marry me mr right :*

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum everyone :)

today is 31st december 2012. nearly to new year..looking for a new hope and spirit :)
erm erm, lastest news, landslide at bukit setiawangsa last 3 nights. the weird thing is, there wasnt rainy durng that night, hurmm..

then, erm, I know this is kinda lame topic to discuss, but then, ermm, do you still remember the rumours saying that the world is gonna end on 21st dec 2012? erk, alhamdullilah, I'm still alive tough :) if only I can meet those person who predict that trash, I surely will kill them!trying to be God huh? even Muhammad SAW didnt know the exact date kau pulak lelebih!so, muslim, dont ever trust any info which can break your iman. kiamat itu pasti tapi tarikhnya dirahsiakan. nobody knows except Allah~
2012-stupidest movie I ever watched!

next, I would like to recap or somehow comment a series I follow up till now. ADAM HAWA :*
the feeling that eager to get marry early burst! cant imagine me having a husband whose willing to wait for me til eight years! how sweet and loyal he is :* the moment when ain ask am to hug her was hysterical! I WANT IT TOOO! eh~ looking and the happily married of them making me envy,huhh~ hey you! no no, I mean you, no, the guy next to you, erm yes yes, anak tansri kann?okay, masuk minang i sekarang jugak! eh~ hihihi *gelak nakal*
erk, okay. I cant wait to get marry! like seriously! I wanna have someone whom I can talk to whenever I have problems. sharing things, doing things together, laugh and cry together, support each other, and most importantly, be my imam for my every solat :') best nyaa!, lets imagine, your husband rub your head when you kiss his hand after solat. or when he pinch your nose. aahhhh~I'm melting!hurmm~ when do my time comes ? eh eh, I do have a silly question that I can still remember while we gossiping before sleep when in mrsm dulu. sila jangan gelak. erm erm, the very first thing I wanna touch of my husband body is, his halkum. eh, you guys never choking while eating ke?like that thing never block your food to get through your esophagus ? and I somehow feel like nak tolak dalam2 halkum tu, and suruh husband I eat something. just wanna see whether that food can swallow or not. heheh ;D and, I wanna hold that thing so that it cant move when he talks. okay, this is weird cik ct!your husband will die on the first night!ahahah~ well, I'm just curious ;) heheh.. talking about marriage, erm, am I ready? hurmm~ to be truth, I wanna have a stable career. achieve my dreams and having a stable live first .but, how long would it takes? I probably dah tua ganyut during that time kann? cause, I never satisfy with what I have. so, bilanya na kawin?hurmm~calon pun xde lagi,,
so, I've decided to get marry at the age of 25. twenty five yea!so, mr. right, please show up in 2018.. and, I prefer cinta selepas kawin so that we can treasure each other. in other word, I prefer marrying someone whom I dont know. so, si mr. right, I'd like surprise. hantar je rombongan merisik to my parent. and insyaAllah, I wont reject the first who come to ask my hand :) ermm, cik abang should know this! ehh~
just now, I log on my fb account, and guess what? dah two of my friends saying that they are going to marry!eh, jangan main2 boleh takk?kita dah besar kannn? isu kawin makin memanas!*erk, is there any word like memanas? =="
hurmm~
eh!you know what, 2013 is coming tommorrow!and, it means, I'm getting 20! okay, 20 yea!I repeat, 20! omggggg!another 5 years to get marry!heheheh,,actually, I wanna share something personal here,,erm, mak said, her friend is trying to match my sister with her son. well, I know her son. kawan abang. his mom said, "moga2 dapat lah kita berbesan kan teh" hurmm, what you feel when your younger sister is getting married? yes, mula2 i fikir, bagus lah langkah bendul, I can get ape tu, sort of gift from my brother-in -law. tapi, the question is, can I bare with those macik2 punya soalan nanti? adik kawin dulu ? erm,most importantly, can I stand ALONE? hurmm~ lagi meningkat usia, soalan bila nak kawin tu makin mencucuk2..deep in my heart feel a lil bit upset despite I join abah to tease her bila abah teasing syada about marriage, mentioning L,  ~hurmm,,

till then~

life's getting busy

bissmilahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum everyone :)

it's already 3am in the morning, but still, it's weekend peeps!so let's burst some adrenaline tonight :D
omygosh omygosh omygosh!there're so much to mory.
things happened this week and I didnt bring along my baby lappy hence, I cant update much :(
hurmm, still thinking of bringing this little baby to jengka tommorrow. owh yea, obviously, I'm in KL despite the mid term is just next week :D sadly to announce this, my ticket to go back to kl on this mid term holiday is on saturday!owh, sedih sekali :( nvm though, boleh siap2 kan any assignment before holiday-ing :D heheh,,
okay okay, last wed we went to senamrobik event or so-called-mini-pub-organized by sport rec heheh, and it was just turn me on to dance like crazy! like hey, there're no guys in the hall,let's rock on the floor ladies!heheh, so, ap na cerita kat sini is, going to pub really made my day :D dude, we had 4 classes on wed and that made me just too exhausted like dying :S and, soon we reached our room, tetibe 'that' spirit to finish my assignment on far and maf just burst. adding some tireness doing account thiggy and went to sleep at 1, hurmm, good job cik ct :) having fun without neglecting your assignment :)

lagi, owh yes!rearding my economics class, omygosh omygosh omygosh!sir Abu dzarr was just sooooooooooo handsome, and charming, and lovely, and nice, and *ahh, I dont know what else to describe him :) there were a time when I cant get the answer of this one question and he personally teaches me one-to-one!and during that time, I was like, "okay, sir nie please dont stand too close to me, I can hardly breath okay!"berdebar2 gitu! ahaks~ and while he was explaining that question to me, my mind was just out of service to digest every single word he's trying to convey :D I ws like, okay, okay *angguk2 and okay faham. but, instead, my mind wasnt there, it has peacefully flawn to somewhere else !hahahah! and, as the consequences, I still, didnt manage to get the answer. I NEED A SECOND COACHING SIR :') and, yes, sir datang and re-explain them to me, mula2 I was still in unable to digest his word, tapi few second later, 'okay, takk boleh tak boleh tak boleh, jangan berangan lagi cik ct!kau kena score betul2 paper nie!' so, here it goes, sir gave me his simplest  formula to memorize the longg one :) sampai sekarang x padam lagi apa yang sir conteng kau!hahah,,


okay, this eve I went to MVEC for education fair and, the information is just too meaningful that I have to share them here. so that people will know and I boleh baca balik if terlupa.
1. still confuse of taking ielts or toefl?well, toefl is only recognize in US. but, somehow, in this upcoming year, US is going to accept ielts. so it is better for you to sit for ielts which is recognized worldwide kan?
2. ACCA. I will have 4 exemption paper of ACCA if I grad my DIA. and the duration for ACCA is 2 years without failing. but still you can take the course up to 10 years. then, 3 years working for any accounting fields which related to your course. then you are entitle for ACCA member. strting salary is 4500, while CIMA is 4000!hurmm, quite interesting :D

then, I just want to share some new info that I gethered from RD, it's about OCD. owh well, I've known this kind of 'disease' years ago while in mrsm. but didnt realize much how that disease is close to us, especially me. people with OCD is somehow like perfectionist. she wants everything to be perfect as what she's expecting them to be. owh, okay, there're so many types of OCD which you can google from internet actually. what am I going to share is, I dont know that the tendancy to count anything around you is one of OCD. frankly, I am one of them. I tend to count things around me, like how many chairs in my class, the lamp, the tables. and that OCD made me set my watch to be 20 minutes earlier than the actual time. so that whenever people ask me "pukul berapa datuk harimau" I will still able to count, which is substracting the time shown to 20 min so that it's tally to the actual time. anmpak tak betapa obsesive nya otak nie nak mengira? and most of all, you might see me walking alone to some places. but instead, there're just too much numbers that scatter around in my mind, calculating my expenses, the time, or infact the steps Ive taken! my mind is full of numbers though! and, last class, my bel lect said, people with OCD is perfectionist. erk, am I? okay, to think of it, yes. I am perfectionist. I dont like people to touch my things and I always organize them nicely in my place. and, bare this, I dont do something like just doing it, I provide the details of them though!especially when it related to money. I'm very particular though! plus, I'm very particular in hanging my cloth and telekung to hanger or even arranging my toiletries. and, I really take care of my belongings especially if I bought them with my own money. I put all my shoes in their box after I've used them. owh, cakap pasal nie, my sister borrowed my sport shoes and didnt put them back into its box!panas gilaa hati kowt!and, abah mistaken that box as trash that he eventually throw it away!and, this is what I told syada,"den nak balek kotak adidas tu!kau buat la mcm mana pun den na kotak tu jugak,den x nak kau beli kasut adidas lain pastu kau bagi kotak tu kat den, den na kotak asal tu jugak!kotak yang da koyak sikit kat tepi tu jugak!" owh yes, she can hardly find the same box kan?well, this is me, I dont want a new one. instead, if my friend borrow my things and TER-hilang or rosak kan that thing, still, I want what's mine as in its state when I give it to them. I pernah repair my BESTA that cost as much as if you buy the new one tahu tak?but still, I insist to repair it altough I can get the new besta with the same cost!to be clear, the price doesnt interest me, but the value itself. sila lah boleh bezakan value and price di sini :) okay, dah melencong dari OCD~ so, basiclly, I have OCD :S

what's else?erm, tadi ingat na tulis ap, tapi after melepaskan kemarahan pasal kotak kasut, terus jadi lupa na tulis ap,,

so, till then :)

most welcome

bismilahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)

owh, okay, 4th semester already :)
hey!I'm in 2nd year of DIA,
erm, this morning, or noon actually, I went to PTWC for facon education fair.
nothing much information I gained, pretty less but worthy :)
I went to PDVL booth, and, it was not my luck when all of the exhibitors didnt speak malay -_-"
and, my sistah boleh pulak ter-reply in malay when she ask her -_____-"
luckily I able to speak fluently like so mat salleh celop gitu :D
nvm though :) still a great experiance despite my toothache :(
yes, again :'( hurmm~

erm erm, lagi, I will be back to jengka tommorrow by bus on 8pm, but I'll be glad to change my ticket so that I can reach jengka before affsuzuki starts!
owh malaysia!I really support you <3 go MatYo and abg gollie tinggi aka farizal :D heheh,,
entah farizal atau apek yang jaga nanti nie,
I didnt follow their updates though :S heheh, hopefully farizal ;*
I'm looking for the next match!

erm erm, since next weekend, I'll be hommie for mid valley education fair, I dont think of bringing my baby lappy to jengka this time. erm, what else?

cant wait to get back to jengka tommorrow, I wanna meet pn Wani regarding my programme, owh itu nanti la mory kat sini, frankly, I was appointed by ms president peers, to organize a programme this sem :) basically, I'm the Pengarah Program :S though I dont know what to do in realizing the programme. still thinking whether to appoint rin, aiman or nazmi as my TPP, each one of them has different specialties to guide my through out the progamme :)

so, till then :)

I just falling in LOVE :')

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)

have you ever read or heard a majestic name of Muhammad SAW?
yes, I just falling in love with him :')
He's just superb in everything he did.
politics, economics, social, infact, EVERYTHING!
He's just perfect :')
I wonder if I can be atleast as good as his daughter :')

I paling terkesan bila dengar cerita ada seorang hamba zaman Rasullulah, yang mana pada akhir usia Rasullulah, beliau berkata, barang siapa rasa aku ada berhutang dengannya, maka tuntutlah sekarang" and, out of a sudden, there was a guy stood up and said "ada sekali dahulu tali libasan mu terkena dibahagian belakang ku, dan aku mahu menuntut untuk melibas mu kembali ya Rasullulah" everyone was shocked and tried to stop that man, instead Rasullulah said, let him beat me. and, bila Rasullulah dah buka baju beliau dan bersedia untuk di libas, hamba tu datang dekat and peluk Rasullulah ! he said, "aku tiada cara lain untuk memelukmu ya Rasullulah untuk menunjuk kan betapa aku sayang kepadmu" yes, instead of he beat Rasullulah's back, he hugged Rasullulah, and this driven me crazy! Betapa sehebat2 manusia yang sangat di rindui ummat till now :')
infact, when he's dying, he said, "umatku, umatku, umatku" 3 times! how he's really worried of us :') Hhow he care about us :') how he loves us :') if I have one wish before I die, I truely want to meet him :') just to say how much I miss him :') how much I want to be like him :') though dia dibaling najis or dikeji masyarakat pada zaman itu, he would never give up :') kisah beliau memberi makan kepada seorang buta, and after he died, sahabat meet that blind people to feed him on behalf of Muhammad, tapi, si buta tu still kutuk Rasullulah when sahabat tried to feed him. pastu si buta tu realize, this is not the man that used to feed me, sahabat tu tak tahan sangat sampai menitikkan air mata, he said, orang yang selama ini memyuap mu makan adalah orang yang kamu keji sebentar tadi. tetapi beliau telah wafat :') just imagine, you feed a blind people, and that fella keji you seteruk2nya, tapi you still bertahan and still suap dia makanan. betapa sabarnya Rasullulah kann :') I woner if I can be like him :')
*owh god!I cant even stop my eyes from crying :''(
I just miss him so badly :')
cuba you sebut nama MUHAMMAD SAW dengan hati,
and you'll find the effect, seluruh jiwa bergetar!betapa nama itu teramat hebat :')

random second post of the day

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum everyone :)

oh well, alhamdullilah, I feel great after taking a nap in the afternoon :)
cuma period pain still exist tough~
I cant even straighten my abdomen!urghh~
erm erm, our eco 211 lecturer was quite a nice guy :D
haihh, this will make me harder to concentrate in his class tough! #ehh
dahh la his voice was soo romantic that I cant even stop to stare at him to get what's the lesson he's trying to convey ;D
AIS 280 dengan semangatnya dah start belajar -.-"

and and, I na cakap,
I really hate those fella whose dont have any idea to start a conversation and they come out with her boyfie topics!
I muak!
dey, those are such cinta monyet and it's so sad to say this, but, you dont know what's the true love mean (owh, like I do pulak kan -.-") but, bare this in mind, if your love just making you worse, better to leave him. love should cherish and give inspiration to each other to suceed.bukan both makin alpa. to think of this, it reminds me of him :') hurmm, I'm not to jaja my story but, I do have one question that I eagerly wants to ask. what will you feel if you clash with him, and a few weeks later, you saw a picture of him with a girl, berpelukan?owh dude!I wont mind if we didnt get along, but please find somebody who deserve you more than I do! O Allah, I dont know if I can really let go. please protect him on behalf of me, cause I just can do nothing despite how much I still need him. still need him to be my source of inspiration to suceed. I jadi bersemangat na belajar bila i tahu I still have you, but it's just a long time ago :'( hurmmm~
dah, malas!its making me upset :S

erm erm, about dean's list lagi,
this is much tipuuu!aiman and farhan didnt get dean's ?
okay tipu!
is everybody lying or result I salah cetak ?
O Allah, jangan buat aku riak dengan apa yang aku dapat :') lindungi aku dari perasaan keji macam tu :') ameen~
and, to all fast-trackers-not-to-be, ada yang cakap, they work really hard to mantain dean's so that they can get the offer to fast track programme. dont be sad. we still have another mission to grab. bare this,ANC is waiting for you guys. Allah made this way cause He believes you can :) and, there must a reason behind all these :)
dulu I always questioning myself, I slalu dapat sipi2 dari apa yang I impikan. but then, I come to know, I do gain something though!so, stop judging what's Allah doing towards you. there must be a reason :) macam post i yang ini :)

*till then :)

not a good start actually

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum

alhamdullilah, I've started my first day of 4th semester today.
yes, basically first day my class starts
erk, sadly, our first class being cancel when we actually has come to that class!erkk~
nvm then :S it's our hobby to wake up early in the morning when even roosters didnt wake up!

erm erm, sbenanye kann,
I've come to my campus on saturday dengan semangatnya!
but, patheticly, entah macam mana, yesterday, my body feel a lil bit uneasy.
eh, this is not a ghost story tauu,
fever + diarrhoea + nausea + tonsil + headache + period pain!
owh well, this is not a good start of a new sem actually!hurmm~
dont know if I can really survive.
I didnt bring my sweater or even a sachet of cool fever!
and, there is no way others would bring a cool fever. semua jenis telan paracetamol je!
urgh~

ehh, I'm not the kind of person who afraid of taking drugs. cuma, I takk na biasakan diri telan ubat. nanti, sakit sikit telan ubat. towards the end, your body will be immune to that drugs. you have to consume more so that it will give some efffect your body.
so, I rather use cool fever though~
tapi, semalam I have to take acti-fast so that the fever will not get worse. I took a tablet of acti-fst since atikah(my new roomate) didnt have the origial paracetamol.yes, only one tablet,sebab ubat tu besar sangat!takut tercekik~eheh..

owh, about dean's list,
erk, only 3 girls from class B got dean's
there are ty and I of the girls from class C who got dean's (as far as I know)
only one word that cross to my mind when I know the fact is,
TIPUUUUU!
tak kann la sikit tu je?
or is it my result is the fake one?erk~
to think about it, I feel like, uitm is playing a tough battle tough~
most of all the students in part 1 got dean's and, the number decline when it comes to part 2. people who able to maintain dean's would be very happy. however, uitm will not be very satisfied of the news. they put a harder subject and a high level lecturer who will never guide you in personal but a truly lecture. towards the end, only a few will be survive in dean's list :S
I cuak~
it's easy to work on getting the first place rather than trying to maintain the victory, kann?
I cuak sangat, like seriously!
hurmm, O Allah, please ease everything :')

till then :)

okay tipu!

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum

we been cheated!
yeah!
or, could we just label it as wrongly interpret ?
urghh!
I called BPP personally to ask about the announcement, but then the news just turned me down!
fast track is really really really gone :'(
ahh, dah laa, maybe this is what Allah wants me to be.
4th sem!here I come -..-"

bip bip~
this cik ct is entering a new phase of her life. please give her way. bismillahirahmanirahim.
and a big step taken!

fast track is back?

bismilahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum

yeah!read the title AGAIN

FAST TRACK IS BACK?

like seriously?
owh, please!you're not kidding right?
okay, just now, I login my fb account and nik told me that she read the comments about the revocation of fast track programme. and, she do felt sad on behalf of the victims.
pastu I terfikir, why out of a sudden nik reminds me of this issue kann?
and, the nerve caught me to re-open the posted status by dato sahol, and read the lastest coment.
you know what, there were someone named musalmah laila commented,

Hore! Hore! Hore!
U all dah baca ke Pekeliling Akademik Bil. 24 Tahun 2012 bertarikh 21 Nov 2012 yang ditandatangani oleh TNC (Akademik & Antarabangsa), Prof. Dr. Azni Zain Ahmed berkaitan Penamatan Pengambilan Pelajar Melalui Penerapan Diploma Semester Ketiga ke Sarjana Muda UiTM.

Pekeliling tu berkuatkuasa kepada Pelajar Diploma Semester 3 (Disember 2012) dan BUKANNYA kepada kita semua Pelajar Semester 3 (Jun 2012). Ini bermakna kita akan terima surat tawaran tak lama lagi.

Alasan penamatan pengambilan pelajar pada para 5(a), cukup tidak konsisten. Mengapa TNC mengatakan semangat pelajar pudar bila berehat selama 5 bulan. Bukankah Pelajar Diploma Semester 6 juga alami perkara yang sama kerana terpaksa menunggu 5 bulan barulah mula belajar di peringkat Ijazah. Adakah semangat belajar mereka juga pudar?.

Saya juga terfikir betapa tidak efisiennya UiTM, Senat telah bersidang 13 September 2012 tetapi Pekeliling keluar 69 hari kemudian pada 21 Nov 2012. Itu pun setelah VC Dato’ Prof Ir. Sahol keluarkan statement di laman facebooknya pada 15 Nov 2012 dan asakan dari pelajar. Mengapa pekeliling ini tidak dikeluarkan awal lagi?. Adakah ini kebetulan atau suratan setelah result diploma keluar pada 9 Nov 2012.

and, she further add the link for her evidence of her tought,,

here it is,,

http://online.uitm.edu.my

 

try to click the link and go to penguguman column then click the announcement about fast track.

then, re-read statement number 9 again and again. and AGAIN

err, 1 question, is that mean our batch is still available?meaning, we're going to get the offer letter soon?

ahh!knowing this fact making me wide awake!I cant sleep that I'm eager to wait till 9am to directly call bahagian pengambilan pelajar to confirm the announcement !

 

ya Allah, if I'm given a chance to enroll the programme, I will definitely go for it. without a single doubt!insyaAllah. trust me :')

 

the preparation

bissmilahirahmanirahim and assallamualaikum everyone :)

alhamdullilah, finally, I've listed my stuff, what thing needs to buy and pack.
and, as what had been planned, I only wants to bring 1 luggage ;)
luckily my 'bibik nepal' helped me to pack. she offer me to carry my pale and pillow jugak on the registration day! what a lovely sister of mine :D
I'm going to be the most humble person ever in Jengka
nak jadi Pak Madit Musyawarah orang terlanjur kaya TAPI LOW PROFILE :D
heheh,,
yea. I do want to be like orang gelandangan gitu, I;m gonna use my old phone too. saja. I wanna feel the life of poor people studying in university!ahah :P
so, today, I'm going to go to AEON and buy some toiletries, but not food!heheh, i'm not going to bring along any food this sem :S gencatan makanan!eh~
cant wait to start my class :)

#ehh, smalam I notice my L letter on the keyboard has something wrong!it's like ketat sikit, and I need to re-press the letter times!kau na tido kedai ke malam nie huh?!haishh~

after all, I'm nothing

sad, pathetic, lame,
owh gosh,
I dont know if I can stand any longer watching you walk away :')
the feeling when I know that you already move on, but that dont happen to me :'(
yeah, she's wayyyyy brilliant, super hot and, most of all, she know how to tackle you :S
I'm trying to be strong, but, in the end, I just know that I'm not.
well,I work best in pretending.
sebenarnya kan, I dont know why, but, whenever I think about us, it's just making me cry. that's how painful I am still sitting behind you and hoping that everything wil work out easy for me. serious ! I dont know what type of relation are we going through right now!
bila I fikir maybe oneday I will be with someone, I still will return to you if you ask me to. bodohkan?
well, can we just get back together?urghh
I hate this feeling!though I still cant hate you :'(

reconcile

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum everyone :)

I cant wait for 1 december!

eheh, guess what, I'm getting my spirit back, my strength~

there's nothing I can do to persuade or make senate reconcile about the decision made.

so that's it~

I gain nothing even if I baulk not to go back to jengka kann?

infact, it will give a negative effect to my performance, my achievement.

so, to think back the pros and cons of the announcement, how it will affect my studies, I've come out with a conclusion, that, no matter how hard my journey is, it is mine. nobody will help me unless myself :)

but still, not much preparation is going to be done this sem.

I'll just bring things I need.

no stock of food. no extra cloth. no exrta hanger. no things I might need or things I want.

it will be just things I need.

 

and, most of all, no frequent going back to kl. I just wanna feel the feeling of studying abroad where you cannot frequently go back to malaysia even if you're somehow like feeling the homsickness~

well dude, you can still feel those even if you're studying in malaysia. it is just the matter of mind set :)

 

how pathetic I'm~

 

so now, I'm going to list out things I want to buy and what to pack since it will be just 1 luggage. well, overseas student are only allowed to bring 1 luggage due to the luggage limitation right?you exceed it, you pay it. so cik ct, 1 luggage only. most important stuff will do ;)

 

well, 4th sem is going to be a tough battle too. we had come out with an agreement or it can be called as bet. that is to get a verrrrryyyy excellent result. mr library, please welcome us as your loyal customer ;) everyday! insyaAllah~

till then~

miracle do happens

#still hoping for a miracle to come and fix everything as what it meant to be :') FT

poor me

bissmilahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)

yeah, biggest loser on the line!
great cik ct, 2 more weeks to go back to jengka and you haven't done any preparation :O
O Allah, where does my spirit goes ?
this is kinda hard for me :S
4th sem, you're not that tough right? please be nice to me :)
I'm not doing any preparation to meet you, but, please help me to excel. I dont know if I can really survive in this up coming semester. I just dont know :'(

things like this make me questioning myself. is this the way Allah want me to forget you? Allah wants me to finish my diploma and stop thinking of pursuing degree in accountancy. and, most of all, stop chasing him. bye bye awak :') do well in aussie. my journey is just getting harder day by day. is this the sign that we should stop here ? there is no way we can meet someday. I hope you can do your best although deep in my heart still hoping that we can still be together :')

#though I know I can never let go :( poor me~

there must be a reason :/

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)

ahh, post tadi xde semilah dulu pown -_-
okay, as what abah done to me, trying to make me see the bright side of finishing diploma,
first, I calculate the time consume to finish diploma and continue degree in acc

pakai pen merah kau!
ahh, msty x faham cacing kerawit ape yg ditulis kan?lemme explain :)

first of all, this information is only valid for accounting student of uitm, intake may2011.

okay, this pathway is when you finish your diploma, and this side, when you do fast track

 

               FINISH DIPLOMA                                                                        FAST TRACK

              sem 1 : may2011 - oct2011                                                    sem 1 : may2011 - oct2011

              sem 2 : dec2011 - apr2012                                                     sem 2 : dec2011 - apr2012

              sem 3 : june2012 - oct2012                                                    sem 3 : june2012 - oct2012

              sem 4 : dec2012 - apr2013                                        (degree)sem 2 : mac2013 - july2013

              sem 5 : june2013 - oct2013                                                    sem 3 : sept2013 - jan2014

              sem 6 : dec 2012 - apr 2014                                                   sem 4 : mac2014 - july2014

(degree) sem 4 : sept 2014 - jan2015                                                   sem 5 : sept2014 - jan 2015

              sem 5 : mac2015 - july2015                                                  sem 6 : mac2015 - july2015

              sem 6 : sept2015 - jan2016                                                    sem 7 : sept2015 - jan2016

              sem 7 : mac2016 - july2016                                                   sem 8 : mac2016 - july2016

              sem 8 : sept2016 - jan2017                                                   dahh grad !

 

and, this mean, jimat 5 months! dey, 5 months tu kalau kawin da 4 months pregnant tahu!urghh~

but, whatever it is, still, I cant change the fact, so, this is what I do, figure out what are the bright side of finishing diploma :S

 *owh, nie lagi la x faham kann~ okay, allow me :)

 

first, I wrote,
diploma - 2 1/2 years degree in accountancy - most of student said, degree is quite harder than diploma. so, you'll have only 5 semesters to maintain dekan (kalau dekan la kann)

but then,

I started to think of fast track!, I wrote,
FT - dah buat muet, which is valid only for 5 years!

then, went back to diploma column, I wrote,

ANC for diploma !!

next, start to think about FT balek, I wrote

I will do my very best in degree because I dont have diploma cert. chance to get ANC is still bright too !

then, continue to still write on FT column,

x paya bayar ptptn, menyesal amek sebab ingat diploma first class yg dye revert to scholarship -.- rupanya degree first class

still stuck in FT column, I wrote,
I da prove degree wont be that hard since sem nie I dpt dekan.

lagi in FT column,

still degree in accountancy as what mak want me to be

 

but then, I realize, eh, kau pada asalnya na cuba think positive on finishing diploma kann, asal keep on writing about FT nie? -_____-

so, back to diploma column,

dinner dekan lagi !!

masok part 4, dpt merasa sem yang xde koko, yeay!

part 5 akan handle camp :) buat baju corporate, bley tolong anas :)

 

see????how cliche the point are!durhh, dinner dekan la, xde koko la, handle camp la. none of it pasal academic purpose!grrrr~

 

Ya Allah, please open their heart to revise this issue since we faced alot of problems consequently :'(

no more fast-track :'(

really frustrated!
how could uitm do this to me?!
I had planned everything to get it kowt!
infact, I've done many things to get myself clear about that program. and out of a sudden, dato sahol posted that statement, stating that, no more program penerapan afterthis starting on this sem. WITHOUT PRIOR NOTICE~ tup tup, je tahu!

atleast they should have extended that programme up to this semester since many of us had applied for that programme!

this is sooo unfair!

senate, please do something!

you've ruin my parents hope kowt!
yes, abah looks really dissapointed after I told him about this matter. mak just gave me some sort of kata2 semangat, there must be a reason senate do that, and Allah believe you can do better in diploma, this is your way.
'aaa, I know mak, tapi, I've work harder this sem to be qualified kowt!

they shouldnt open the online registration from the beginning. owh yeah, I chat with someone I knew from fb. he said, before our registration, this issue is still on discussion, whether to keep on offering fast track to diploma's student or not. but then, they came out into a drastic conclusion, no more fast-track for this semester onwards!takk ke kejam namanya tu? it's fine if they were still in discussion pun during our registration, but atleast, they should have allowed us yang dah TERlanjur apply this sem to still get the chance to pursue fast-track!

owh yeah, we had paid rm10 to buy the pin number jugak!
well, rm10 SAHAJA. but hey! I'm not the only one who applied fast track kowt!beribu~ just bring your sophiscated calculator and multiply the number of student who applied with rm10. tak ke beratus ribu uitm makan duit tu?just my opinion :)

then, I've read some of NR student who had terminated the agreement with penyewa rumah because they believe they can get the offer letter to fast track kowt~akibat dari dengar guruh di langit, air setempayan di curah kan. but atleast they put high hope gilaa kowt kat fast track!

this one is more pathetic, one of this student tell his mother about permansuhan program nie, and, his mom cried!his mom had put so much effort and believes his son can do well to be qualified for fast track programme, but in the end?uitm just ruin not only his hope, but his mom!sangat kejam~

and, as for me, I done a lot in this matter!

• I went to see my PA, madam saflina, ask her opinion about this programme. made appoinment. climbing stairs to reach her room.
• buat muka tak malu add strangers on facebook because I wanted to ask their opinion as one of student who took fast track before, what's the pros and cons. did they manage to maintain the cgpa. how about the subject, the lectures, the environment in new campus, how they adapt with it, how to apply fast track, about muet, in fact semua lahh!

I've done a lot of research kowtt!

• infact,I took muet this sem because of fast track, I dont want muet to burden me when I'm in my first year degree. I want to focus 100% on subjects to prove to everybody that taking fast track is not that harder seperti yang dimomokkan~

dah laa muet is only valid for 5 years kowt!tak kan na buat muet lagi in future ? no use laa buat awal2!durhh~

• and and, most of all, I dissapoint my parent :'(

mak, as usual wont talk much. tapi abah?keep on babbling each day asking when uitm will send the offer letter to fast track. but in the end?and now, abah keep on trying to persuade me to see the bright side of finishing diploma.tapi, deep in my heart says, I know abah kecewa sebab dia yang really2 want me to take diploma dlu instead of choosing KMPP :( abah told me, "alah, just finish your diploma, maintain the pointer till the 6th sem,cuba cari scholarship lepas tu, buat degree kat australia mcm bebudak tu huh" okay, tyme nie, tengah menghadap buletin utama, berita pasal anugerah merdeka for student in aussie~ arghhh! cant you see how ambitious my parent is? uitm, please think twice la kowt before make a conclusion. dah la post kat fb, so unprofessional. are you expecting all uitm student will have fb account?urghhh~

really sorry :S

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum everyone :)

erm erm, I received alot of messages from friends asking about MUET.
and, seriously,I didnt mean to hide the information regarding MUET. it's just I dont have much time to even think whether to take it this sem or in future. I know about it by chance. I bump into someone in the library and she told me about muet. sadly, that particular day is the last day to register muet. I dont have much time to spread the information since I dont even have time to think for myself. after knowing the fact, I straightly go to atm machine to buy the pin number. yes, I went to atm machine instead of bsn counter because I dont have enough time to go out~ cant you see how desperate I'm during that day ? so, please dont simply make assumption yang ain tu kedekut info la, ape laa~
we certainly not sure whether we can still be able to register during that day.someone called MPM and they said, that day is only opened for any candidate that wants to baiki result. so, new candidates like us are not allowed to make registration. yet, alhamdullilah, after struggling through hardship, calling MPM, checking the slip every day and night, I manage to print the slip. finally~ luckily we didnt tell anybody to register muet together-gether. kalau x, together-gether la kita face the problem consequently. lets imagine,what if I tell you all about muet, we register together, but, in the end, mpm said our registration is not valid. it has past the deadline. you'll loss rm100 and blame me even worse. plus, ain tahu tarikh tu betul2 masa last date untuk daftar dude!yes, I did ask one of our classmate if she wants to register muet together, but in return, I been bombarded 1001 questionssssss. dude, dont expect me to ask each one of you guys whether to take it this sem or not. bagi tahu dekat sorang pown dah 1001 soalan dia tanya balek, inikan pula na beri tahu dekat sumorang, pada hari last online registration. then, I wont have enough time to register for myself sebab spent too much time to act like kaunter pertanyaan~ please understand me :') faham kann ?

tapi sebagai balasan sebab tak spread information kat korunk and buat muet x bagi tahu korunk, I'm ready to guide korunk tuk buat muet. how to register, what's the preparation, how the question is gonna be. semua lahh. sila tanya, jangan segan~

ain minx maaf sangat sangat sangat sangat sangat :') especially zaty, fatin and bella :/

birthday surprise

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)

next week will be syada's birthday,
and, I was planning to make surprise for her,
erm, actually, last week I'm totally craving for mcD apple pie!
I never bake apple pie before, so, I googled some recipe of it. I love the fabulous taste of melted apple in apple pie!

see? yummy isnt it?!

so, lets bake some then :D
erm,I have a few dish to bake on that day, we'll see how many type of food I can make during that day,

hawaiian pizza
apple pie
moist chocolate cake
caramel

actually, I was planning to bake blueberry cheese cake, but then, we already have pizza riched with cheese, so, x jadi~
and, ingat na buat egg tart and fruit tart, but then, apple pie can be considered as dessert too. and it will be too much to bake egg tart when you already have caramel kann?

*owh banyak sangat na buat cik ct nie, sempat ke x entah~

solat istikharah

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)

I still trapped in dilemma :S
abah keep on asking about fast track, mak jugak.
just now, I ask kak rahmah about solat istikharah, need to perform isthikarah so that all my decision will come with the bless from Allah :')

so, x baik kedekut ilmu kann?
here is the kayfiyat,
niat isthikarah, 2 rakaat,
in first rakaat, recite surah al-kafirun
while in second rakaat, surah al-ikhlas

perform the prayer for 3 days in a row,
insyaAllah, you'll get the sign~
most of all, you  must believe in what you do. put all trust in Allah :)

this feeling is killing me!

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum

today is friday,9th nov, which mean, muet test is on tommorrow!
seriously, I dont do any preparation and I feel bad!
yesterday eyan texted me asking how writing paper is going to be.
pandai cakap tp diri sendiri x revise sepatah hape pown lagi!haihh,,
and, I stayed up last night too :)
waiting for last semester's result to come out.
one word,
ALLHAMDULLILAH, THANK YOU ALLAH! I love YOU! *okay exceeding 1 word~
a lil bit frustrated because my account paper is -___________- it is shameless to say that I'm accounting student for getting fail in account paper *well,fail as in my standard level~
I put all my effort for that paper but in the end??haihh, I think I've done my very best dah~
well, dont ever over confident cik ct! hurmm~
higher carry marks wont guarantee you to excell in final paper, trust me -..-
I plan not to do well in every quizes next sem, so that I will get lower carry marks but excell in finals ! owh, berangan~

erm erm, BEL paper was fine, fine as urghh! why you hate me that much miss?!syukur for not seeing you next sem itu je la mampu kata~
I dont know what will happen to me if thousand of lectures are born with that attitude. feels like went to kindergaten ! huh~

and the rest was great :))))))))))
cant believe I manage to encounter with all the problems last sem.it dont affect my studies though~
erm and, how about now?
fast-track?

 

arghh!I hate the feeling when it comes to make a decision.

I still have a chance to get ANC if I stay in diploma..

but do I able to maintain the pointers untill the 6th sem?

tapi, I still can work hard in degree to get DL though..

well, last sem was a tough battle but I manage to bare with it.I was thinking degree's will be quite similar as tough as last sem. so I think I can go with it.

but then,degree is gonna be degree in accountancy, which mean, account. yes, ACCOUNT.

yet, I'm not good at it :( mampukah aku?that's the question.

but, what choice do I have in the end?still degree in accountancy though!

I got B for past 2 sem,is that the sign that I'm not born to be an accountant?well you, please answer me why am I keep on this track when I'm no longer have you?!urghh, I hate that feeling!

yes, I took accounting because of you!I wanna be with you :'(

ya Allah, please guide me to the right path :') hurmm~

#will I take the one less travelled by OR just go with the flow?

I hate that I love you

love doesnt ask why, it has no reason for me to love you.
I tried, infact, I keep trying, trying to ask myself, why, why I cant move on.
but, I ended up crying. I hate that I love you!
I wish I can go back to the very first time I saw you,
keep you in my arm and never let go.
I hate that I love you.
I hate that I knew you.
I hate that I let you into my heart.
I hate that I cannot forget you.
I hate that I turned into a stupidos girl ever for not moving on.
I hate that my heart beats faster whenever I saw your pictures.
I hate you !

currently searching

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum

well, I'm currently searching for a hobby,
I mean like, dude,it's freaking boring I went through everyday! if only I have interesting things to do :(
I wish I can fly to any where, making new friends, and have a very nice starts to a new life.
I just dont know why, I feel like I start to move apart from islam. making sin is normal, infact I go out untuk angkit kain this evening without a scarf, I accompany my mum to pick sara from school with tshirst lengan pendek,no handsock~
last night ziha text me,
tanda2 org y disesatkn& dihinakn Allah:
1.mrasa berat dlm mgrjakn printahNYA wlpn sudah brusaha mgrjaknnya
2.mudah trgoda u langgr laranganNYA wlpn sdh brusahamghindrknnya
3.mrasa sdh xprlu prtlgan Allah shga ia tdk prnah brdoa
erk~
why she forward that kind of message to me?all of a sudden?
peringatan Allah barangkali.
ya Allah, am I moving too far from You that You have to send that massage to remind me?
subhanaAllah, astaghfirullahalazim~
I'm searching for my soul. need to rebuild the strength and be closed to Allah !
shame on me for being islam ktp~ hurmmm
ya Allah, please forgive your weak shameless servant though :'(

the memory of 'hell'

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum everyone :)

I was looking at some photos when I was in plkn,
I mean, I bought the cd picturing all activities during the camp,
the charlie flag, aktiviti air, redah halangan, masuk 'hutan', orang asli, and everything!
I just miss the BAD times like, freaking miss all of them!
yeah, whatever it is, I still cant except the fate that I was selected to become one of the trainee !
ahah! I can still remember when I was crying like hell knowing the fact that I must go for the training. the days I went through after knowing the fact was bleak and pathetic!I cried in every single sujud hoping abah could do something like bayar rasuah to orang plkn to erase my name! dirty mind~

tapi, sekarang, I started to miss all the good times together :'( yes, cant belive I just wrote GOOD TIMES
erm, first thing first, I love the pk class the most, cikgu amin made it ! it wasnt a boring class dude.
plus, with my awesome groupmate!
shahril, zati, unes, sook wan, teuh, anas, qi cong,  amir, kavi! the best activity that I can still remember was, scene 1, we talk to our partner, and she show the best interest,2nd scene, she ignore us, 3rd scene, she gone mad toward us( I cant remember the name of the game~) most importantly, it was funny though! feels like na lempang2 sook wan sebab dia boleh cakap dengan unes sedangkan I'm talking to her at the moment! ahah~

this is an awesome and amazing classmate!

 

next is about kayak!it was my very first time tauuu! I became the representator for charlie in double kayak game and my partner is Miya. a chinese girl that superb in kayaking! and I was a lame girl that dont know anything about kayak tapi ada hati na masuk  bertanding -____-

 

the girl in blue scarf is me, ready to get the pendayung from dayah and liyana, yeah, my group mendahului when dayah n yana berkayak, sadly, delta manage to compete us when me and miya berkayak, semua orang cakap, we're like buat bentuk S yang amat banyak kat tengah2 tasik! shame on us~

tapi!

that happy face is enough to show our success kowt? yeah!we won the race! I just cant think of anything!it happen just too fast, just in a blink of eye! tapi, miya sit on the front, gamba nie during first round, but, I dont find any picture of it, sadly. gamba nie pown boleh la kann? I can still remember the paddle 'knock' miya's head while kayaking!nak cepat okay~ once again, please forgive me Miya :P

lastly, Charlie won ALL category ! hooorayyyyy :D

 

I  can still remember the first day trainers introduce aktiviti air to us, and I cannot join the activity because I pura-pura sakit sebab takk na pergi kawad! I went to medic and pretend to be sick so that I can get excuse from kawad! eheh, serve me right, because gozila doesnt allow those 'actors' to join aktiviti air on the next day. luckily there is someone who was so great sebab goda Mr TKL so that he give a permission to disobey the instruction given by the gozila!ahah, Mr TKL cair lettew kena goda :D eh~

 

then, kawad :) again Charlie won for the best commander category. Dayah have a very good voice tauu!

so, dua dari depan is me :) watching kawad from the subway :) ahah great!

 

 

 

next unforgetable experiance was flying-fox, but I dont feel the excited feeling though. because it wasnt my first time. memoir of the first time lagi priceless kowt <3 owh, I wish I can go back to that precious moment when we used to be together :'( hurmm~ okay lari topic!

 

then, we have latihan menembak! and that was my first time!cuak la jugak kann, what if I tersalah tembak, mati anak orang o.O whatever it is, that was a great opportunity to handle a gun, M16 specifically :D

 

 

next is, farewell party :( :D (I just dont know what will be the perfect smiley to use, happy to completely free from hell but in the same time, I'm gonna miss those moment :') so, I took a chance to participate in one persembahan, menari lagu cina apetah

before the event :)

 

with my dancing partner. eh~

 

truly 1 Malaysia :D

from left: Teuh, Kavi and ME :)
I know them when we're in the same group in PK4. I hope that our friendship will last forever :)

 

I just dont know why I miss those moment in plkn :') it was so funny to reminisce the moment when I was first eager not to go there, menangis melalak like crazy, even when my parents sent me to bangunan zetro where they are going to take me to perak! cry in the middle of the crowd, public lah semua, I just dont care, hoping that with all the tears abah will have some mercy not to let me go, kononnya lah kan, but instead no means no!I have to go jugak~ abah promise me to visit me everyweeked, tapi tak cacat pulak anak aku nie kena kerja dengan trainers plkn yang menangis tak na pergi sangat dulu!drama lebih~ well, best actress :D

 

I can still remember the moment I cried during their first visit when they left me. siap hantar sampai depan pagar lagi tauu!kononnya boleh la lepas pagar and buat2 ternaik kereta pulak, ter balik rumah pulak, ter tak balek semula kem pulak. hahah! but, they can see the delighted face of me on their second visit, abah siap cakap,"lepas nie tak yah melawat kaklong dah, mcm dah bahagia je dok penjara nie" okay fine~

 

I become a wild girl in the camp. yes, for me, it can be labelled as wild because I never do any wild thiggy before, like, that thing. bergayut dengan stranger sampai hampir2 kena marah dengan gozila sebab x tidur2 lagi :O luckily I have a perfect alasan to deny what she said,I said, it was abah's calling asking what will be the time for visiting me on the next day. memang gila!what if gozila take my phone and check it was 'shahril' instead of abah kan. and shahril was crazy too!he continued to call me after we end our conversation because he got caught by trainer for the same offense-bergayut. and, usually it is hard to tell a lie for guys,so, dia kena jalan itik around his dorm as denda~kesian :P ahah..and, alot more crazy things I did. the one that I really regret is, not joining liyana, shira, and the rest berendam dalam kolah!because I was too afraid that the trainers will suddenly appear in the toilet. kan dah kantoi nanty, then, siksaan yang amat pedih by gozila pulak menjelma kan~ it was a great experiance to be a wild girl actually :D because I really want to prove to my parent that I'm gonna change to a bad person after joining plkn, I do any bad things so I can be one. jiwa memberontak la kononnya~ last bad thing that I did was letting my dormate to sign on my only baju kelas that I'm gonna wear for the last day. totally risking myself because gozila had warned us to wear a nice and neat baju kelas to go back to hometown. bukan the one that been signed ke ape. if only they check my baju kelas on my last day kan, definitely I'm died!thanks to cold rainy day that hide the major reason of wearing sweater since I wear the baju kelas that had been signed by them inside :D infact, I'm the only trainee who dare to disobey gozila :P well, it is the last day dude!eheh..

 

*owh yeah, gozila is one of the trainer. sandra give that name so that we can gossip about her infact, infront herself!ahahh! gila jahat~

 

 

 

lastly, enjoy the pictures :)

 

picturing~

 

our Charlie flag! pelanduk perkasa :D there was a time when we lost our flag and we need to wear baju plkn in such a disaster way!track-suit+boot+baju loreng+cap+kain batik, singing on the stage begging the trainers to give our flag back..siap menangis, merayu!so dramatic~

 



 charlie2 girls

 leisure in padang kawad

rentas halangan where everyone got dirty except for athirah. shame on me sebab jatuh dalam kolam tarzan and x dapat keluar

 

 I call it tarzan task, picturing the trainer that help me out, luckily have this trainer to help me out when I was about to cry like kiddo! masa dia hulur tangan to help me, I was like "eh boleh ke bagi tangan nie dia pegang?"okay, sempat lagi fikir halal haram. then syaiton whispered, "you're in desperate situation, x dosa pown!" so I let him take my hand then, feels like a gentlemen is rescuing his princess!ahaks, perasan~
 

 kawad competition
 

picking kerongsong bullet after shooting, rugi x curi 1 buat kenang2an eventhough it is illegal~

 

and YES, I admit that penghulu :')

if only

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum

just watched IF ONLY on youtube,
owh please, I just bump to it while searching for english old songs
eager to watch more because it's british movie,
suka ajuk balek omputih tu cakap dalam slang dia :D
that's the way I improve my speaking skills though
what to mory here is,
I have soft-hearted that tend to cry!urghh~
I hate that feeling!

lets recap a bit~
the guy had sort of dejavu (please google what is that thing,am not going to explain it here)
but things happen in other way round, he got killed instead of his girlfriend.
nevertheless, he made it ;) he try his best to protect his girlfriend and spend the whole day with her, because he knew that they only have less time together. the bracelet, eye on malaysia-ala2, the cab, graduation day, he made it so sweet! ahh, you got to watch it!
couple of movies are waiting, burn the midnight oil la gamaknya :D

clean house in my own verse ;)

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)

today is 2nd nov 2012
bored! nothing to do here :(
finished rearrange all the massive cloths in the closet, manage to saperate the un-use cloths to be donated. shrinkin' cloth~ dont want to even look at them again, feel hard to let go all the nice dress and baju kurung, but have to, almari dah takk muat~
same goes to the old books, I was thinking to sell those books, but abah said, berapa sen sangat dapat nanti. so, it is better to do some charity by giving it to any library. perhaps useful~ insyaAllah

dont know what else to clean up after this. bosan ya amat!

speaking bajet

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum:)

still counting days,many things are going to happen next week,
the rumours said, upsr result will be coming up on 7th, my third sem result on 9th which will be the same date to go back to jengka for MUET, do pray for me :') thanx in advanced :) but the event that will be definitely occur is SPM examination for syada~do pray for my sistah.
okay, enough for the intro part~

actually, I want to wtite about something that a typical minded people used to think.
cakap bahasa inggeris kata bajet~
owh yeah, I;ve posted this issue in the past, but still, there are certain people out there who still do not get the message that I'm trying to convey.
erm erm, yes, you may spot the thousand grammar mistakes, spelling errors, and not-so-bombastic-word being use here, well, I'm still learning dude~
try to correct them if they mis-use the word or, gramatically error,it wont reduce your knowledge. dont simply condemn them for their mistake. so-typical-malay sorry to say. hey!I'm purely malay, so I know how malay live their life. gossiping, spread rumours, all the joyah thiggy, mesyuarat tingkap~
such not a suitable environment to live actually,
haihh, I miss the condusif environment to learn when everybody is helping each other, correct their mistake, succeed together~
well, time past, things change~

when I first know you, I thought, you're a good guy whose willing to lay your hands for help. tapi tak! omai~ eh, I'm not the one whose being condemn pown, cuma terkilan dengan sikap dia.
he's such a good guy, given by Allah an excellent brain to think and help others, but in reality?hurmm~ typical malay lagii, they easily forget from what they come. ingat dari baby dulu lahir2 kau terus pandai ke ?

meat and adha

bismillahirahmanirahimm and assalamualaikum :)

selamat hari raya aidil-adha :)
I can see there are couples of plastic bag containing fresh-meat in the refrigerator
and, I somehow trying to google some recipe on meat~
still have macaroni in the cabinet, but no cheese left in the fridge, so, no baked macaroni cheese, fried macaroni will do, add some chop-meat perhaps :) spaghetti meatball pown boleh since there is a lil bit spaghetti left in the cabinet too.
owh!it has been too long since I baked blueberry cheese cake. teringin la pulak~
got to go to giant and buy the ingredient :D

owh yeah, I love to cook food that I like to eat! because I find it expensive to buy it at restaurant, yet, it wont cost you much for the ingredient! in fact you will get triple of the same dish with same price when you cook it by yourself ;P cooking is awesome!

one more thing, erm, we went back to hometown during first and second raya. and I got to learn the salasilah keluarga la pulak kan~ there are alot that I cant even remember what's their connection between another -______-" uwan alang and uwan ateh sisters of my grandpa. tok anjang and tok acu brothers of my grandma. uwan kat sawah and, atok haris has conection with grandma, sedara dua tiga pupu entah la~ uwan ngah sape pulak? but still, the best thing to go back to kuala pilah is, I can somehow say the whole villagers has connection with us, sedara jauh, dekat..that;s just my mum's side~ abah's from sri menanti, but the only relatives I can recognise is, cik jamaluddin and cik apetah nama dia~ (owh yeah, I dont know what are their connection with me, but whenever we come back to sri menanti, abah will visit them. and, I dont call them cik la kan, atok will be better, but since I dont really close to abah's family,so I would rather sit back and shut up. jadi budak baik. the situation are differ when we're at rumah uwan alang. feel free to even cook at their kitchen! but still, kampung abah has it own specialty, ada pokok manggis and TAPAI!hahah, I love tapai so much! heheh,,sodap ;)

till then~

MUET speaking test

assalamualaikum and bismillahirahmanirahimm

hey guys, I would like to share some experiance taking malaysian university english test, MUET for short.
I believe some of people out there are still searching for the information regarding the test, how it gonna be, what to do, is there any preparation before entering the examination room.
so, here we go.

first thing first, you gotto check the schedule, when is the important date that you need to take note, like, when to register, when to buy the pin number and so on.
so, first thing first, you have to buy the pin number at any BSN counter or straightly go to any BSN atm to buy the pin number, this is what I done. owh, btw, that will cost you rm100 + rm 1 for service charge.
then, log on to majlis peperiksaan malaysia(MPM) to register. but, please confirm the date first, or else, you might register in wrong session. you can choose the venue or test center, some say better to choose somewhere pedalaman, in hope, your groupmate will somehow like, not fluently speaking. so, the choice is in your hand. I choose UiTM jengka, since that wont cause any trouble if the date for speaking clash with my final exam's date. owh, yeah, you cant choose the date for speaking, but still, you can ask to change the date with appropriate reasons.

as far as I know, there will be 2 session for each day. 7.30am and 11am. please come early so that you cn calm yourself, meeting your groupmate, say hi and all that.so, mine was 2nd session which is at 11am. they will gather all candidates in a room, so-called-bilik kuarantin at 11am. you have to sign 3copies of slip as a prove of attandence. upper 4 names will be in one group, then, followed by next 4 names. if one of the member didnt show up during the day, then, your group will be in 3 persons. like my group~ then, the examiner will tell you about the rules and regulations, take all your gadgets~ phones, tab, notes, mp4, camera and, finally, open the question booklet. the question for speaking test will be the same for every group in one session. but, still, no soalan bocor since all your devices to connect with the previous group have been taken by the invilligator. it only being return to you after you have finished the test :)

then, they will call up the group to the next room, where you gonna sit for the test, the arrangement will be this way,,

owh, yeah, no free sitting! listen to the examiner where is your place. then, read the question paper. depan belakang okay! task A is on the front page, while task B will be at the back.
the examiner is not going to be too cruel, so, you can ask any question that you dont understand. tapi biasalah, melayu kan pemalu, afraid of being labeled as noob by asking silly question perhaps. then, you will be given 2 minutes to prepare your point, eh, elaboration to your point since the point have been given. make it in point form, to avoid from reading the text while speaking. ( it wont call speaking test if you read the text right?reading test ke hape?) then, the bell ring, candidate A will starts first, after 2 minutes, followed by candidate B and so on. you can stop early(not completing the 2 minutes given) but, you cannot exceed the time given. then, you will be given another two minutes to prepare for the discussion part. once the bell ring, you may start the discussion. anyone can start first :) AVOID from conquer the discussion. give others chance to speak too, it wont give you extra mark pun kalau mendominasi :) and, from my experiance, no need to use all the 'skema' word, like, 'I can see your point, but.." "I'm sorry to interrupt, but.." erk~sangat x natural, that's obviously will not happen while you discuss with someone in real life right? but still you can use that words if you're lack of ideas to speak, and wanna waste some times saying those weirdo word~heheh,,
the discussion part will end in 10 minutes. then, you may get lost from the freakin room ! done with 1 task :) then, wait for the written test pulakk :)

bless~

assalamualaikum and bimillahirahmanirahim :)

nothing as important as bless from your parent, especially your mother :'(
okay, the truth is, I planned to go to celcom center today to terminate my broadband line, since I'm not going to use my broadband during semester break. rugi lahh bayar tapi tak digunakan kann?
urgh~ but, I cancelled the plan and just go to klcc for a walk, window-shopping~
sara and I walked at every floor and, stop by at secret recipe's  for brunch, mcvalue lunch, kfc for hi-tea and, lastly, big apples for 2nd round hi-tea. yes!memang hari untuk makan sahaja di klcc.
but then, while we were in cold storage, I saw a job vacancy for staff, cashier and what more, i dont remember~ and, I was attracted to cashier actually, I went through a walk-in interview, finally manage to get the job, but she want me to start working by tommorrow, raya haji too. working hour starts on 9, mean, I dont have much time to sembahyang raya. sangat x mengikut tradisi. mean, balaa akan datang, owh, yea, I hate changes! feels confort to live in the usual way, so, not going to sembahyang raya is tidak mengikut kebiasaan. I hate that, I hate that~ still in doubtful whether to go or not. made suprise by telling mak I got a job, starting tommorrow at 9. mak speechless, kata tak na keja, how about driving class? mengada! abah came back from work, mak tells abah, abah cakap "kenapa tiba-tiba ni kaklong? kata hari tu tak na keja. kan abah dah suruh duduk rumah je, ajar adik-adik kau tu, maths BI semua tu. sebulan je cuti, 9hb nanti na mintak cuti pulak lagi kalau keja. kelam kabut la jadinya, lain la kalau cuti lama, ni awal december dah masok blaja balek"
okay, from my point of view, abah dont want me to work because he want me to focus on study. teach my siblings too. so that all his daughters will succeed together :') and let the burden on his shoulder though. okay abah, wont disappoint you. just now, I talk to my mom, and she said "suka hati lah kaklong, kau dah besar, pandai buat keputusan sendiri" and, I cant bare to keep the tears staystill. sayu sangat hati. mak, I wont make any decision on my own, because I need your opinion, your bless,,mak always right! I was wrong, I always wrong! I only have faith in myself when mak trust on me. I just can do nothing without asking mak on what's good and what;s bad. even for a shirt! and, somehow, I;m willing to lose everything but not my parent! ya Allah, kau panjangkanlah umur mak abah sampai bila-bila. because I just cant live without them :'(