marry me mr right :*

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum everyone :)

today is 31st december 2012. nearly to new year..looking for a new hope and spirit :)
erm erm, lastest news, landslide at bukit setiawangsa last 3 nights. the weird thing is, there wasnt rainy durng that night, hurmm..

then, erm, I know this is kinda lame topic to discuss, but then, ermm, do you still remember the rumours saying that the world is gonna end on 21st dec 2012? erk, alhamdullilah, I'm still alive tough :) if only I can meet those person who predict that trash, I surely will kill them!trying to be God huh? even Muhammad SAW didnt know the exact date kau pulak lelebih!so, muslim, dont ever trust any info which can break your iman. kiamat itu pasti tapi tarikhnya dirahsiakan. nobody knows except Allah~
2012-stupidest movie I ever watched!

next, I would like to recap or somehow comment a series I follow up till now. ADAM HAWA :*
the feeling that eager to get marry early burst! cant imagine me having a husband whose willing to wait for me til eight years! how sweet and loyal he is :* the moment when ain ask am to hug her was hysterical! I WANT IT TOOO! eh~ looking and the happily married of them making me envy,huhh~ hey you! no no, I mean you, no, the guy next to you, erm yes yes, anak tansri kann?okay, masuk minang i sekarang jugak! eh~ hihihi *gelak nakal*
erk, okay. I cant wait to get marry! like seriously! I wanna have someone whom I can talk to whenever I have problems. sharing things, doing things together, laugh and cry together, support each other, and most importantly, be my imam for my every solat :') best nyaa!, lets imagine, your husband rub your head when you kiss his hand after solat. or when he pinch your nose. aahhhh~I'm melting!hurmm~ when do my time comes ? eh eh, I do have a silly question that I can still remember while we gossiping before sleep when in mrsm dulu. sila jangan gelak. erm erm, the very first thing I wanna touch of my husband body is, his halkum. eh, you guys never choking while eating ke?like that thing never block your food to get through your esophagus ? and I somehow feel like nak tolak dalam2 halkum tu, and suruh husband I eat something. just wanna see whether that food can swallow or not. heheh ;D and, I wanna hold that thing so that it cant move when he talks. okay, this is weird cik ct!your husband will die on the first night!ahahah~ well, I'm just curious ;) heheh.. talking about marriage, erm, am I ready? hurmm~ to be truth, I wanna have a stable career. achieve my dreams and having a stable live first .but, how long would it takes? I probably dah tua ganyut during that time kann? cause, I never satisfy with what I have. so, bilanya na kawin?hurmm~calon pun xde lagi,,
so, I've decided to get marry at the age of 25. twenty five yea!so, mr. right, please show up in 2018.. and, I prefer cinta selepas kawin so that we can treasure each other. in other word, I prefer marrying someone whom I dont know. so, si mr. right, I'd like surprise. hantar je rombongan merisik to my parent. and insyaAllah, I wont reject the first who come to ask my hand :) ermm, cik abang should know this! ehh~
just now, I log on my fb account, and guess what? dah two of my friends saying that they are going to marry!eh, jangan main2 boleh takk?kita dah besar kannn? isu kawin makin memanas!*erk, is there any word like memanas? =="
hurmm~
eh!you know what, 2013 is coming tommorrow!and, it means, I'm getting 20! okay, 20 yea!I repeat, 20! omggggg!another 5 years to get marry!heheheh,,actually, I wanna share something personal here,,erm, mak said, her friend is trying to match my sister with her son. well, I know her son. kawan abang. his mom said, "moga2 dapat lah kita berbesan kan teh" hurmm, what you feel when your younger sister is getting married? yes, mula2 i fikir, bagus lah langkah bendul, I can get ape tu, sort of gift from my brother-in -law. tapi, the question is, can I bare with those macik2 punya soalan nanti? adik kawin dulu ? erm,most importantly, can I stand ALONE? hurmm~ lagi meningkat usia, soalan bila nak kawin tu makin mencucuk2..deep in my heart feel a lil bit upset despite I join abah to tease her bila abah teasing syada about marriage, mentioning L,  ~hurmm,,

till then~

life's getting busy

bissmilahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum everyone :)

it's already 3am in the morning, but still, it's weekend peeps!so let's burst some adrenaline tonight :D
omygosh omygosh omygosh!there're so much to mory.
things happened this week and I didnt bring along my baby lappy hence, I cant update much :(
hurmm, still thinking of bringing this little baby to jengka tommorrow. owh yea, obviously, I'm in KL despite the mid term is just next week :D sadly to announce this, my ticket to go back to kl on this mid term holiday is on saturday!owh, sedih sekali :( nvm though, boleh siap2 kan any assignment before holiday-ing :D heheh,,
okay okay, last wed we went to senamrobik event or so-called-mini-pub-organized by sport rec heheh, and it was just turn me on to dance like crazy! like hey, there're no guys in the hall,let's rock on the floor ladies!heheh, so, ap na cerita kat sini is, going to pub really made my day :D dude, we had 4 classes on wed and that made me just too exhausted like dying :S and, soon we reached our room, tetibe 'that' spirit to finish my assignment on far and maf just burst. adding some tireness doing account thiggy and went to sleep at 1, hurmm, good job cik ct :) having fun without neglecting your assignment :)

lagi, owh yes!rearding my economics class, omygosh omygosh omygosh!sir Abu dzarr was just sooooooooooo handsome, and charming, and lovely, and nice, and *ahh, I dont know what else to describe him :) there were a time when I cant get the answer of this one question and he personally teaches me one-to-one!and during that time, I was like, "okay, sir nie please dont stand too close to me, I can hardly breath okay!"berdebar2 gitu! ahaks~ and while he was explaining that question to me, my mind was just out of service to digest every single word he's trying to convey :D I ws like, okay, okay *angguk2 and okay faham. but, instead, my mind wasnt there, it has peacefully flawn to somewhere else !hahahah! and, as the consequences, I still, didnt manage to get the answer. I NEED A SECOND COACHING SIR :') and, yes, sir datang and re-explain them to me, mula2 I was still in unable to digest his word, tapi few second later, 'okay, takk boleh tak boleh tak boleh, jangan berangan lagi cik ct!kau kena score betul2 paper nie!' so, here it goes, sir gave me his simplest  formula to memorize the longg one :) sampai sekarang x padam lagi apa yang sir conteng kau!hahah,,


okay, this eve I went to MVEC for education fair and, the information is just too meaningful that I have to share them here. so that people will know and I boleh baca balik if terlupa.
1. still confuse of taking ielts or toefl?well, toefl is only recognize in US. but, somehow, in this upcoming year, US is going to accept ielts. so it is better for you to sit for ielts which is recognized worldwide kan?
2. ACCA. I will have 4 exemption paper of ACCA if I grad my DIA. and the duration for ACCA is 2 years without failing. but still you can take the course up to 10 years. then, 3 years working for any accounting fields which related to your course. then you are entitle for ACCA member. strting salary is 4500, while CIMA is 4000!hurmm, quite interesting :D

then, I just want to share some new info that I gethered from RD, it's about OCD. owh well, I've known this kind of 'disease' years ago while in mrsm. but didnt realize much how that disease is close to us, especially me. people with OCD is somehow like perfectionist. she wants everything to be perfect as what she's expecting them to be. owh, okay, there're so many types of OCD which you can google from internet actually. what am I going to share is, I dont know that the tendancy to count anything around you is one of OCD. frankly, I am one of them. I tend to count things around me, like how many chairs in my class, the lamp, the tables. and that OCD made me set my watch to be 20 minutes earlier than the actual time. so that whenever people ask me "pukul berapa datuk harimau" I will still able to count, which is substracting the time shown to 20 min so that it's tally to the actual time. anmpak tak betapa obsesive nya otak nie nak mengira? and most of all, you might see me walking alone to some places. but instead, there're just too much numbers that scatter around in my mind, calculating my expenses, the time, or infact the steps Ive taken! my mind is full of numbers though! and, last class, my bel lect said, people with OCD is perfectionist. erk, am I? okay, to think of it, yes. I am perfectionist. I dont like people to touch my things and I always organize them nicely in my place. and, bare this, I dont do something like just doing it, I provide the details of them though!especially when it related to money. I'm very particular though! plus, I'm very particular in hanging my cloth and telekung to hanger or even arranging my toiletries. and, I really take care of my belongings especially if I bought them with my own money. I put all my shoes in their box after I've used them. owh, cakap pasal nie, my sister borrowed my sport shoes and didnt put them back into its box!panas gilaa hati kowt!and, abah mistaken that box as trash that he eventually throw it away!and, this is what I told syada,"den nak balek kotak adidas tu!kau buat la mcm mana pun den na kotak tu jugak,den x nak kau beli kasut adidas lain pastu kau bagi kotak tu kat den, den na kotak asal tu jugak!kotak yang da koyak sikit kat tepi tu jugak!" owh yes, she can hardly find the same box kan?well, this is me, I dont want a new one. instead, if my friend borrow my things and TER-hilang or rosak kan that thing, still, I want what's mine as in its state when I give it to them. I pernah repair my BESTA that cost as much as if you buy the new one tahu tak?but still, I insist to repair it altough I can get the new besta with the same cost!to be clear, the price doesnt interest me, but the value itself. sila lah boleh bezakan value and price di sini :) okay, dah melencong dari OCD~ so, basiclly, I have OCD :S

what's else?erm, tadi ingat na tulis ap, tapi after melepaskan kemarahan pasal kotak kasut, terus jadi lupa na tulis ap,,

so, till then :)

most welcome

bismilahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)

owh, okay, 4th semester already :)
hey!I'm in 2nd year of DIA,
erm, this morning, or noon actually, I went to PTWC for facon education fair.
nothing much information I gained, pretty less but worthy :)
I went to PDVL booth, and, it was not my luck when all of the exhibitors didnt speak malay -_-"
and, my sistah boleh pulak ter-reply in malay when she ask her -_____-"
luckily I able to speak fluently like so mat salleh celop gitu :D
nvm though :) still a great experiance despite my toothache :(
yes, again :'( hurmm~

erm erm, lagi, I will be back to jengka tommorrow by bus on 8pm, but I'll be glad to change my ticket so that I can reach jengka before affsuzuki starts!
owh malaysia!I really support you <3 go MatYo and abg gollie tinggi aka farizal :D heheh,,
entah farizal atau apek yang jaga nanti nie,
I didnt follow their updates though :S heheh, hopefully farizal ;*
I'm looking for the next match!

erm erm, since next weekend, I'll be hommie for mid valley education fair, I dont think of bringing my baby lappy to jengka this time. erm, what else?

cant wait to get back to jengka tommorrow, I wanna meet pn Wani regarding my programme, owh itu nanti la mory kat sini, frankly, I was appointed by ms president peers, to organize a programme this sem :) basically, I'm the Pengarah Program :S though I dont know what to do in realizing the programme. still thinking whether to appoint rin, aiman or nazmi as my TPP, each one of them has different specialties to guide my through out the progamme :)

so, till then :)

I just falling in LOVE :')

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)

have you ever read or heard a majestic name of Muhammad SAW?
yes, I just falling in love with him :')
He's just superb in everything he did.
politics, economics, social, infact, EVERYTHING!
He's just perfect :')
I wonder if I can be atleast as good as his daughter :')

I paling terkesan bila dengar cerita ada seorang hamba zaman Rasullulah, yang mana pada akhir usia Rasullulah, beliau berkata, barang siapa rasa aku ada berhutang dengannya, maka tuntutlah sekarang" and, out of a sudden, there was a guy stood up and said "ada sekali dahulu tali libasan mu terkena dibahagian belakang ku, dan aku mahu menuntut untuk melibas mu kembali ya Rasullulah" everyone was shocked and tried to stop that man, instead Rasullulah said, let him beat me. and, bila Rasullulah dah buka baju beliau dan bersedia untuk di libas, hamba tu datang dekat and peluk Rasullulah ! he said, "aku tiada cara lain untuk memelukmu ya Rasullulah untuk menunjuk kan betapa aku sayang kepadmu" yes, instead of he beat Rasullulah's back, he hugged Rasullulah, and this driven me crazy! Betapa sehebat2 manusia yang sangat di rindui ummat till now :')
infact, when he's dying, he said, "umatku, umatku, umatku" 3 times! how he's really worried of us :') Hhow he care about us :') how he loves us :') if I have one wish before I die, I truely want to meet him :') just to say how much I miss him :') how much I want to be like him :') though dia dibaling najis or dikeji masyarakat pada zaman itu, he would never give up :') kisah beliau memberi makan kepada seorang buta, and after he died, sahabat meet that blind people to feed him on behalf of Muhammad, tapi, si buta tu still kutuk Rasullulah when sahabat tried to feed him. pastu si buta tu realize, this is not the man that used to feed me, sahabat tu tak tahan sangat sampai menitikkan air mata, he said, orang yang selama ini memyuap mu makan adalah orang yang kamu keji sebentar tadi. tetapi beliau telah wafat :') just imagine, you feed a blind people, and that fella keji you seteruk2nya, tapi you still bertahan and still suap dia makanan. betapa sabarnya Rasullulah kann :') I woner if I can be like him :')
*owh god!I cant even stop my eyes from crying :''(
I just miss him so badly :')
cuba you sebut nama MUHAMMAD SAW dengan hati,
and you'll find the effect, seluruh jiwa bergetar!betapa nama itu teramat hebat :')

random second post of the day

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum everyone :)

oh well, alhamdullilah, I feel great after taking a nap in the afternoon :)
cuma period pain still exist tough~
I cant even straighten my abdomen!urghh~
erm erm, our eco 211 lecturer was quite a nice guy :D
haihh, this will make me harder to concentrate in his class tough! #ehh
dahh la his voice was soo romantic that I cant even stop to stare at him to get what's the lesson he's trying to convey ;D
AIS 280 dengan semangatnya dah start belajar -.-"

and and, I na cakap,
I really hate those fella whose dont have any idea to start a conversation and they come out with her boyfie topics!
I muak!
dey, those are such cinta monyet and it's so sad to say this, but, you dont know what's the true love mean (owh, like I do pulak kan -.-") but, bare this in mind, if your love just making you worse, better to leave him. love should cherish and give inspiration to each other to suceed.bukan both makin alpa. to think of this, it reminds me of him :') hurmm, I'm not to jaja my story but, I do have one question that I eagerly wants to ask. what will you feel if you clash with him, and a few weeks later, you saw a picture of him with a girl, berpelukan?owh dude!I wont mind if we didnt get along, but please find somebody who deserve you more than I do! O Allah, I dont know if I can really let go. please protect him on behalf of me, cause I just can do nothing despite how much I still need him. still need him to be my source of inspiration to suceed. I jadi bersemangat na belajar bila i tahu I still have you, but it's just a long time ago :'( hurmmm~
dah, malas!its making me upset :S

erm erm, about dean's list lagi,
this is much tipuuu!aiman and farhan didnt get dean's ?
okay tipu!
is everybody lying or result I salah cetak ?
O Allah, jangan buat aku riak dengan apa yang aku dapat :') lindungi aku dari perasaan keji macam tu :') ameen~
and, to all fast-trackers-not-to-be, ada yang cakap, they work really hard to mantain dean's so that they can get the offer to fast track programme. dont be sad. we still have another mission to grab. bare this,ANC is waiting for you guys. Allah made this way cause He believes you can :) and, there must a reason behind all these :)
dulu I always questioning myself, I slalu dapat sipi2 dari apa yang I impikan. but then, I come to know, I do gain something though!so, stop judging what's Allah doing towards you. there must be a reason :) macam post i yang ini :)

*till then :)

not a good start actually

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum

alhamdullilah, I've started my first day of 4th semester today.
yes, basically first day my class starts
erk, sadly, our first class being cancel when we actually has come to that class!erkk~
nvm then :S it's our hobby to wake up early in the morning when even roosters didnt wake up!

erm erm, sbenanye kann,
I've come to my campus on saturday dengan semangatnya!
but, patheticly, entah macam mana, yesterday, my body feel a lil bit uneasy.
eh, this is not a ghost story tauu,
fever + diarrhoea + nausea + tonsil + headache + period pain!
owh well, this is not a good start of a new sem actually!hurmm~
dont know if I can really survive.
I didnt bring my sweater or even a sachet of cool fever!
and, there is no way others would bring a cool fever. semua jenis telan paracetamol je!
urgh~

ehh, I'm not the kind of person who afraid of taking drugs. cuma, I takk na biasakan diri telan ubat. nanti, sakit sikit telan ubat. towards the end, your body will be immune to that drugs. you have to consume more so that it will give some efffect your body.
so, I rather use cool fever though~
tapi, semalam I have to take acti-fast so that the fever will not get worse. I took a tablet of acti-fst since atikah(my new roomate) didnt have the origial paracetamol.yes, only one tablet,sebab ubat tu besar sangat!takut tercekik~eheh..

owh, about dean's list,
erk, only 3 girls from class B got dean's
there are ty and I of the girls from class C who got dean's (as far as I know)
only one word that cross to my mind when I know the fact is,
TIPUUUUU!
tak kann la sikit tu je?
or is it my result is the fake one?erk~
to think about it, I feel like, uitm is playing a tough battle tough~
most of all the students in part 1 got dean's and, the number decline when it comes to part 2. people who able to maintain dean's would be very happy. however, uitm will not be very satisfied of the news. they put a harder subject and a high level lecturer who will never guide you in personal but a truly lecture. towards the end, only a few will be survive in dean's list :S
I cuak~
it's easy to work on getting the first place rather than trying to maintain the victory, kann?
I cuak sangat, like seriously!
hurmm, O Allah, please ease everything :')

till then :)

okay tipu!

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum

we been cheated!
yeah!
or, could we just label it as wrongly interpret ?
urghh!
I called BPP personally to ask about the announcement, but then the news just turned me down!
fast track is really really really gone :'(
ahh, dah laa, maybe this is what Allah wants me to be.
4th sem!here I come -..-"

bip bip~
this cik ct is entering a new phase of her life. please give her way. bismillahirahmanirahim.
and a big step taken!