never a regret

bismilahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :')

I never had a friend who always remind me of Allah :')
ya Allah, please protect them, help them in everything they do :')
knowing them is the best part of my life here :')
I just dont know if I can stand this strong next sem :|
Im gonna miss them badly,,
ya Allah, if only i have a chance to meet them early,,
if only I had a chance to have them longer than this :|
it would be much appreciated :')

first ever senior that i knew in uitm is,
kak nina,
she never allow us to call her akak,
yeah, it's bit annoying at first, dah tua tu x na di panggil akak pulak,
tapi, as the friendship grew stronger,
I can accept the fact that, lahh, tua bbrp bulan je pun, no wonder la she dont want us to call her kakak :P
but, sometimes, I ter panggil dia kakak jugak,
as sense of respect :')
she's awesome!
she would always help me regarding uitm system..
seriously, even I'm asking about silly question!
she would always have the answer,she never fail to reply any of my message :')
she's the one whi introduce eqps to me, how to renew borrowed books from library, PEERS, be my information counter in every semester..seriously, I know nothing about those system if she isnt there to help :')
i can still remember when i ask her, how excel lab test is gonna be, then, she replied,
"nanty dia bg kte soklan, pstu kte jwb laa"
lawakk kann?
then i replied,
"jwpn tu siesly lawakk -.-" mmg la nnty dye bg kte soklan, pstu kte jwb, x perna pulak dye bg jwpn, kte tnye soklan -.-" "
ya Allah, please ease her way :') I'm surely gonna miss her next sem :'(

then, Allah made me to meet this one akak,
kak rahmah :)
ilaa introduce her to me,
we went for usrah,
masa first time jumpa tu, I ask her aloottt of question regarding Islam, yes, like im new sister in islam pulak -.-" tapii, what impres me is, she would always have the answer to get me back to islam..
she made me clear about islam, well, I found the beauty of Islam after meeting her. islam has the answer on every of my silly stupidos questionss :')
the way she talk is just too nice that i melted :*
I would always make myself free whenever she invite me to meet up :')
sebab, she's kinda busy,,so, any of her free time is precious for me.
I have to make myself free even if im busy..
well,she's part6 from science programme..
ive seen how busy science's student are,
they got atleast 9 paper every sem, and, their daily routine is doing lab report that would never finished until they grad :| glad that ive left the science world :)

thenn,
I met kak ayu :')
akak nie lagi buat my heart melt!
the way she talks is just tooo sweettttt!
mula2 tu I was like malas na berkenalan dengan akak baru,
enough of having kak rahmah seorang, I dont need any elses,,
tapi, as time flies, i opened my heart for her, mana tahu, she is as great as kak rahmah,
yess, indeed :')
the way she talks is just too soft and nice..
eventhough we're meeting only a couple of times, tapi, I never regret any of the meetings
she tought me the value of life :') never underestimes people :')
i can still remember the night before muet, I met her. for the first time.officially :')
I was too stress of all the problems,and, what a relief feeling after meeting her :*
we talked about many things :')
precious~

andd,lastly, the most important person that i would never ever regret of knowing her is,
EZAA :')
i've never got a friend who as concern as you!
ahh kau ezaa!dont be that nice to me lahh!
it made me crying even worst!
i just cant forget how we used to spend time together back in mrsm langkawee :')
i can still remember,u helped me searching for my slipper, while i just sit there and cry like a lil kid losing her mom at the mall :'D
ingat lagi, when i was too lazy to climb the stairs at night that i spent the whole night at your room..
and you would always welcomed me :')
i can still remember, you saw a mole on my tapak kaki,and what a suprise that you got it one too..cuma, i kat tapak kaki kanan, you kat tapak kaki kiri, at the same spot! well, i guess, that made us complete :P hahah, gayy -.-"
eh, whenever i stare at my tapak kaki, seeing the tahi lalat, it would automatically remind me of you :)
hahah!pandang tapak kaki teringat ezaa -,-"
ingat lagi when we used to go to dewan selera late whenever they are serving nasi lemak..sebab hoping that we can get extra nasi lemak!hahah,,ahh yes!you dont eat mee goreng!pernah muntah beriya sebab i paksa u try to eat mee -.-" still rasa bersalah nie -____-"
ahhh ! i miss you lahh !hurmm~

ya Allah, please protect them from any harm..make ease of their way.. may our friendship till jannah :')
#ehh, konon tak na online dahh, nak final konon, tapi, keep updating entry jugak~well, gen y can hardly apart from internet -.-" cant deny it~

final battle

bismilahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :')

i have nothing to update,
final is just around the corner,
and, I haven't start studying. yet.
ive made the timetable, so it will be more organised. tapi!
i just dont know why, the spirit to start open the booksss havent arived yet :(
*maybe the flight delayed due to storm in US*
erm erm,
tetibe this words cross my mind,
"afraid of losing someone when he's not even yours"
what a pathetic feeling :|
lahaii, I CAN STAND ON MY OWN LAHH!
pfffffttt~

*take a deep breath*

okay, tadi kann, tadi, just now, this noon,
my key was left in the locker, and, I accidently, had locked the locker, without even realise that the keys is in the locker. and, I'm sooo brilliant to the max which i put the spare key IN THE LOCKER!
yess, I know I'm soooo intelligent~ please be jelly -___________-
dah laa I put all my stuff in the locker!I cannot do any of my routine today as everything that i need is in there :(
then, I search for any keys that might be suit to my key that it can open the lock, tapi, semua hampa..
I was just thinking of, if only I have a hammer :') everything would be easier,,
na pecah kan pintu locker pun i tak mampu :'(
kalau lahh abah was there :') mesti solved,,
then, I terpaksa laa, went down to UPK and make a report. so that, abg mantenance would come and be the savior :D hukhuk~
ahh!dasar perempuan lemahh~hurmm,,
i tak tahu lah kenapa kann,
this sem, I really relies on others, I dont as independent as before :(
the level of laziness is like overwhelming my body!
and the worst is, I can smell that my pointer could probably decline :|
that day, I called eza, I was just too stress..
speaking about hope,destiny and faith
I simply lost each of them.
terukk kann?
dah laa,
I dont want to even think of it again :')
Allah made it this way cik ct! you have to be patient! remember, pintu rezeki Allah tu luas!
hurmm,
hoping for the best this sem :')
as I went to the library, I can see that there's alot of students who has start revising :\
and, the question is, when I can be one?
the situation is totally different this sem, kalau sem lepas tu, I was too excited to really work hard so that I can pass with flying colours. and, I will entitle to get the fast track,, my self motivation is too high that I can cope with all the shitty surroundings. because I know, I wont be facing it in the future. I wont be in Jengka dahh, you may do everything. It wont bring me down. I dont even care of any miserable things that happen around me. sebab my focus is just one. I want to get an excelent result, and leave jengka for fast track! tapii, as you know, from my previous post. I was crying like an insane that UITM had abolished the right to pursue fast track. and, as the result, I HAVE to face all the bullshitness for the rest of 3 semesters!
I dont know how to stand in this hell anymore when the only reason for me of staying here had lost..
I lose the HOPE..
it is sad to know that, all your hardship are worthless. so, here I'm..
sitting here, on my bed, typing this entry, wasting her time, and havent start studying for finals!
ya Allah,,I'm really afraid this attitude will bring me down :|
ahh!I'm just being too paranoid !
erm, susah jugak kalau ada mindset yg sangat firm nie kann?
I need someone to wake me up!
ahh, see?"I need someone" again, she's not independent as before..
owh tidak2!
I DONT NEED ANYONE AS LONG AS I HAVE ALLAH!
I CAN STAND ON MY OWN!
I CAN FLY WITOUT YOU LAHH!
all i need is to live my life (eza,2013)

yeahh!attention attention!
please make a way!
this cik ct has waken up!
she's all ready to burn the laziness and start move her ass to fight in the war!
lets the battle begin!
to the victory here we goo!
I study for my religion, my race and my pride!

accountant muslimah here we go!
may Allah bless me, insyaAllah :')
eh, ingat tauu, Allah sngt sweet to me :*

*this might be the last entry for me (as soon as the finals end, I will start posting again insyaAllah)
pray for me yeahh! May Allah help me in this journey towards victory.


nahh, last word,

smart people dont push themselves to study,
they have strategies !

another leaver :')

i takk boleh :'(
i just cant :'(
i just cant see those pictures of you guys, flying to overseas..
it burst the tears :'(
i wish im the one :'(
ya Allah, make me strong enough to stand the pain,,
please make firm of my heart that this is the best way for me :') insyaAllah :")

*NAI*

 

*sarah*

GOODLUCK kalian :')
have a safe journey
may Allah protect and bless you guys..
grabb all the chances in Japan!
i remember NAI once said to me,
"life is about, once you get a chance, grab it!"
i miss you NAI :')

mom, study week, him

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)

alhamdullilah :) it's friday :)
I'm still alive :)

okay, i dont have any idea to write,erm, lets see what interest you the most, ermm,
guys?mom?STUDY WEEK?
okay, lets start with mom,
heheh,
I dont know how my life gonna be if ever god take her :')
she's like my diary bergerak :')
always there to hear the problems, sharing gossips, giving advise infact being my consultant in every thing i did :')
ya Allah, you may take everything from me, but not her :') my life gonna be misrable without her. love her the way she loves me from the day i were born till today :')

then, study week starts today!
hurm, feeling nervous!
well, we only have 4 finals paper!
account, computerised account, cost accounting and economics,
seen it?
3 account related paper -_____-"
im gonna be dead meat :s
paling cuak of course, FAR 250!
i wise friend said to me,
kalau dulu kau x score account paper, you may say i didnt have account basic back in spm, but now,
since we're learning new account sylibus, which spm student didnt learn as well, kalau kau x score jugak, dont blame for the basics, kau tu yang memang x pandai akaun actually!erk~
okay, indeed~
so, i have to really struggle!seriously i cuak, mentor and sifu cant help much since sifu said, he's totally lost in this semester, he cant catch up in every subjects too. mentor pulak, "ty  pun macam blur2 far kali nie, i cant help you since i cant help myself neither" :'(
okayy, the moment when even the top scorer cant understand the subject -___-"
sigh~
dear cik ct!wake up wake up!you have to help yourself!dont depend on others~
okay, too bad to mention, sem ini i banyak depend on others. i just dont know why :'(
im no more independent cik ct :(
hurmm...
eh, boringg right??lets jump to more interesting gossips!heheh,,
eh, before that, NAI and sara are flying to japan today :'( good luck and have a safe journey :')
*wondering when do my time comes*

next gossip,
entahla, i think i've moved onnn :)
i think im wayyy too good to fit you!ahahah~
what makes you guys different is, you're too social. i cant stand with you, ingat takk dulu i once compare the two of you,,not much differences, both brilliant, have vision and superb. tapi what makes you lil bit behind is that, dia got religion :) eh, bukan na cakap u tak ada agama, tapi, your way of life is like bit far from islam. itu makes me look up at dia. yes, dia. no more you :') but, whatever it is, im still glad to know you :) you're so much things i ever had. and i never regret those precious moment being with you :) it is just that, let us remain friend forever :')
ya Allah, perhaps, i can forget him is because of dia.glupp~
i know You are the best planner, but if I have the right to choose, I would like to have him ya Allah :')
please make my wish come true :* eh~
kbai~

I got nothing to be jealous of

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)

sometimes, it's hard to live in the most humble way.
I tried to be one, i would possibly avoid showing off any good deed that i did.
hurmm, it's hard to live in the center of popularity
people would always look at you,
they would judge any of your doings, especially if you've done something bad..
and, it's too bad, if they still holding on your bad attitude, even if you've changed :(

okay, tak tak, that's not the point..
actually,
I could smell something fishy,eh sala, i can feel that she's jealous of me.
well, girl, i'm nothing to be jealous of!
dont treat me that way, Its making me worst. i dont want to be labeled as riak infront of Allah :(
ya Allah, please protect me from feeling riak :(
hurmm,

one day,
a lecturer call me, and, I never neglect any incoming calls, sebab, that call might be important for the caller. atleast, if I really dont have a chance to answer that call, I would try to leave a message stating that, I cant answer the call cuz I'm class, or what..

okay, erm,
masa tu, our club advisor call me, asking about peer andd, informing about the claim has been approved sebagai,
and, one of my friend nie heard the conversation between me and madam,
then, x semena2, as soon as I ended the call, she ask me,
"madam kol ke?"
"yes, asking bout ***" then, 5 min later, she ask me again,
"when did you receive the call?"
"huh?just now ?"
"yeah, when is the exact time?"
"i dont know,basically, around 5 min before,"
"lahh, cant you just look at the time when you receive the call?"
"lahh?for what?erm, 3.30"
"owh, no wonder, madam call me first, but i didnt answer it cuz my phone was on silent, that's why she call you"
and, I was like, huhhh???
babe, what's the point???I dont get it -______-" kau na ckp, kau lagi penting that madam kol you first ke apa?
seriously,i dont get it -_______________________-"

then, tadi, I was asking my classmate when will be maf's test sebagai, while holding my phone, as if someone is asking me thru the phone, and, I need to get the answer as soon as possible.
pastu, out of a sudden, yan said,
"ain, nak jugak"
"what?"
"the message that you sent to zaty tu"
"huh?ain tanya cuz, i want to set in my reminder laa"
"lahh, she said, that you're informing zaty about the test"
nampak takk?
she always judge me on everything i do, she loves to create her own assumption towards me :'(
babe, what's your problem huh? assumption yang kau buat tu macam kau jeles dengan ain je, why not kau ask myself about what I;m doing rather than making speculation on me !
and, as if yea pun i text zaty telling her about the test, kau peduli apa?
your attitude make me thinks that,
kau jeles,and always na compare diri kau dengan ain, right?
you always wonder what am i doing.
busybody~
well, correct me if im wrong :s

and, ary tu ada la jugak,
I just got back from kononnya la studying,
tak semena2, she told my fried as soon as they saw me,
"ain study pun na bawak beg"
okay, during that moment,
i didnt tell anybody where im from, it's like, I've been missing from early in the morning, wearing a pyjama, with my beg.
the truth is, yes, i pergi study(lah konon) tapii,
tak perlu kowt kau na mention kat semua orang yang ain baru balek study!
kau ad prove ke na tuduh ain study huh? <-- huh, weird, I get angry when people accused me of doing good deed.
like seriously, i hate it when people know what i'm doing!
kau tak ya na busybody boleh?????
kalau tahu tu, senyap2 je, dont let others know !
and, apa point kau ckp "ain study pun na bwk beg"
what's the point???
dah kalau na study mesti la bawak beg kann?
hello, my beg is like poket doraemon okayy!
it contains everything that i need,
infact pergi mana2 pun, i will always bring my beg,
dalam tu ada segala macam, calculator, pencil case, diary, mineral water, mp3, purse, specs, semuaa laa! I cant simply left any of them!

haihh, stress duduk dengan orang macam ni :s

tear drops

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)

life's getting stress day by day
is it just me, or the surrounding who made it that way ?
hurmm, im kinda torturing myself. phyco.
i miss someone :'(
abang.
everything seems so easy for him
he get anything he wants.
well,kau ingat senang ke na galas nama mrsm langkawi on your shoulder ?
i envy abang so much~
he's now in UK~
while me?
in uitm jengka doing diploma,
yes,im from mrsm langkawi yet, im here, in malaysia, uitm jengka, taking diploma in accountancy.
and, abang, is from SDAR, have flawn to UK, under MARA scholar, future-chem-engineer :'(
everything comes so easy for him.
he's debater, top-scorer, superb!
while me?
im just nothing~
nothing as compare to him :(
huh, I HATE COMPARISON~
and,now, I starts to question myself,
if only i realize how much mrsm valued, provides the platform for their students to fly,
i surely gonna utilize that chance :'(
im not gonna play or fooling around,
i stress~

yes, Im stuck in here,
dilemma, conflict, depress~

 

maybe it's just me who think too much,
yeah, well,
what will you feel if, you comes from the most well-known school who produce a verryy excellent student, but, you ended up, taking diploma when in university,,
while, all other friends, are taking preparatory course, going to fly to overseas,,
yet, you, living in malaysia, holding the name of ex-mrsm langkawi, doing diploma, which are rarely be heard, but, pathetically, you never got 4.00 !
aii, kata budak mrsm langkawi, tapi x dpt pulak 4.00? diploma je kowt ! laen la kalau kau amek IB! diploma pun kau x mampu na dpt 4.00?
faham takk ayat tu macam terngiang2 kat telinga??!
i stress !
i never cry without a reason, but, just now, the tear drops on its own.
too much pain that she bare through all this while
and, she cant hold it anymore.
I need a hug to reconcile the spirit back,
O Allah, I believe i can bare this pain. by refering to your words in surah al-baqarah 286 :')

:'(

saya stress dan rasa na menangis~

mungkin ini zaman kejatuhan i kowt :'(

I miss maktab soo much!
i wish i could turn back time to where it all starts

bleak

bismilahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)

second post of the day,
erm, ive got back my computer test result :'(
need to really work out this time,
I've been playing too much lately,
leisure time is off! starts now cik ct!
that's must be the reminder from Allah!
you've gone too far from Him, hurmm..

semua kuiz test, are badd,
dah, i tak na main2 lagi~
enough cik ct!
hurmm~
stress,
to think of it,
I made it that way,,
I'm the one who's responsible for the result~
as for costing paper,
i just dont know why, I cant go on with calculation and theory part at one time..
the tendancy for me to just focus on calculation is too high, and I might neglect the theory part,
dah 2 paper theory part meng drag the whole paper to get lower mark :'(
account and costing :'(
I wish there is no theory part for the paper that I love
I dont have any back up now,
just imagine, okay, I got alhamdulillah result all this while, isnt because of account paper.
pointer i naik sebab i ada back up paper laen, I score at other than account paper.
tapi, as for this sem, 3 papers are account-related subject, while we dont have final exam for english, and, eco is quite tough,,I dont know where else to get back up :'(
ya Allah, please guide me all thru these hardship :'(
kalau dulu, I have such a high self-motivation, I wanna pursue fast track,,
I wanna fly to aussie, to be with him.
I can actually differentiate those bullshit and crappy things.
I can stand on my own though~
tapi, sekarang, all the hopes are gone :'"(
I lost fast track, I lost him, I lost my bestfriend, I can feel that I;ve lost everything :'(
and, I;m just a weak servant of Him :'(

people can live about 40 days without food,
5 days without water,
but just 1 second without hope :'(
and yet, I've lost my hope :'(

I need  my strength back! I need my hope back! please dont take it from me,yes, I'm begging you :'(

O Allah, I believe in your words, You wont test me over my ability. yes, I know I able to handle this, but, I wont be able to get over the stressness alone, I need your guidance, may every decision comes with your bless :')

maybe

I'm glad to see that you're happy :)

she's just perfect for you,hurmm..

better to step back :')

cik ct, move on !

Allah sngt sweet :*

bismilahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)

feeling blessed :) alhamdullilah,
despite the hardship sitting for muet this morning :')
Allah still gives me strength to hold onto, to standstil in this pressure :")
ya Allah, why are You so sweet :') I've done too many sins, but then, you still help me in my daily life,,
tadi,
i was just too stress for nothing, the cause are still blured, sleeping still cant reduce the stressness though,
so, after performing maghrib, I decided to randomly open the holy quran. just to know what are the cause of these stressness.
well, I bumped into surah an-biya' ayat 82-101,
"hurmm, so, lets read what's Allah trying to convey to me thru all these hardship"
then, I read the translation since I'm not born in arab society to easily understand the meaning of those holy words kann,
then, came across ayat 89, eh?
the meaning is familiar to me, I've heard someone advice me to practise reciting the words as du'a..
here's the meaning,

"And (remember) Zakariya (Zachariah), when he cried to his Lord: "O My Lord! Leave me not single (childless), though You are the Best of the inheritors."

yes, recite this verse :) one of this sistah told me,,
and, I feel like,
huh?dah kenapa Allah gerak kan hati nie na terbukak sura anbiya, and baca pulak ayat nie? =,="
i thought I was just stress because of MUET, rupanya, Allah knows more than I do. I stress the most because of men =,=" and, yes, I admit it -_____-"
yet, after reciting those ayat, I feel blessed :')
Allah sangat sweet kat saya hoiii!hahah,sungguh takk matang~
I smiled, my heart melted, I fall in love with Allah :')

so, the point here is to say that, whenever you feel like giving up, back to basic, leave everything to Allah, talk to Him thru du'a, and, get the reply from quran. Allah have put all the answer in it. trust me. it helps me in most of my difficult times :')

and that's why Im asking you to hold on to these words, believe in what Allah says :')

 

 

#actually, I tenga pakai mask sekarang, and that moment when your roomates tease you, but you cant even smile, afraid that it might wrinkle your face~ =,=" pasang mp3 kuat2, ignore those teasing la jawabnya~huhu,,

MUET sucks!

bissmilahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)

done with MUET :'(
why sad smiley?cuz, I didnt do well for the paper :'(
reading seriously high level punya passage,haihh, can you imagine, the easiest paper compare to ielts n toefl pun i didnt manage to score, ada hati na amek ielts la konon!kononononnn!haihh, stressss!
as for the writing part, as usual, masaaa!the idea is like, tadika punya budak,and, tulisan,,not to mention la kann~ urghhhhhh!
my friend said, silap la kau na repeat muet amek march session :(
kbai~

shameless me

bismilahirahmanirahim and assamalualaikum :)

I cant wait to post this,
i rarely switch on my lappy just to write in this blog..
actually, I want to share some of my experiance,

have you ever ask god, why you dont get what you want?
yeah, me too, I always dream for something bigg..
well. it's my principle to always aim for the sky..
and, sometime, I feel like giving up when the victory is still far from me no matter how hard I tried..
and, that's the moment when I starts questioning why is it Allah do that to me :(
yes, shameless me :'(
I'm ungreatful servant of Him~
I always blame others for my lose
hurmm~

tadi kann, my adopted sister, text me,
she said, something like this,
laziness is the most killer disease in our heart, beat that or it will bite you,never ever give up yeah!
then, I replied, I never feel lazy to improve my performance, it;s just that, sometimes, I get tired of chasing something that is uncertain.
then, she replied, bnyak jugak, tapi, the most touched words is,
 "ALLAH SAYANGKAN ADIK TU, that's why He tested you, meaning He didnt forget you"
my godd :')
Allah never forget me?

yaAllah, I dont have idea how much I've been neglecting You, yet, You never forget me :')
how sweet You are :')

to think of it, there're actually millions of gift from You.
it's just that, I dont really approciate those gifts. I keep doubting myself as if You dont want me to success :'( yes, poor me for having that kind of thought :'( maybe Allah havent give me the most thing I;ve ever dream which is to fly abroad for studying, because he wanted me to learn something in Malaysia first, as to be the quidance when Ive flew.
or maybe bak kata pn salwani, "masih ada perjuangan yang belum selesai untuk ain kat uitm nie" ohh godd!ayat tu sangat menyentuh kalbu kowt :') yes,perhaps.

maybe Allah didnt give those bigg dream of mine, tapi, He  did give me somehting. everyday. every second. it's just me who dont realize it, owh, ungreatful me!hurmm~

I just remember about the doa I keep praying for 1 of this guy to dont have a mess with me, because, it cause me to death!I'm getting sick of his badd attitude, especially towards me. but, praise to Allah, I never give up in praying to Allah so that he will change. Alhamdullilah :) he changed. we're no longer like anjing and kucing(which is, I'm the cat la kalau dulu kan)

and, tadi, another problem of mine, is that, I cant focus in AIS' class, under certain reason which I wont tell you here, tapi, tadi, I keep praying to Allah, I want to concentrate 100% in todays class. I hope Allah will help me. yes, indeed, He helps me :') another sweet thing You did to me O Allah :') I'm touched~

there's always a way for him to help me. so guys, keep asking from Allah. I bet He wont dissapoint you!trust me.

cumanya, sometimes, I feel like sooo useless, I've asked too much things from You, but never obey your instruction, perfectfully :'( saya tak tahu malu :'(

O Allah, please forgive me for all my wrongdoings. eventhough sometime, I feel those sins are so unforgivable. yet,I believe, Al Ghafar,will surely forgive me no matter how much sins that I've commited from the day I were born :'(

stay away

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)

hello everybodyyy :)
i've gone thru hard time these days..
I dont know why, this place doesnt suit me, I wish I can take a break and jump to another new diffrent world.
I'm getting sick of these bullshitness everyday.
i just couldnt stand it anymore :'(
i wont mind if you wanna make friend with my bestfriend,,
everybody deserve to make friend with anyone they wish to be friend with,
it is just that, you've taken the whole her! sometimes i feel so regret for introducing her to you :(
yes, it's my badd, hurmm~
ermm, i dont know, maybe it's just me who being so problematic :s
ahhhhh!
lagi na cakap is,
what will you feel if,
you tell your friend about your crush, and then, few days later, you saw your friend with your crush, erm, basically, not dating, but they kinda beramah mesra together. ain menyesal sangat bagi tahu pasal dia kat you :'(
this is not the first when i feel like a dumb by you. i serik. i tak na kawan dengan you lagi~
i dont want to even come near to you!ahh!yes, you may take everything from me, take my bestfriend, take my crush,infact, take everything from me!it wont make me weak.
what doesnt kill you makes you stronger,
stand a little taller,
doesnt mean im lonely when im alone~
yes, i believe in those word :')
thanx for making me knowing you well
i've known you real well !

I'm not

bismilahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum everyone :)

it's friday :) alhamdullilah,
every good doings count!so let's improve guys!hehe,
erm, erm, I only have 1 class today as the BEL's class had been cancelled :)
erm, ermI just wanna say that, I'm not the kind of person who can be labelled as friend for benefits.
but, I got few friends with this such pissed off attitude,
if you're looking for a friend that you can take advantage on, please, I'm not the one.
hurmm, the longer the friendship, the better you know that person's are kan?
it turn me down knowing that attitude :(
I tought we could be a best friend, dah banyak kali I cuba deny the tought,,hurmm..
I sedih tengok kawan melayu i mcm tu, like seriously :'(
hurmm,kalau kawan yang kaya banyak harta that you can get benefits from, i bukan lah orangnya.
wealth does seem to be the indicator for me to look onto that person, I value his/her knowledge more that anything else. if you wanna be noticed by me, add up your knowledge, not your wealth. I respect people with knowledge :)

I sedih tengok kwn2 i yang lupa tanggungjawab dia datang ke UiTM nie, it's like, you datang sini untuk grab all the opportunity to succeed, bukan to look for leisure, boyfriend, semua tu. remember, we're in UiTM, fully malay. so, use the advantage wisely to be well prepared in the real world~yes, I guess that's the reason why. the environment is not competative though :S
if you could read this, I just wanna say that, I miss the time when we study together like seriously :')
i wish i can say this right to your ear :(

I once had a roomate whose brought her car to hostel, tapi,I never take advantage on her, she always ask me if i na tumpang dia ke kelas, but,I never accept the offer. I rather walk to class with the classmates. kalau na pergi bandar pun, I rather bayar rm1, rather than ask her to send me.I tak suka hutang budi. susah na bayar balek nanti. that's is what my mum told me. she said, no matter how hard your situation is, never depend on others.

and, ada jugak kawan I yang i nampak semakin lalai dengan boyfriend dia. I'm not jelly okay, it's just that,I kesian tengok dia, mak ayah send her to uitm to study. tapi, lain pulak anak dia buat~ i'm not saying that i;m a good child, i ada jugak gedik2 sana gedik2 sini, tapi i know my limit. ada masa I have to study, ada masa i play like an insane. cuma kau, u dont able to control your nafsu. and, that's why im asking you to stop. it's because i love you, we're the selected people to be uitm student, malay, islam. jangan kau rosak kan peluang yang ada ni, there are alot others malay in pusat serenti sebagai, yang tinggal dalam perjalanan towards victory ini, tinggal kita je, kita sahaja harapan negara sayang!I love MALAYSIA okay, i wish we can succeed together, kau na bercinta bagai na rak pun i wont mind, cuma, make sure you dont neglect your obligation as a student..hurmm, hope you'll change soon :) insyaAllah~

Pray for lahad datu

bismillahirahmanirahim and assalamualaikum :)

hi everybody, eh, hi semua :)
okay, post kali ini in malay kowt, sebab ain na bagi masyarakat MELAYU khususnya supaya faham situasi di lahad datu, sabah
first of all, let's recite al-fatihah for our hero,Insp zulkifli and sarjan sabarudin,
al-fatihah~

okay, first skali, I na cakap, i bukan pro pembangkang atau kerajaan, I'm just 20 and just look for the best :)



erm erm, kalau korunk semua na tahu, malaysia sekarang tengah otw na perang. yes, WAR!
come on guys, wake up!this is our country!

okay, cerita yang i tahu is, tentera kesultanan sulu dari filipina dah masuk lahad datu, sabah sebab , YA Allah!sabah?okay, i baru teringat i ada kawan yang belajar kat sabah!eza, sheera, jaga diri!jangan merayau2, duduk je dalam U, hurmm~okay, sambung balek, tentera tu masuk sabah sebab mereka na tuntut kembali hak2 mereka keatas tanah di sabah, basically kat lahad datu.

erm, sila baca balek sejarah tanah melayu yea untuk tahu lebih lanjut mengapa mereka na tuntut hak pulak.

kes ini dah 2 minggu kowt berlanjutan, tentera kesultanan sulu menceroboh malaysia,siap dengan kelengkapan perang, setakat yang ain baca, total ada approximately 150 orang penceroboh, mula2, mereka tak buat apa2, jadi kerajaan cuma senyap je.

tak amek tindakan.

okay, sebab apa?
sebab, kerajaan tak mahu isu ini di gembar gemburkan. mereka mahu selesaikan secara diplomatik. well, ini melibatkan 2 buah negara kowt!salah langkah, boleh perang dunia ke-tiga!well, sebab tu mereka senyap2 je. kalian2 yang ikut sedap mulut cakap kerajaan tak buat apa2 tu, sila la fikirkan semula statement yang anda buat tu,
ingat tak kisah Rasullulah, yang mana baginda hari2 di maki hamun oleh seorang buta yang ditolong nya, baginda x pernah balas balek dengan kejahatan kan?instead, baginda terus buat baik, sampai lah si buta tu sendiri yang ter malu dengan attitude dia towards Rasullullah.
same goes to our nation. masihkah kau ingat, tanah melayu merdeka tanpa pertumpahan darah?incredible! jadi, itu lah jugak contoh terbaik yang pihak kerajaan cuba laksana kan, mereka tak mahu isu ini heboh, and pretend as it is all well sebab na jaga keamanan negara kita, yes, NEGARA KITA,
MALAYSIA~

apa yang kita, sebagai rakyat biasa ni, boleh buat, is, berdoa banyak2 agar penceroboh tu insaf, we want to live in peace :')

too bad to hear that, some idiot people kaitkan isu ini dengan politics. ya Allah, dah la politik sekarang ni tak berapa na stabil, see?musuh always look for any opportunity to reap us!jadi, kepada pemimpin2 rakyat, what's matter now is, cubalah berhenti sekejap isu politik na pilihan raya ni, apa kata sama2 berbincang, how to solve the problems. lahad datu tu kepunyaan MALAYSIA kowt!

well, cuba bayangkan, israel yang pada mulanya diberi tanah oleh palestin cuma sekangkang kera pun dia boleh tawan sampai palestin pulak yang jadi sekangkang kera. malaysia?dah la tanah kita kecik, kalau start sulu tawan lahad datu, kawasan2 sekitar boleh la prepare untuk di tawan jugak kowt?ya Allah, mintak di jauhkan~

hurmm, apa yang i na cakap kat sini is, jangan lah kita mengutuk kerajaan tak amek apa2 tindakan ke apa, sebab, kalau mereka tak amek apa2 tindakan, macam mana boleh ada ATM kat sana untuk berkawal?
cakap biar berasaskan pengetahuan, bukan ikut sedap mulut je :)
dengan politik x stabilnya,dengan masalah pencerobohan nya, yaAllah, seriously, I takut sangat, jangan lah terjadi apa2 yang buruk terhadap malaysia.

kalau chinese boleh lari ke China, indian boleh balek semula ke India, kita melayu?na lari mana?kat sini je tanah kita, yes, TANAH MELAYU! bersatu lah semua melayu, jangan lah berpecah2 semua ni, apa ada pada jawatan kalau x dapat laksanakan tugas dengan baik kan?cikgu2 kalian tak pernah cakap ke, kalau kita jadi pemimpin nie, sebelah kaki kita dah masuk dalam neraka?<--owh gosh!this statement is too childish, nahh, i hope u get the point~ lets pray for lahad datu :')