flawn to somewhere else !hahahah! and, as the consequences, I still, didnt manage to get the answer. I NEED A SECOND COACHING SIR :') and, yes, sir datang and re-explain them to me, mula2 I was still in unable to digest his word, tapi few second later, 'okay, takk boleh tak boleh tak boleh, jangan berangan lagi cik ct!kau kena score betul2 paper nie!' so, here it goes, sir gave me his simplest formula to memorize the longg one :) sampai sekarang x padam lagi apa yang sir conteng kau!hahah,,
okay, this eve I went to MVEC for education fair and, the information is just too meaningful that I have to share them here. so that people will know and I boleh baca balik if terlupa.
1. still confuse of taking ielts or toefl?well, toefl is only recognize in US. but, somehow, in this upcoming year, US is going to accept ielts. so it is better for you to sit for ielts which is recognized worldwide kan?
2. ACCA. I will have 4 exemption paper of ACCA if I grad my DIA. and the duration for ACCA is 2 years without failing. but still you can take the course up to 10 years. then, 3 years working for any accounting fields which related to your course. then you are entitle for ACCA member. strting salary is 4500, while CIMA is 4000!hurmm, quite interesting :D
then, I just want to share some new info that I gethered from RD, it's about OCD. owh well, I've known this kind of 'disease' years ago while in mrsm. but didnt realize much how that disease is close to us, especially me. people with OCD is somehow like perfectionist. she wants everything to be perfect as what she's expecting them to be. owh, okay, there're so many types of OCD which you can google from internet actually. what am I going to share is, I dont know that the tendancy to count anything around you is one of OCD. frankly, I am one of them. I tend to count things around me, like how many chairs in my class, the lamp, the tables. and that OCD made me set my watch to be 20 minutes earlier than the actual time. so that whenever people ask me "pukul berapa datuk harimau" I will still able to count, which is substracting the time shown to 20 min so that it's tally to the actual time. anmpak tak betapa obsesive nya otak nie nak mengira? and most of all, you might see me walking alone to some places. but instead, there're just too much numbers that scatter around in my mind, calculating my expenses, the time, or infact the steps Ive taken! my mind is full of numbers though! and, last class, my bel lect said, people with OCD is perfectionist. erk, am I? okay, to think of it, yes. I am perfectionist. I dont like people to touch my things and I always organize them nicely in my place. and, bare this, I dont do something like just doing it, I provide the details of them though!especially when it related to money. I'm very particular though! plus, I'm very particular in hanging my cloth and telekung to hanger or even arranging my toiletries. and, I really take care of my belongings especially if I bought them with my own money. I put all my shoes in their box after I've used them. owh, cakap pasal nie, my sister borrowed my sport shoes and didnt put them back into its box!panas gilaa hati kowt!and, abah mistaken that box as trash that he eventually throw it away!and, this is what I told syada,"den nak balek kotak adidas tu!kau buat la mcm mana pun den na kotak tu jugak,den x nak kau beli kasut adidas lain pastu kau bagi kotak tu kat den, den na kotak asal tu jugak!kotak yang da koyak sikit kat tepi tu jugak!" owh yes, she can hardly find the same box kan?well, this is me, I dont want a new one. instead, if my friend borrow my things and TER-hilang or rosak kan that thing, still, I want what's mine as in its state when I give it to them. I pernah repair my BESTA that cost as much as if you buy the new one tahu tak?but still, I insist to repair it altough I can get the new besta with the same cost!to be clear, the price doesnt interest me, but the value itself. sila lah boleh bezakan value and price di sini :) okay, dah melencong dari OCD~ so, basiclly, I have OCD :S
what's else?erm, tadi ingat na tulis ap, tapi after melepaskan kemarahan pasal kotak kasut, terus jadi lupa na tulis ap,,
so, till then :)
Saturday, 8 December 2012
most welcome
bismilahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)
owh, okay, 4th semester already :)
hey!I'm in 2nd year of DIA,
erm, this morning, or noon actually, I went to PTWC for facon education fair.
nothing much information I gained, pretty less but worthy :)
I went to PDVL booth, and, it was not my luck when all of the exhibitors didnt speak malay -_-"
and, my sistah boleh pulak ter-reply in malay when she ask her -_____-"
luckily I able to speak fluently like so mat salleh celop gitu :D
nvm though :) still a great experiance despite my toothache :(
yes, again :'( hurmm~
erm erm, lagi, I will be back to jengka tommorrow by bus on 8pm, but I'll be glad to change my ticket so that I can reach jengka before affsuzuki starts!
owh malaysia!I really support you <3 go MatYo and abg gollie tinggi aka farizal :D heheh,,
entah farizal atau apek yang jaga nanti nie,
I didnt follow their updates though :S heheh, hopefully farizal ;*
I'm looking for the next match!
erm erm, since next weekend, I'll be hommie for mid valley education fair, I dont think of bringing my baby lappy to jengka this time. erm, what else?
cant wait to get back to jengka tommorrow, I wanna meet pn Wani regarding my programme, owh itu nanti la mory kat sini, frankly, I was appointed by ms president peers, to organize a programme this sem :) basically, I'm the Pengarah Program :S though I dont know what to do in realizing the programme. still thinking whether to appoint rin, aiman or nazmi as my TPP, each one of them has different specialties to guide my through out the progamme :)
so, till then :)
owh, okay, 4th semester already :)
hey!I'm in 2nd year of DIA,
erm, this morning, or noon actually, I went to PTWC for facon education fair.
nothing much information I gained, pretty less but worthy :)
I went to PDVL booth, and, it was not my luck when all of the exhibitors didnt speak malay -_-"
and, my sistah boleh pulak ter-reply in malay when she ask her -_____-"
luckily I able to speak fluently like so mat salleh celop gitu :D
nvm though :) still a great experiance despite my toothache :(
yes, again :'( hurmm~
erm erm, lagi, I will be back to jengka tommorrow by bus on 8pm, but I'll be glad to change my ticket so that I can reach jengka before affsuzuki starts!
owh malaysia!I really support you <3 go MatYo and abg gollie tinggi aka farizal :D heheh,,
entah farizal atau apek yang jaga nanti nie,
I didnt follow their updates though :S heheh, hopefully farizal ;*
I'm looking for the next match!
erm erm, since next weekend, I'll be hommie for mid valley education fair, I dont think of bringing my baby lappy to jengka this time. erm, what else?
cant wait to get back to jengka tommorrow, I wanna meet pn Wani regarding my programme, owh itu nanti la mory kat sini, frankly, I was appointed by ms president peers, to organize a programme this sem :) basically, I'm the Pengarah Program :S though I dont know what to do in realizing the programme. still thinking whether to appoint rin, aiman or nazmi as my TPP, each one of them has different specialties to guide my through out the progamme :)
so, till then :)
Monday, 3 December 2012
not a good start actually
bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum
alhamdullilah, I've started my first day of 4th semester today.
yes, basically first day my class starts
erk, sadly, our first class being cancel when we actually has come to that class!erkk~
nvm then :S it's our hobby to wake up early in the morning when even roosters didnt wake up!
erm erm, sbenanye kann,
I've come to my campus on saturday dengan semangatnya!
but, patheticly, entah macam mana, yesterday, my body feel a lil bit uneasy.
eh, this is not a ghost story tauu,
fever + diarrhoea + nausea + tonsil + headache + period pain!
owh well, this is not a good start of a new sem actually!hurmm~
dont know if I can really survive.
I didnt bring my sweater or even a sachet of cool fever!
and, there is no way others would bring a cool fever. semua jenis telan paracetamol je!
urgh~
ehh, I'm not the kind of person who afraid of taking drugs. cuma, I takk na biasakan diri telan ubat. nanti, sakit sikit telan ubat. towards the end, your body will be immune to that drugs. you have to consume more so that it will give some efffect your body.
so, I rather use cool fever though~
tapi, semalam I have to take acti-fast so that the fever will not get worse. I took a tablet of acti-fst since atikah(my new roomate) didnt have the origial paracetamol.yes, only one tablet,sebab ubat tu besar sangat!takut tercekik~eheh..
owh, about dean's list,
erk, only 3 girls from class B got dean's
there are ty and I of the girls from class C who got dean's (as far as I know)
only one word that cross to my mind when I know the fact is,
TIPUUUUU!
tak kann la sikit tu je?
or is it my result is the fake one?erk~
to think about it, I feel like, uitm is playing a tough battle tough~
most of all the students in part 1 got dean's and, the number decline when it comes to part 2. people who able to maintain dean's would be very happy. however, uitm will not be very satisfied of the news. they put a harder subject and a high level lecturer who will never guide you in personal but a truly lecture. towards the end, only a few will be survive in dean's list :S
I cuak~
it's easy to work on getting the first place rather than trying to maintain the victory, kann?
I cuak sangat, like seriously!
hurmm, O Allah, please ease everything :')
till then :)
alhamdullilah, I've started my first day of 4th semester today.
yes, basically first day my class starts
erk, sadly, our first class being cancel when we actually has come to that class!erkk~
nvm then :S it's our hobby to wake up early in the morning when even roosters didnt wake up!
erm erm, sbenanye kann,
I've come to my campus on saturday dengan semangatnya!
but, patheticly, entah macam mana, yesterday, my body feel a lil bit uneasy.
eh, this is not a ghost story tauu,
fever + diarrhoea + nausea + tonsil + headache + period pain!
owh well, this is not a good start of a new sem actually!hurmm~
dont know if I can really survive.
I didnt bring my sweater or even a sachet of cool fever!
and, there is no way others would bring a cool fever. semua jenis telan paracetamol je!
urgh~
so, I rather use cool fever though~
tapi, semalam I have to take acti-fast so that the fever will not get worse. I took a tablet of acti-fst since atikah(my new roomate) didnt have the origial paracetamol.yes, only one tablet,sebab ubat tu besar sangat!takut tercekik~eheh..
owh, about dean's list,
erk, only 3 girls from class B got dean's
there are ty and I of the girls from class C who got dean's (as far as I know)
only one word that cross to my mind when I know the fact is,
TIPUUUUU!
tak kann la sikit tu je?
or is it my result is the fake one?erk~
to think about it, I feel like, uitm is playing a tough battle tough~
most of all the students in part 1 got dean's and, the number decline when it comes to part 2. people who able to maintain dean's would be very happy. however, uitm will not be very satisfied of the news. they put a harder subject and a high level lecturer who will never guide you in personal but a truly lecture. towards the end, only a few will be survive in dean's list :S
I cuak~
it's easy to work on getting the first place rather than trying to maintain the victory, kann?
I cuak sangat, like seriously!
hurmm, O Allah, please ease everything :')
till then :)
Saturday, 1 December 2012
okay tipu!
bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum
we been cheated!
yeah!
or, could we just label it as wrongly interpret ?
urghh!
I called BPP personally to ask about the announcement, but then the news just turned me down!
fast track is really really really gone :'(
ahh, dah laa, maybe this is what Allah wants me to be.
4th sem!here I come -..-"
bip bip~
this cik ct is entering a new phase of her life. please give her way. bismillahirahmanirahim.
and a big step taken!
we been cheated!
yeah!
or, could we just label it as wrongly interpret ?
urghh!
I called BPP personally to ask about the announcement, but then the news just turned me down!
fast track is really really really gone :'(
ahh, dah laa, maybe this is what Allah wants me to be.
4th sem!here I come -..-"
bip bip~
this cik ct is entering a new phase of her life. please give her way. bismillahirahmanirahim.
and a big step taken!
Thursday, 29 November 2012
fast track is back?
bismilahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum
yeah!read the title AGAIN
FAST TRACK IS BACK?
like seriously?
owh, please!you're not kidding right?
okay, just now, I login my fb account and nik told me that she read the comments about the revocation of fast track programme. and, she do felt sad on behalf of the victims.
pastu I terfikir, why out of a sudden nik reminds me of this issue kann?
and, the nerve caught me to re-open the posted status by dato sahol, and read the lastest coment.
you know what, there were someone named musalmah laila commented,
yeah!read the title AGAIN
FAST TRACK IS BACK?
like seriously?
owh, please!you're not kidding right?
okay, just now, I login my fb account and nik told me that she read the comments about the revocation of fast track programme. and, she do felt sad on behalf of the victims.
pastu I terfikir, why out of a sudden nik reminds me of this issue kann?
and, the nerve caught me to re-open the posted status by dato sahol, and read the lastest coment.
you know what, there were someone named musalmah laila commented,
Hore! Hore! Hore!
U all dah baca ke Pekeliling Akademik Bil. 24 Tahun 2012 bertarikh 21 Nov 2012 yang ditandatangani oleh TNC (Akademik & Antarabangsa), Prof. Dr. Azni Zain Ahmed berkaitan Penamatan Pengambilan Pelajar Melalui Penerapan Diploma Semester Ketiga ke Sarjana Muda UiTM.
Pekeliling tu berkuatkuasa kepada Pelajar Diploma Semester 3 (Disember 2012) dan BUKANNYA kepada kita semua Pelajar Semester 3 (Jun 2012). Ini bermakna kita akan terima surat tawaran tak lama lagi.
Alasan penamatan pengambilan pelajar pada para 5(a), cukup tidak konsisten. Mengapa TNC mengatakan semangat pelajar pudar bila berehat selama 5 bulan. Bukankah Pelajar Diploma Semester 6 juga alami perkara yang sama kerana terpaksa menunggu 5 bulan barulah mula belajar di peringkat Ijazah. Adakah semangat belajar mereka juga pudar?.
Saya juga terfikir betapa tidak efisiennya UiTM, Senat telah bersidang 13 September 2012 tetapi Pekeliling keluar 69 hari kemudian pada 21 Nov 2012. Itu pun setelah VC Dato’ Prof Ir. Sahol keluarkan statement di laman facebooknya pada 15 Nov 2012 dan asakan dari pelajar. Mengapa pekeliling ini tidak dikeluarkan awal lagi?. Adakah ini kebetulan atau suratan setelah result diploma keluar pada 9 Nov 2012.
U all dah baca ke Pekeliling Akademik Bil. 24 Tahun 2012 bertarikh 21 Nov 2012 yang ditandatangani oleh TNC (Akademik & Antarabangsa), Prof. Dr. Azni Zain Ahmed berkaitan Penamatan Pengambilan Pelajar Melalui Penerapan Diploma Semester Ketiga ke Sarjana Muda UiTM.
Pekeliling tu berkuatkuasa kepada Pelajar Diploma Semester 3 (Disember 2012) dan BUKANNYA kepada kita semua Pelajar Semester 3 (Jun 2012). Ini bermakna kita akan terima surat tawaran tak lama lagi.
Alasan penamatan pengambilan pelajar pada para 5(a), cukup tidak konsisten. Mengapa TNC mengatakan semangat pelajar pudar bila berehat selama 5 bulan. Bukankah Pelajar Diploma Semester 6 juga alami perkara yang sama kerana terpaksa menunggu 5 bulan barulah mula belajar di peringkat Ijazah. Adakah semangat belajar mereka juga pudar?.
Saya juga terfikir betapa tidak efisiennya UiTM, Senat telah bersidang 13 September 2012 tetapi Pekeliling keluar 69 hari kemudian pada 21 Nov 2012. Itu pun setelah VC Dato’ Prof Ir. Sahol keluarkan statement di laman facebooknya pada 15 Nov 2012 dan asakan dari pelajar. Mengapa pekeliling ini tidak dikeluarkan awal lagi?. Adakah ini kebetulan atau suratan setelah result diploma keluar pada 9 Nov 2012.
and, she further add the link for her evidence of her tought,,
here it is,,
try to click the link and go to penguguman column then click the announcement about fast track.
then, re-read statement number 9 again and again. and AGAIN
err, 1 question, is that mean our batch is still available?meaning, we're going to get the offer letter soon?
ahh!knowing this fact making me wide awake!I cant sleep that I'm eager to wait till 9am to directly call bahagian pengambilan pelajar to confirm the announcement !
ahh!knowing this fact making me wide awake!I cant sleep that I'm eager to wait till 9am to directly call bahagian pengambilan pelajar to confirm the announcement !
ya Allah, if I'm given a chance to enroll the programme, I will definitely go for it. without a single doubt!insyaAllah. trust me :')
Thursday, 22 November 2012
reconcile
bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum everyone :)
till then~
I cant wait for 1 december!
eheh, guess what, I'm getting my spirit back, my strength~
there's nothing I can do to persuade or make senate reconcile about the decision made.
so that's it~
I gain nothing even if I baulk not to go back to jengka kann?
infact, it will give a negative effect to my performance, my achievement.
so, to think back the pros and cons of the announcement, how it will affect my studies, I've come out with a conclusion, that, no matter how hard my journey is, it is mine. nobody will help me unless myself :)
but still, not much preparation is going to be done this sem.
I'll just bring things I need.
no stock of food. no extra cloth. no exrta hanger. no things I might need or things I want.
it will be just things I need.
and, most of all, no frequent going back to kl. I just wanna feel the feeling of studying abroad where you cannot frequently go back to malaysia even if you're somehow like feeling the homsickness~
well dude, you can still feel those even if you're studying in malaysia. it is just the matter of mind set :)
how pathetic I'm~
so now, I'm going to list out things I want to buy and what to pack since it will be just 1 luggage. well, overseas student are only allowed to bring 1 luggage due to the luggage limitation right?you exceed it, you pay it. so cik ct, 1 luggage only. most important stuff will do ;)
well, 4th sem is going to be a tough battle too. we had come out with an agreement or it can be called as bet. that is to get a verrrrryyyy excellent result. mr library, please welcome us as your loyal customer ;) everyday! insyaAllah~
Sunday, 18 November 2012
miracle do happens
#still hoping for a miracle to come and fix everything as what it meant to be :') FT
poor me
bissmilahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)
yeah, biggest loser on the line!
great cik ct, 2 more weeks to go back to jengka and you haven't done any preparation :O
O Allah, where does my spirit goes ?
this is kinda hard for me :S
4th sem, you're not that tough right? please be nice to me :)
I'm not doing any preparation to meet you, but, please help me to excel. I dont know if I can really survive in this up coming semester. I just dont know :'(
things like this make me questioning myself. is this the way Allah want me to forget you? Allah wants me to finish my diploma and stop thinking of pursuing degree in accountancy. and, most of all, stop chasing him. bye bye awak :') do well in aussie. my journey is just getting harder day by day. is this the sign that we should stop here ? there is no way we can meet someday. I hope you can do your best although deep in my heart still hoping that we can still be together :')
#though I know I can never let go :( poor me~
yeah, biggest loser on the line!
great cik ct, 2 more weeks to go back to jengka and you haven't done any preparation :O
O Allah, where does my spirit goes ?
this is kinda hard for me :S
4th sem, you're not that tough right? please be nice to me :)
I'm not doing any preparation to meet you, but, please help me to excel. I dont know if I can really survive in this up coming semester. I just dont know :'(
things like this make me questioning myself. is this the way Allah want me to forget you? Allah wants me to finish my diploma and stop thinking of pursuing degree in accountancy. and, most of all, stop chasing him. bye bye awak :') do well in aussie. my journey is just getting harder day by day. is this the sign that we should stop here ? there is no way we can meet someday. I hope you can do your best although deep in my heart still hoping that we can still be together :')
Friday, 16 November 2012
there must be a reason :/
bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)
ahh, post tadi xde semilah dulu pown -_-
okay, as what abah done to me, trying to make me see the bright side of finishing diploma,
first, I calculate the time consume to finish diploma and continue degree in acc
pakai pen merah kau!
ahh, msty x faham cacing kerawit ape yg ditulis kan?lemme explain :)
but, whatever it is, still, I cant change the fact, so, this is what I do, figure out what are the bright side of finishing diploma :S
ahh, post tadi xde semilah dulu pown -_-
okay, as what abah done to me, trying to make me see the bright side of finishing diploma,
first, I calculate the time consume to finish diploma and continue degree in acc
pakai pen merah kau!
ahh, msty x faham cacing kerawit ape yg ditulis kan?lemme explain :)
first of all, this information is only valid for accounting student of uitm, intake may2011.
okay, this pathway is when you finish your diploma, and this side, when you do fast track
FINISH DIPLOMA FAST TRACK
sem 1 : may2011 - oct2011 sem 1 : may2011 - oct2011
sem 2 : dec2011 - apr2012 sem 2 : dec2011 - apr2012
sem 3 : june2012 - oct2012 sem 3 : june2012 - oct2012
sem 4 : dec2012 - apr2013 (degree)sem 2 : mac2013 - july2013
sem 5 : june2013 - oct2013 sem 3 : sept2013 - jan2014
sem 6 : dec 2012 - apr 2014 sem 4 : mac2014 - july2014
(degree) sem 4 : sept 2014 - jan2015 sem 5 : sept2014 - jan 2015
sem 5 : mac2015 - july2015 sem 6 : mac2015 - july2015
sem 6 : sept2015 - jan2016 sem 7 : sept2015 - jan2016
sem 7 : mac2016 - july2016 sem 8 : mac2016 - july2016
sem 8 : sept2016 - jan2017 dahh grad !
and, this mean, jimat 5 months! dey, 5 months tu kalau kawin da 4 months pregnant tahu!urghh~
but, whatever it is, still, I cant change the fact, so, this is what I do, figure out what are the bright side of finishing diploma :S
*owh, nie lagi la x faham kann~ okay, allow me :)
first, I wrote,
diploma - 2 1/2 years degree in accountancy - most of student said, degree is quite harder than diploma. so, you'll have only 5 semesters to maintain dekan (kalau dekan la kann)
diploma - 2 1/2 years degree in accountancy - most of student said, degree is quite harder than diploma. so, you'll have only 5 semesters to maintain dekan (kalau dekan la kann)
but then,
I started to think of fast track!, I wrote,
FT - dah buat muet, which is valid only for 5 years!
FT - dah buat muet, which is valid only for 5 years!
then, went back to diploma column, I wrote,
ANC for diploma !!
next, start to think about FT balek, I wrote
I will do my very best in degree because I dont have diploma cert. chance to get ANC is still bright too !
then, continue to still write on FT column,
x paya bayar ptptn, menyesal amek sebab ingat diploma first class yg dye revert to scholarship -.- rupanya degree first class
still stuck in FT column, I wrote,
I da prove degree wont be that hard since sem nie I dpt dekan.
I da prove degree wont be that hard since sem nie I dpt dekan.
lagi in FT column,
still degree in accountancy as what mak want me to be
but then, I realize, eh, kau pada asalnya na cuba think positive on finishing diploma kann, asal keep on writing about FT nie? -_____-
so, back to diploma column,
dinner dekan lagi !!
masok part 4, dpt merasa sem yang xde koko, yeay!
part 5 akan handle camp :) buat baju corporate, bley tolong anas :)
see????how cliche the point are!durhh, dinner dekan la, xde koko la, handle camp la. none of it pasal academic purpose!grrrr~
Ya Allah, please open their heart to revise this issue since we faced alot of problems consequently :'(
no more fast-track :'(
really frustrated!
how could uitm do this to me?!
I had planned everything to get it kowt!
infact, I've done many things to get myself clear about that program. and out of a sudden, dato sahol posted that statement, stating that, no more program penerapan afterthis starting on this sem. WITHOUT PRIOR NOTICE~ tup tup, je tahu!
atleast they should have extended that programme up to this semester since many of us had applied for that programme!
this is sooo unfair!
senate, please do something!
you've ruin my parents hope kowt!
yes, abah looks really dissapointed after I told him about this matter. mak just gave me some sort of kata2 semangat, there must be a reason senate do that, and Allah believe you can do better in diploma, this is your way.
'aaa, I know mak, tapi, I've work harder this sem to be qualified kowt!
they shouldnt open the online registration from the beginning. owh yeah, I chat with someone I knew from fb. he said, before our registration, this issue is still on discussion, whether to keep on offering fast track to diploma's student or not. but then, they came out into a drastic conclusion, no more fast-track for this semester onwards!takk ke kejam namanya tu? it's fine if they were still in discussion pun during our registration, but atleast, they should have allowed us yang dah TERlanjur apply this sem to still get the chance to pursue fast-track!
owh yeah, we had paid rm10 to buy the pin number jugak!
well, rm10 SAHAJA. but hey! I'm not the only one who applied fast track kowt!beribu~ just bring your sophiscated calculator and multiply the number of student who applied with rm10. tak ke beratus ribu uitm makan duit tu?just my opinion :)
then, I've read some of NR student who had terminated the agreement with penyewa rumah because they believe they can get the offer letter to fast track kowt~akibat dari dengar guruh di langit, air setempayan di curah kan. but atleast they put high hope gilaa kowt kat fast track!
this one is more pathetic, one of this student tell his mother about permansuhan program nie, and, his mom cried!his mom had put so much effort and believes his son can do well to be qualified for fast track programme, but in the end?uitm just ruin not only his hope, but his mom!sangat kejam~
and, as for me, I done a lot in this matter!
how could uitm do this to me?!
I had planned everything to get it kowt!
infact, I've done many things to get myself clear about that program. and out of a sudden, dato sahol posted that statement, stating that, no more program penerapan afterthis starting on this sem. WITHOUT PRIOR NOTICE~ tup tup, je tahu!
atleast they should have extended that programme up to this semester since many of us had applied for that programme!
this is sooo unfair!
senate, please do something!
you've ruin my parents hope kowt!
yes, abah looks really dissapointed after I told him about this matter. mak just gave me some sort of kata2 semangat, there must be a reason senate do that, and Allah believe you can do better in diploma, this is your way.
'aaa, I know mak, tapi, I've work harder this sem to be qualified kowt!
they shouldnt open the online registration from the beginning. owh yeah, I chat with someone I knew from fb. he said, before our registration, this issue is still on discussion, whether to keep on offering fast track to diploma's student or not. but then, they came out into a drastic conclusion, no more fast-track for this semester onwards!takk ke kejam namanya tu? it's fine if they were still in discussion pun during our registration, but atleast, they should have allowed us yang dah TERlanjur apply this sem to still get the chance to pursue fast-track!
owh yeah, we had paid rm10 to buy the pin number jugak!
well, rm10 SAHAJA. but hey! I'm not the only one who applied fast track kowt!beribu~ just bring your sophiscated calculator and multiply the number of student who applied with rm10. tak ke beratus ribu uitm makan duit tu?just my opinion :)
then, I've read some of NR student who had terminated the agreement with penyewa rumah because they believe they can get the offer letter to fast track kowt~akibat dari dengar guruh di langit, air setempayan di curah kan. but atleast they put high hope gilaa kowt kat fast track!
this one is more pathetic, one of this student tell his mother about permansuhan program nie, and, his mom cried!his mom had put so much effort and believes his son can do well to be qualified for fast track programme, but in the end?uitm just ruin not only his hope, but his mom!sangat kejam~
and, as for me, I done a lot in this matter!
- I went to see my PA, madam saflina, ask her opinion about this programme. made appoinment. climbing stairs to reach her room.
- buat muka tak malu add strangers on facebook because I wanted to ask their opinion as one of student who took fast track before, what's the pros and cons. did they manage to maintain the cgpa. how about the subject, the lectures, the environment in new campus, how they adapt with it, how to apply fast track, about muet, in fact semua lahh!
I've done a lot of research kowtt!
- infact,I took muet this sem because of fast track, I dont want muet to burden me when I'm in my first year degree. I want to focus 100% on subjects to prove to everybody that taking fast track is not that harder seperti yang dimomokkan~
dah laa muet is only valid for 5 years kowt!tak kan na buat muet lagi in future ? no use laa buat awal2!durhh~
- and and, most of all, I dissapoint my parent :'(
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