rainbow :)

did you get the meaning?? hehe..
okay, I've lots of mory todayy :)
I even cant stop smiling too :P
bahagia sangat :P
we've talked :)
I always been afraid if I might lose her *I'm not les okay. its about friendship :P
everything starts with gosip. bout persida's anual dinner.
I went to her room to have a cup of hot gossip so that I can sleep well last night :D
btw, chomel da takk suci :(
hahah, he ask a girl to take picture with him, so,I cant respect him as innocent guy anymore :")
semua lelaki sama sahaja !
hello, eventhough I didnt attend the dinner, It doesnt mean I cant know any flirty thiggy that you do, I've alots of totally spies paham tak ! okay, enough those sad mory, dear you, I can hardly find a guy like you. and, now, I realize that, no one can replace you in my heart. haihh, dear Allah, if he doesnt meant for me, please let me move on. I realize that, I can hardly forget my past. it's hard for me to start a new life. especially when the past holds alots of memorable thiggy. having you besides me have opened my eye to see the bright side of destiny. if only you could read this, I MISS YOU SO MUCH paham takk :'( if only I had a second chance to be with you :'(

okay dahh, that's the rain, so here comes the rainbow :P
I got 53 over 55 for my MGT's first test :)
I can still remember the first time madam look at my mind map which more like a rubbish. black,
-blue and white- the combination of color that made my mind map just like kertas conteng2, she even scold me for the ugliest mind map among the classmate including guys. what a shame!yet, I simply told her
"I cant read the colorful mind map cuz it makes me headache"
nampak x betapa melawan nye la budak nie ? =.="
MRSM langkawi taught me to make notes for myself, not for the teacher, thas's what I impliment till now :P
but now, I even close to her since the project assignment, and, just now, my group and I had a presentation bout our asignment, but, I've disspoint her as, I didnt do well on my part that is, marketing section. I dont know why, but, I dont feel like, that's the best I can do. hurmmm....
BUTTTTTT ! hehe, I manage to cover all the weaknesses during Q&A session :)
thanks to diniy for your lotssssssssss of question :)
kau na balas dendam ke huh? -.-
last week was his group's turn to present. I had ask his group a question, then, it turn into perang mulut, as we have sort of ketidakpuas hatian, sampai madam pown gelak tengok ktowg perang :D. what a sad thing is, I ws shaking on that time ! OMAI!I just cant believe that okay!I never shaking when debating with people! and, I feel like wanna cut my mouth for showing her weakness when I really2 need her support to debate him! the whole class could see my bibir berketar when debating him paham takk?!betapa I feel like wanna chop my my own mouth on that time!memalukan je -.-" yet, todayyy, YOU LOSE DINIY! :) hahahahah! paid off! dont you ever think that you can simply win, I'm not like those girl which a guy can simply let down okay :P I will never give up especially to guyz, bear that in mind ! :D
hahah, yg x bole belah nye, ecah greet me in the toilet, she said,
"congrates ain, no one can argue him, but you !what a awesome mgt's class just now"
eh eh, can you buy a new trousers? mine had torned :P
like, hello, he's just human being okay..dont be too scared. dont make him feel that he's king ! we have our rights..okay, out of topic =.="
than, eco's class on the evening :)
we got back our paper, I got 89% and 84% for test 1 and 2 respectively :)
thanx Allah :)
huh, miss eco nie pown 1 mslh, I used to feel like I been aim in her class! I can still remember the scene when I dont want to draw the ppc curve since it has already drawn in the textbook. then she said, "fine, if you dont want to draw today, draw it in your finals" dengan nada melancholic eh eh, cynical actually :P
but now, she dont aim me anymore, perhaps, she feels like, "what a good student, x buat keja pown score" :D okay, riak sude..my point is, dear adik2, dont be like me, I have my own way to study. eventhough I didnt do her work, yet, I have my own notes which is more like a kertas conteng2 tu.. only my close friend know how it looks like, kan eza, ion, nisa, sha, nik ? okay, I miss them so much :'( different people have their own way to study. ada blaja while listening to mp, baca maths which is, if you think logically, practise would be the best way to learn maths, scan sejarah which you suppose to memorize the fact actually, not just scan it because you're not

to scan every fact :P

and macam2 laa way to study..
okay, as the conclusion, I've been crying so much lately due to maktabsick 3rd stage :'( rupanya, Allah wanna give me rainbow which my carry mark :) thanx Allah ;')

I even write an entry bout my experiance in maktab. tapi x publish lagi since it's still under construction :') sabaq noh :D

FaceUpElevation

I feel like crying now :'(
I can't attend the face up at langkawee :''''(
owh my dear elevation, I MISS ALL OF YOU DAMN MUCH paham takkk??!
living here just makes me moree stress out!
If only doremon's exist, I would ask him for the time machine to go back to where my life starts :'((
I just want to live in that pulau and start it all over again :"(
seriously, I can't go on with this!
ain menyesal dengan pilihan ain sniri!
yesterday, I opened mrsm's student group on fb and someone post this,
"dear adik2 spm 2011, choose course that suit to your qualification, not what you interest in. because nowadays, its hard to get job in Malaysia"
and, I feel bad for my choice that it, persuing account :(
I dont have basic account, and, my result doesn't suit to take it, maybe I was selected because I'm mrsm student who took science stream with extra point in getting A+ for add maths. but still,,I dont know what the hell account is!I should choose engineering paham takk! I just love physic so much. I miss cikgu Nik so damn much paham takk!
I feel regret for choosing diploma's programme. It will just wasting my time here where all my friends will get their degree's in the same time I got my diploma's cert. I feel like a loser now!seriously, I FEEL LIKE A LOSER!
living in this sawit's area makes me stress out! I MISS MRSM LANGKAWI SO MUCH!
I miss all the people, environment, class, aspuri, dewan selera, billion, prade, pekan kuah, jetty point, airport, surau airport, pramugari2, TL12, TT36, TM13, ldp,  PUM, phyic's lab, cikgu mimi, madam tina, cikgu nik, cikgu nasra, cikgu apandi, cikgu mawardi, papa sam, pak said, cikgu ridwan, pak zaf, TAC, academic's square, green square, surau al-muttaqin, parcel, library, ehh, semuaaaa laaaa!
I can still remember every single thing in maktab! where the is, DS, DSG, tennis court, library, all the susun atur in DS, librray, semuaaa laa!paham x ain sangat rindu zaman itu!and I cant stop my eye's rain. biala mata bengkak pown, I dont care, cuz you dont know how hard my life's here :'''''(((

I'm not a robot !

assalamualaikum everyone :)
okay, this week is fullll of tests and quizzes !
hello! I'm not a robot okayy -.-
yesterday got mgt's test and it was like, "hensemnyaaa inviligator niee!"hahah..
luckly he doesnt affect my concentration in giving full commitment towards my answer.
whatever it is, STILL,
MY HANDWRITNG IS TOTALLY BADDD
sometimes I think that, I should go back to my lovely kindergarten to learn how to write properly!
and, I've been always confuse about my gender, yeah yeah yeah, we usually heard that, guys have a bad handwritning compared to woman. Is that true??how bout my case then??I was just afraid if madam couldn't read my handwriting :( tawakkal je laa..

and, as for today, eco's test ! I've done my best, so lets just wait and see the result. I've marked my own paper too. based on my own judgment, InsyaAllah, A kowtttt..hahah..doakan tauu! ;)

then, tommorrow got QMT's test at 11. luckily it is just maths. err, +maths I mean, so it wil be little harder. yet, confidence is the most important pills to guzzle!hahah,,and, not to forget, believes in yourself too ;) then only you can succeed ;)

then I have to attend Interaksi peers on sunday morning, MGT's quiz on monday, FAR on the next day and eco on wednesday.

so basically, my schedule is just tooo pack!and, again, I"M NOT A ROBOT or SPONGEBOB to absorb all the content in the bookssss paham takk =,="

mind set

hola again :P
hahah, okay, this entry is about mind set of people, especially malay, and, I'm included la kan..
okay, if you all notice, I've been posting so many entry bout love, marry and so fort.
yes! I do feel bad for that, its like, I'm losing my focus in achieving my target here..
so, I've deleted some of the post which I think will affect my concentration in striving for the victory :)
ingat cik ct! kau na fly kann !
okay, look, we had heard soo many love story bout early marriage, and, many of my friend of friend,,err, kawan punya kawan laa..hahah, susa na cakap jawa nie :D
okay, back to the mory, at the beginning, I do feel jealous of them, muda-muda lagi dah kawin :) untunglaa..
but !is it what educated person should think for now??
this such topic never cross our mind when we're in MRSM Langkawee tau x. everybody was thinking of studying abroad, get a scholorship semua. none of them kata na kawin awal, kalau ada pun, main2 sebab takk dapat jawab add math :D
so now, I just want to focus in achieving my own victory! no one can stop me now!
GO CIK CT!I believe you can :)

bad debt RECOVERED

hola everybody :)
okay, just ignore the word bad debt :P it's just a term in account. budak akaun la katekan :P
okay, frst of all, Alhamdulillah, I feel better now..
better from what??hahah, from feeling down :)
thanx to those who really support me :)
I really appreciate you guyz for being next to me whenever I need a support.

mad, thanx sangat2 for spending your credit. walaupun merentas benua, you dont mind for wasting your top up just to be a good listener to me :') I dont expect that you will call me immediately, cause I prefer texting due to its low cost (it's merentas network celcom to maxis actually!bhahah)

next goes to sheky, eventhough we didn't make a call, but, thanx yaw! you really fulfil my bored time replying your text :D hahah,

and last but not least, qoyum. thanx for sharing your problems too :) its make me feel like, I'm not the only one who's in trouble right now :) dear world, whenever you feel bad, think of someone who is definately bad, as in, if you dont have a shoe to wear, think of person who doesn't have leg at all. and, you make me realize that. I'll take your sort of kata2 semangat to strenghten my mental and physical here okay :) to be truth, it took me awhile tau x to send you the msg, cuz I'm afraid if you dont have much time to reply it back..hahah, am I being too concern?

journey of the day #2

What a exhausted day!like seriously,,

for the first time I step my foot in Jerantut.

and, Jerantut is like a huge town as compared to Jengka for sure,,

Inderapura as in Bandar Baru, while Bandar Lama, as bandar lama..

madam Faizan drop me and Bella at Bandar Lama to run the survey :)

okay, for the first time in my entire life kowt doing such work!penatttt gileee..

summer at Jerantut really really makes me exHAUSted!

penat and haus paham takk?

I almost colapse! semua pown nampak berputar =.="

okay, the mory is, me, Amy, Fiza and Bella had given a chance to help our beloved MGT lect to run a survey on halal cosmetic around Kuantan, but then, since Kuantan is soo costly, so, she change it to Jerantut and Temerloh. its actually, we're willing to help her because of money that she will pay later :P hahah,,not only that, we got a chance to meet Jengka's cousin, Jerantut and Temerloh too :P and, not to forget, I will get such a nice experiance while still studying :) susa jugak buat thesis ekk?? so, people out there!prepare yourself physically and mentally! hahah,,

back to the journey

Bella and I saperately search for any muslim's shop selling cosmetic. and, my strategy is,

go to the shop, talk nicely, call them akak eventough the respondan is wayyyyy older than my mum!bhahahah..then, ask the macik where can I find other shop selling cosmetic, let her fill the questionaire while, I go to other shop she'd told. then, collect it back after distribute those questionare to other shop :)

by doing that, I manage to get 9 filled questionare in Jerantut but, ONLY 6 at Temerloh!

and, I would like to say, orang2 Temerloh sombong2 laa! cause, I had bumped into 3 shop that cant give their kerjasama!

-akak xde mood la dekk..* and I ws lik, what daaa??kalau xde mood, x payah la bukak kedai yg x seberapa tu ary nie!

-macik kate baek adek g atas, kat atas tu lagi banyakk

*dey!I want as many as possible la!and, I want yours too!haihh,,

okay, enough..

hurmm, what else,,err...

huh!madam treat us lunch too :) rugi x amek air buah! hahah,,by the time madam reach our table after searching the lost of Amy and Fiza's ice lemon tea da bertukar jadi air kosong ais ada biji limau,sebab refill air kosong sniri, since ice lemon tea da selamat dikebumikan dalam perut :D *ice lemon tea as in teh o ais limau laa..haihh, tu Jerantut la,,bukan JORdANTUT :P

and, she treat us waffle for hi-tea since we got no time to order any masakan panas..

what ever it is,,thanx yo! what a nice experiance today :)

bad news pulak,

we have to ponteng BEL's class since nobody knew that we're actually had BEL today!the only people that know this news is, geng2 dayah and Izyan! yan really disapoint for not telling us bout the news :'(( atlast, only 3 girls attend the class, which are, Yan, Dayah and Zatul..

seriously, I feel like, yan is running apart from us now :(

IDK why, maybe it's just my feeling, but, since she's too close with her roomates and geng2 dayah, I could feel the change, cakap lepas,hurmm..bout zaty pulak, we had a muhasabah diri last 3 nights. I had voice any my ketidakpuasatian, so as her. why? its because of yan,, yan eventually ask me and ida whether we want to stick as rum8 next sem or, berpecah cause, she cant stay with zaty. ida too..but not me! I've gone through those era kepulauan, and I dont want any of my friend face it too. dont you feel weird when four of us as belangkas kemana sahaja, the most popular and happening geng in part 1 berpecah?? sangat sangat pelik kan?? its like, kalau ada masalah dalam geng pown, I dont want any outsider know, because they used to see us happy and happening before. geng sosial yang paling huuhaahuuhaa rupanya x sekepala. so, I went to see ida and ask her opinion bout zaty, after that, we call zaty to bermuhasabah diri together, then only I know the exact situation. bout what she feel all this while...I finally realize that, she ain't that bad. I also realize, yan never give her commitment when completing any assignment since part 1 when zaty voice her pendam perasaan selama nie. I feel pity for her, nobody sees the bad side of yan but hers, lately, yan never share any information bout anything to us like, CTU's notes, BEL class, banyak laa yang di reveal malam tu,bout, zaty salute me for never giving up when debating with her cause sometime, she realize, I'm right :P pengalaman hidup Ida, and, we're getting close now :) except yan :(

I dont know how to advise her..hurmm,,

then, the most funniest thing that happened this week is,

Ida and Aiman kena tangkap dgn JAIS!bhhahahah!lawak kowt masa tuu!

Aiman, Ida, Yan and I were waiting for zaty while she's still in the meeting room. but then, zaty ask us to left her cause it will take so much time, so me and Yan start our move to complex then, maka, tertinggallah ida and aiman 2 or 3 sec behind. I realize this when turning behind to see wether they follow me. but then,,

"eh Yan!ida kena tangkap basah la tuu!"

"huuhh??whatt??"

and yan was like sooo blurr that night!then, I pull her near Ida and Aiman, I explain to those ustazah2 EAC's club that, we're together actually, both are my friend, nothing more than friend between us blaa blaa blaa..hahaha!lawak kowt!!I was thinking of cover page Utusan or BH tommorrow,,

"the most popular geng in UiTM Jengka been caught"

bhaahahahhah!I thought that they follow me and Yan's behind, rupanya, da been caught by JAIS not more than 5 sec after Yan and I gerak!bhahahahahahah!sangat efficient EAC's club Jengka ekk??!macam2 betull!